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[kavi ~he-him~]

so I was like, "IT'S THAT MONSTER FROM THE STANGER THINGS" I didn't yell that out loud tho. XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just tagged Jon in a post along with 3 of my other best friends, saying that I missed them all so much. I wonder if he saw it

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lillian wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "spoiler alert: read at your own risk

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YAY!!! I so shipped them since I watch like the first episode."

SAME I also ship Jonathan and Nancy

[kavi ~he-him~]

ugh, I woke up this morning, and I just lay in bed for awhile before coming down. I come down at 10, and my mom goes like, "you woke up late, you have to have some discipline on school days, and you need to study." Then I asked her, if studying is the only important thing, then she says yeah.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Hey Sis, did your cousin join? I wanna say hi to her XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was laying in bed for awhile before getting up, because I was having difficulties getting up, because my depression was kicking in, and I had to force myself to get up.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sylveon-Raven- wrote: "Hey Sis, did your cousin join? I wanna say hi to her XD"

I'll ask her

[kavi ~he-him~]

I know I need to study, but she doesn't need to keep reminding me, I'm already stressed enough and I have to deal with my depression and my own mind as well.

[kavi ~he-him~]

my suicidal thoughts are back

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm tired of fighting.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just want a break from all this stress and depression, and everything.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Sylveon-Raven- wrote: "Hey Sis, did your cousin join? I wanna say hi to her XD"

I'll ask her"

Cool :D I wanna get to know your cousin sis

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just want to live but it's so hard.

[kavi ~he-him~]

why is living so hard?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I made a goal to stay alive until I meet one of my favorite band, but the day I meet them, seems so far away, I have my dreams, but they seem so far away.

[kavi ~he-him~]

so doing some thinking.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

so, remember when I said I'd been diagnosed with Autism 3 months ago?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm wondering, why I'd been diagnosed with Autism 3 months ago, and not when I was little.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Because I've been a special ed kid, my whole life.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have speech impairment issues, I've had that since I was little, I went to speech therapy for 11 years.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have a learning disability. And ADD, I think, idk for sure. The teachers said I had ADD. That was before I'd been diagnosed with Autism

[kavi ~he-him~]

Kazuto wrote: "Can I ask you something?"

sure

[kavi ~he-him~]

Tho, I think I have ADD too, because I've always had difficulties paying attention in class. I have short-attention span

[kavi ~he-him~]

none of my friends from High school, knew I was a special kid, I never really told them, I didn't even tell Jonathan. Because I was scared of what they were going to say

[kavi ~he-him~]

idek, I was really confused and upset, and I kept denying that I had Autism, because I didn't know for sure.

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's hard being a special ed kid sometimes.

[kavi ~he-him~]

and I also have Social Anxiety, so

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was jealous of my brother because he was in all honors, and so smart, and I'm just a special ed kid.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've probably said this before, but I'm a premature kid, I was supposed to be born in September but I was born a month earlier in August

[kavi ~he-him~]

before my brother and I were born, he got a lot of the food, I didn't get much.

[Hallie]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "I've probably said this before, but I'm a premature kid, I was supposed to be born in September but I was born a month earlier in August"

Same.

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk anyone in my family that has autism

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "I've probably said this before, but I'm a premature kid, I was supposed to be born in September but I was born a month earlier in August"

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "before my brother and I were born, he got a lot of the food, I didn't get much."

it's the reason I'm short and my twin brother is tall

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I have Aspersers, Sensory Progressing Disorder, Learning Disabilities.

[kavi ~he-him~]

also Ben from Asking Alexandria noticed me for the 27th time. AHHHHH

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk why but it makes me happy when they like my post or comment, or notice me. I know it's just a like, but for me, just one like, means a lot.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love how Ben is so interactive with his fans.

[Jess]

is asking alexandria any good? i've never heard their music but all of my friends love them

[kavi ~he-him~]

杰西 wrote: "is asking alexandria any good? i've never heard their music but all of my friends love them"

YES!! ASKING ALEXANDRIA IS AMAZING!!

[Jess]

i think your icon is andy biersack right? hehehe i don't really know my way around that kind of music.

what other stuff do you like? i mostly listen to classic and indie rock and kpop lol

[kavi ~he-him~]

杰西 wrote: "i think your icon is andy biersack right? hehehe i don't really know my way around that kind of music.

what other stuff do you like? i mostly listen to classic and indie rock and kpop lol"

Yep, he's my hero

[kavi ~he-him~]

I listen to mostly alternative/punk rock, hard rock, soft rock, and classic rock

[Jess]

what classic rock do you like and what are some of your favorite bands? my favorites are hole, nirvana, and cherry glazerr :))

[kavi ~he-him~]

Guns n roses, the Beatles, Nirvana, Journey, Queen, etc.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'd been listening to the same song on repeat for most of today XD


Never giving up by Of Mice and Men


I love that band, they are good

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

SIS GUESS WHAT?!

[kavi ~he-him~]

WHAT??

[kavi ~he-him~]

so, that demogorgon from Stranger things came in my dreams last night O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

AHHHHH!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was at a university getting food and then that Demogorgon comes after us