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[kavi ~he-him~]

my parents don't really know what happened with my "friends"

[kavi ~he-him~]

I rather not tell them tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've been in 3 groups well technically 4 or 5 idk.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I left the first one because they weren't that nice.

[kavi ~he-him~]

the second one, I used to hang out with them in recess in 4th grade, but then they just left me. we used to hang out and play tag, and stuff, but then one day they told me not to follow them, I was confused, and they started running away from me, and I kept running after them, and I was crying, and then after a few days I just stopped going after that and I went to another group.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was already friends with one of the ppl in that group, so I just joined. and one of the ppl became my best friend, and I love her. She's so nice to me. And I'd made some really nice and sweet friends but then everyone in that group just moved away. Tho I'm still in touch with my best friend but it's not the same. tho tbh those ppl were nice and all, but they often left me out and stuff, and they caused a lot of drama....me and my best friend, were the ones that were always neutral. And my best friend is nice tho, I love her

[kavi ~he-him~]

but I have difficulties making new friends, and finding a new group, but when I got to high school, I made some friends and they were nice, but idk if I was a part of their group or not.

[kavi ~he-him~]

but two of my friends left me tho and one of them hurt me really badly

[kavi ~he-him~]

but in 11th and 12th grade I found a group, and I joined them, Jonathan is in that group, and I love them, they accepted me for ME, and they cared for me so much, but now college is here and everyone is in different colleges

[Robyn-]

wassup

[Robyn-]

sorry to interrupt you lol

[kavi ~he-him~]

ROBYNNNN

[kavi ~he-him~]

also I'm angry rn. WTH IS WRONG WITH PPL

[kavi ~he-him~]

a new asking Alexandria song is coming out tomorrow and someone leaked it

[kavi ~he-him~]

can't ppl just wait for the release date??

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love Asking Alexandria and they worked really hard on the songs.

[kavi ~he-him~]

a lot of the bands work really hard on their songs and bands

[kavi ~he-him~]

I am a member of the AA family and I love asking Alexandria and they are like my family. just like bvb is

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love them not just as a fan, but as a family. it's the same with BVB tho bvb is forever my #1 fav band

[kavi ~he-him~]

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[kavi ~he-him~]

I just ranted about some of my troubles to Austin from Of mice and men on twitter x.x

[[deleted user]]

lol

[kavi ~he-him~]

because he posted some inspiring words on twitter and then I just ranted about my problems because it's hard for me to do those things he talked about

[kavi ~he-him~]

Austin's tweet:

The people that have hurt you in the past only hurting yourself by replaying w/e they did over & over in your head. Letting it go it HARD, BUT forgiving them doesn't allow them to take up rent in your mind anymore

[kavi ~he-him~]

I needed to hear those words but it's hared for me to let those memories go, and it's hard for me to forgive those ppl for what they did.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I still haven't forgiven my "friend" for hurting me really badly, 3 years ago. And it happened 3 YEARS AGO!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

how do I let it go, or forgive them when the memories keep haunting me?

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's because of HER I'm now struggling with major trust issues.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't stand her. I'm glad high school is over, because then, I don't have to see her again.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't forgive her....even if I do forgive her, I can never forget the memories.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

I kinda freaked out in a group and wrote a long paragraph towards someone..............


Also hey Kavy.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sylveon-Raven- wrote: "I kinda freaked out in a group and wrote a long paragraph towards someone..............


Also hey Kavy."

what group?


Hey sis

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

https://www.goodreads.com/topic/show/...


I was literally trying not to cry when writing it

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm so sorry sis, you are so kind and nice and, those ppl are idiots to treat you like that. I love you sis.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

I need a hug....(candy and spaghetti as well)

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sylveon-Raven- wrote: "I need a hug....(candy and spaghetti as well)"

*hugs you*

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http://www.simplyrecipes.com/recipes/...

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

*Hugs back*

[[deleted user]]

Sylveon-Raven- wrote: "https://www.goodreads.com/topic/show/...


I was literally trying not to cry when writing it"

I can't see it.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Oh, you on an iPad or phone?

Sorry Kavy if I ended up taking my problems onto here

[[deleted user]]

On my laptop. It saids I'm not a member to that group.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

You cans joins if u wants

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sylveon-Raven- wrote: "Oh, you on an iPad or phone?

Sorry Kavy if I ended up taking my problems onto here"

it's fine

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've already told you guys the story about my ex-friend and I, but I guess I'll tell you guys again

[kavi ~he-him~]

my ex-friend hadn't even been my friend for long before she left me

[kavi ~he-him~]

In 9th grade, in my art class, I was sitting at this table, with all boys, except for me and my ex-friend, so we started talking and we sorta became friends, I don't know if we were really friends, or if she was just somebody I talked to. We were sorta friends for a month, and she helped me with my art projects a few times. And I waved to her outside of class, and she waved back, then after awhile, she stops talking to me and starts trying to avoid me, she waves to her other friends but when I wave to her she just drops her hand. I started to feel sad, and I wondered what I did wrong....and then in my Art class, she left my table and sat at another table, with her friend, which is also my friend too. but I still kept trying to wave to her and trying to be her friend. But it was hard because she stopped trying. But I didn't stop. I didn't want to stop. And it was also hard because we had a mutual friend, then one day, after class, I went over to her and my other friend, and waited for them, then she stared at me hard, and says, "I'm not your friend, you know that right?" I shouldn't have cared, I tried not to but it hurt a lot, and my heart dropped and shattered....then on the last week of school, on the exam day she kept looking at me with a dirty look.....Idk what I'd done to her.....all I did was try to be her friend....and what made things worse is we have mutual friends, and one of our mutual friends was there when she said that to me....she was still my friend, but she was also her friend too....then in 10th grade, she starts waving to me and giving this smile, a few times she'd talked to me but it sounded obnoxious, and I thought she wanted to be my friend but I didn't trust her and I didn't want to be her friends, normally I'm an easy forgiving person depending on the situation but she....after she hurt me she never came over to me and said sorry or anything, she never said anything, while my heart was just shattering into pieces, and then a year later she comes to me trying wave to me and stuff.....it's been three years since that happened and I still haven't forgiven her, even if I did forgive her, I can never forget her.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

why do I even try to be other ppl's friends? because someone ALWAYS stops trying and leaves me to be the only one that's trying until it's time to stop trying or until I get hurt

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

I won't ever leave you Kavy

[kavi ~he-him~]

Thanks sis, why do we all have to be so far away from each other?

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

IDK it sucks.


Move to Sterling Illinois :3

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Hey sis, do you have Hangouts?