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[kavi ~he-him~]

idek what happened

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's just my depression and my mind

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate my mind. I'm scared of my mind

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

I know how you feel Kavs.

[kavi ~he-him~]

my mind is like a dark place

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just want this never ending war to end....

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

I'm just gonna go, bye Kavs. Pm me if you wanna chat with me

[kavi ~he-him~]

okay *hugs sis* I love you sis

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

I...love you too sis........

[kavi ~he-him~]

*hugs tightly*

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

*Hugs back*

[[deleted user]]

*squish hugs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

stolen from tumblr

nebula: put your itunes on shuffle, give me the first 5 songs that pop up
-It's time by Imagine dragons
-Pretend it's home by Beth Crowley
-Fade to black by Metallica
-The divine zero by Pierce the veil
-Texas is forever by Pierce the veil
cosmos: what are you like when you’re angry at someone?
I don't get angry often
shooting star: what are you like when you're sad?
I tend to hide it with a smile.
eclipse: what are you like when you're happy?
idk
luna: favorite names?
Inna, Juliet, Andy, Jake, Ashley, Christian, Jeremy, Alice, Anna
space dust: are you happy?
idk
constellation: have you ever read a book that is worse than the movie?
no
black hole: do you have any diagnoses?
I've been diagnosed with autism 2 months ago
comet: do you like the person that you've become?
I like a part of the person that I've become, but there is another part that I hate
galaxy: are you a sun, moon or star person?
star
milky way: do you prefer math or humanities?
Humanities
satellite: when was your first kiss?
March 16, 2016
betelguise: what's something that calms you down when you're upset?
Black veil Brides
solar system: if you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
LA
sunspot: are you a sensitive person?
Yes
andromeda: describe your first best friend
she is nice, and kind, and fun
saturn: what do you think about before falling asleep?
Jonathan, Black veil brides
pulsar: what kind of person do you want to be?
No one, I like being me
cassiopeia: what do you like most about yourself?
I'm different.
orion: what do you dislike most about yourself?
idk
meteor: do you have a favorite historical figure?
no

[kavi ~he-him~]

