~the sea does not like to be restrained (Kavi's journal)~ Showing 10,351-10,400 of 20,355

[kavi ~he-him~]

I feel like LA is calling me. like you know that feeling deep inside of you, that you can't avoid

[kavi ~he-him~]

Yep I have that feeling about LA. And deep inside I want to move to LA

[kavi ~he-him~]

I should probably start saving up my money until then

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need to get a job so I can earn money for the move

[kavi ~he-him~]

my Aunt gave me and my brother $4000, O_O $2000 for me, $2000 for my brother.

[kavi ~he-him~]

that money will probably go into the savings for the move

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna save the money, but I'll use if I need to

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm falling in love with the bands New Years Day and Memphis May fire

[kavi ~he-him~]

They are so good!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

well, I've been diagnosed with Autism. :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk if I do have it or not

[kavi ~he-him~]

but I lack communication skills

[kavi ~he-him~]

but I can socialize I can socialize if I really want to

[kavi ~he-him~]

the thing is I don't talk to ppl much, I don't like talking, I'm not good at talking

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't talk much because I rather listen

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm a more of a listener than a talker

[kavi ~he-him~]

also I like to hang out with ppl with the same interests as me

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's easier that way

[kavi ~he-him~]

also making friends with ppl with the same interests as me is fun

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm still an introvert tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

I like being introvert and I like being alone

[kavi ~he-him~]

being alone is fun

[kavi ~he-him~]

tbh it's not just that I don't like socializing

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm trying to be cautious around the ppl

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't want to be around any toxic ppl or anyone that doesn't really want me as a friend

[kavi ~he-him~]

I still have trust issues

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't want anymore fake friends and I don't want to get hurt again

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need true friends

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm looking for true friends

[kavi ~he-him~]

but I'm also looking for a guitarist, bassist, and a drummer for my band

[kavi ~he-him~]

so I do need to socialize more

[kavi ~he-him~]

but I won't socialize too much

[kavi ~he-him~]

I rather be alone and then be friends with the toxic ppl or someone that doesn't really want me

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's better than getting hurt

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate backstabbers

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm still moving to LA in the future, because it's something that I want to do

[kavi ~he-him~]

college starts on the 28th.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm nervous

[kavi ~he-him~]

what if ppl don't like me there

[kavi ~he-him~]

at least Jon might be there

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk if he is coming to the same location as me or not tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

he might, but idk

[kavi ~he-him~]

I asked him to come to the same one that I'm going to

[kavi ~he-him~]

I feel happy that Jon is going to the same colleges as me

[kavi ~he-him~]

even tho I'm moving to LA after I finish college and earn enough money

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm probably gonna go visit LA next summer

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've never been to LA

[kavi ~he-him~]

but I've always wanted to

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna miss Jon when I move tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

one of the problems of moving is Jonathan