stolen from Tumblr
1. what colors are in your room?
white
2. who was your favorite school teacher?
Mrs. Smith. I miss her, she was cool
3. what are some passions of yours?
Art, music
4. when you drink coffee, do you like it black or with cream and sugar?
I don't like coffee
5. are you self-conscious about anything? if so, what?
yes. Myself
6. do you have any tips for self-love?
no, I don't love myself
7. do you have any stuffed animals? Do you name them?
Yes. Yes
8. do you like drawing or painting more?
drawing
9. how do you sleep?
idk
10. what are some things that always make you smile?
Jonathan, Bvb
11. living in the city, mountains, small town, or out in the middle of nowhere?
city
12. what's your dream house?
somewhere near the beach
13. how many pets do you wish to have?
1 or 2
14. have you ever dyed your hair? do you want to? what color?
No :(
15. what's your opinion on keeping a diary?
It's cool
16. what's your opinion on keeping an art journal?
its cool
17. any art tips?
no
18. talk about a moment where time stopped
When I was with Jonathan
19. do you keep playlists for your music?
yes
20. is there anyone out there that you trust with your life?
yes
21. are you your number one priority?
kind of
22. do you always type correctly or do you make millions of typos?
I make typos sometimes.
23. recommend some music!!
Black Veil Brides!!
24. are your nails perfectly painted, chipped, or plain?
Plain
25. do you believe in wishing on a shooting star?
idk
26. did you see the eclipse? describe it!!
Yes. it was beautiful
27. tell us what you love about nature
It's beautiful
28. who are you? describe yourself!
I am Kavy, and I am an artist
29. what type of music do you like, and why?
Punk/Alternative Rock, Hard rock, soft rock, classic rock. Because they have really deep meaning and has been there so many times for me
30. what's your favorite clothing store? why do you love it so much?
Hot topics. It's cool because I'm an emo and a geek and a nerd
31. thrift stores or name brand stores?
name brand stores
32. do you like wearing your s.o clothes?
I never wore them
33. when did you start tumblr? why did you decide to?
2 years ago. Because I was into the fandoms
34. what's your face care routine?
idk
35. freckles or dimples?
idk
36. name something you think should be banned from the universe
Bullying
37. tell us something you did as a kid that you loved
I had an imagination. I still do
38. mom or dad?
both
39. do you buy expensive things just for the aesthetic or do you actually use everything you buy?
I use everything I buy
40. tell us about something you're strongly opinionated about
I am strongly against bullying
41. do you take peoples advice or do you have to figure things out yourself?
depends
42. bra or no bra?
bra
43. would you rather be cute or comfy?
comfy
44. tell us about a moment in your life where everything went just perfect
I can't remember
45. do you believe in anything? aliens? god? bigfoot?
I believe in Aliens because I've seen UFOs
46. how much water do you drink a day?
not that much
47. how do you feel about your natural hair?
it's nice but I want to dye my hair
48. what does the sky look like right now? clear? cloudy? pink? blue? rainy?
it's bright
49. would you be a prince or a king? princess or a queen?
a princess
50. tell us about your favorite outfit!
band tees and skinny jeans and converse
51. name a few things you love about yourself
I love helping others and making them happy
52. are you open-minded?
yes
53. do you judge? could someone come to you in any situation they're in and you not judge them?
no and yes
54. do you like planning ahead?
sometimes but I like going with the flow
55. tell us how you feel about school
I love and hate it
56. talk about your first pet
my first pet was a hermit crab. it died after a month
57. chocolate or strawberry milk?
chocolate
58. were you/are you in a fandom? if so, what?
Percy Jackson, Harry Potter, The Hunger Games, Divergent, The maze runner, Marvel, Black veil brides, etc
59. spotify, pandora, or itunes?
Spotify and pandora
60. favorite disney princess movie?
Aladdin
61. favorite disney movie
Descendants
62. what's a subject that you think people don't talk about enough?
idk
63. how long does it take you to let your phone update?
idk
64. describe the fifth picture on your phone!
too lazy
65. favorite movie and why?
Doctor strange. it had a lot of action and had some funny moments
66. do you watch studio ghibli? what's the first one you saw? what's your favorite one? I watched some movies. Spirited away was my first. Howl's moving castle is my fav
67. you're home alone. describe how the setting is. music? what kind of music? tv on? what show?
I'm usually listening to rock music
68. how often do you say "i love you"?
depends on the person
69. do you have any weird things you obsess over?
idk
70. do you like being single or do you wish you had a partner?
both
71. what's the last drink you had?
Mountain Dew
72. talk about the easiest person to talk to
he's funny, and kind.
73. give us some of your favorite blogs!
too lazy
74. if you could have one wish, what would it be?
idk
75. do you sing in the shower?
yes
76. how often do you shave? or do you wax? or do you not shave?
I rather not answer
77. tell us about a habit you wish you could stop
biting my nails
78. do you listen to your own advice?
sometimes
79. do you love yourself? if not, are you trying to?
no. yes
80. tell us about your favorite halloween!! what did you dress up as? did you get a lot of candy?
I love halloween.
81. first memory that pops in your head, talk about it.
Andy followed me on Insta, and it made me really happy
82. how are you? what are you feeling? how has your week gone?
idk. idk, good and bad
83. rant.
idk what to rant about
84. do you worry about something a lot? if so, what?
yes.
85. do you think long distance works?
depends on the love
86. would you date someone younger than you? older than you?
depends on the person
87. name some people you'd love to meet
the bvb guys, my friends on Insta, twitter and GR
88. what were some things you were scared of as a kid? monsters.
89. tell us about your favorite birthday
I don't have one
90. how is high school?
I'm not in high school rn
91. tell us the worst pick-up line you've ever heard
I don't remember what it is
92. every been groped or catcalled? how'd it make you feel? what did you do?
no
93. opinion of feminism?
Idk. I feel everyone should be treated equally. no matter their race, sexuality, gender, etc.
94. tell us about a time you got embarrassed
I walked into the boy's bathroom by accident
95. ever had a pregnancy scare? tell us about it!
no
96. tell us about your best friend
he's amazing, and sweet, and I love him
97. what's your opinion on planning your life out?
eh....
98. describe what you think afterlife is like
idk
99. talking on the phone or texting?
texting
100. how do you feel about the way most teachers treat students?
idk. I've had mostly nice teachers.
101. what's a word you use more than others?
idk

[kavi ~he-him~]

PinkLoki(Shine) wrote: "*squish hugs*"

*hugs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

this random guy keeps coming up to me and going like, "Kavya, it been so long, where have you been in so long." I usually try to ignore him and then he goes like, "you're not talking to me, you are being very rude to me" -_- it's weird.....he does this everytime he sees me.....-_-

[kavi ~he-him~]

my friend told me that once he came up to her and her dad, and asked them what was the meaning of twinkle twinkle little star and her dad thought it was creepy O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

yesterday, he asked me where my grandpa was. and I said in India. and he goes like, "you don't feel for your grandpa." and I said, "I do feel for him." and he goes like, "then you should be in India." -_- then he was like. "go back to your country" -_-

[kavi ~he-him~]

I am Indian but I wasn't born in India

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was born in the US!

[kavi ~he-him~]

And I've lived in US for my whole life. I haven't been to India since I was 2

[kavi ~he-him~]

my parents were born in India. I wasn't

[[deleted user]]

That's very creepy. I get that with weird questions.

[kavi ~he-him~]

ikr!

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) wrote: " stolen from Tumblr
1. what colors are in your room?
white
2. who was your favorite school teacher?
Mrs. Smith. I miss her, she was cool
3. what are some passions of yours?
Art, music
4. when you ..."

Can I steal this from you?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sylveon-Raven- wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) wrote: " stolen from Tumblr
1. what colors are in your room?
white
2. who was your favorite school teacher?
Mrs. Smith. I miss her, she was cool
3. what are som..."

sure!

[Madyson]

actully to be honest im a real falle angel

[kavi ~he-him~]

Really?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm a bvb fan and they have a song called fallen angels so that's why put that in my name. And the title of this journal is the lyrics to that song

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just realized something.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

remember how I said that I first met Jonathan in anime club

[kavi ~he-him~]

well now that I think about it....

[kavi ~he-him~]

anime club was where I first saw Jon irl

[kavi ~he-him~]

but.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was a part of the anime club group chat on kik and so was Jon

[kavi ~he-him~]

we were in that chat during the 1st anime club meeting which was one week before I saw Jon irl

[kavi ~he-him~]

so we kind of spoke to each other in the chat even before we met irl

[kavi ~he-him~]

so technically we sort of met in the chat

[kavi ~he-him~]

I miss him.....it's been 4 months since I'd last seen Jon.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Why does missing someone hurt so badly?.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lillian wrote: "Oh, Oh, Kavy want to hear what happened on Wednesday?"

what happened??

[kavi ~he-him~]

seriously tho, it hurts a lot, I can literally feel it physically

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't think I can live without him in my life

[kavi ~he-him~]

why does life have to be so cruel?

[kavi ~he-him~]

like, everytime, the time comes to tell him how I feel something happens

[kavi ~he-him~]

it hurts cause I'm in love

[[deleted user]]

indeed it was

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lillian wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Oh, Oh, Kavy want to hear what happened on Wednesday?"

what happened??"

Well...... I had planned on telling Gavin yesterday, and I didn..."

he loves you

[kavi ~he-him~]

why does it hurt to be away from Jon?

[kavi ~he-him~]

he is special, but still....