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[kavi ~he-him~]

I think they might have fiction books but I'm not sure

[kavi ~he-him~]

do university and colleges have fiction books?

[jay, rip]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) ~Birthday Girl~ wrote: "do university and colleges have fiction books?"

my college doesn't :( but it's small.

[kavi ~he-him~]

:(

[Tati]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

[Tati]

i was gonna send it earlier but i had classes and they wouldn't let me have my phone

[kavi ~he-him~]

THANKS!! <333333333333333

[kavi ~he-him~]

Andy's dad wished me happy birthday on twitter!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just talked on the phone with my cousin, for a really long time, like it wasn't that long but it felt like hours

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love my cousin

[kavi ~he-him~]

we were just talking about random things

[kavi ~he-him~]

is it bad I like playing card games by myself? like the multiplayer card games like Uno.

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's fun

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wish my uno cards would come rn cause I'm bored

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can play uno with regular cards but it's more fun with the actual uno cards

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've played uno online, with the computer but again, it's more fun with actual uno cards, like not cards online but actual cards, you know what I mean, but with actual cards you can stack the +2 and +4 and my friends and I have our own variation of the game and it's really fun, and with uno online, you can't stack +2 and +4 cards. the stacking makes it more fun

[kavi ~he-him~]

My friend once had to draw 8 cards cause ppl stacked the +4

[kavi ~he-him~]

my cousin's husband is funny

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love hanging around the ppl that are just serious but not too serious, but are also funny. I like funny ppl.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jonathan is funny

[kavi ~he-him~]

Card games are fun

[kavi ~he-him~]

back in Australia the other day we went to my cousin's apartment, and we had a party well it wasn't really a party but you know, just hanging out with food and stuff, and me, my cousins, and my cousin's husband and his brother and their cousin were playing Mafia, we did play Uno for a while before, it was fun and I won twice. And then afterwards we played Mafia and it was really fun, my cousin’s husband played with us for a while but then he went to go and help my cousin but it was fun. And I was like “we should have a card-playing party” cause it would be fun, we could just play cards and have food.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate poker tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's just not really my thing

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm more into games like, Uno, crazy 8's, BS, go fish, slap jack, ERS, and Mafia, etc

[kavi ~he-him~]

Uno is my favorite game

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm bored

[kavi ~he-him~]

I still feel a little upset about the fact I didn't get to meet Andy or see him live at warped tour

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was crying a little bit at warped tour

[kavi ~he-him~]

because I didn't get to meet him because they ran out of the wristbands

[kavi ~he-him~]

it was a stupid reason to cry but Andy is like my hero and meeting him means a lot to me.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I brought my drawing of him and the bvb logo with me because I wanted to give it to him and I'd been waiting for that day for a really long time, and I went to warped tour even tho I was still sick that day, and I get dehydrated easily and it was hot

[kavi ~he-him~]

I did have fun tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

when Andy followed me on Insta, it made me really happy. like really happy and I was like smiling a lot, and it takes a lot to make me smile like that and it takes a lot to make me really happy. tho the happiness didn't last for long because of depression, but I was still happy about him following me

[kavi ~he-him~]

whenever Andy's dad likes my tweets or replies to them it also makes me smile

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wonder if Andy sees my tweet that I send him and I wonder if he and my other fav band members/artists see the posts that I tagged them in on Insta

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wrote a really long paragraph to Andy about how he inspired me and stuff

[kavi ~he-him~]

on both twitter and insta and I tagged Andy in the one on insta

[kavi ~he-him~]

don't get me wrong.

I love Juliet simms, and Andy Biersack and I love them together, I ship them, and they are my fav couple, but sometimes I get jealous of them, I'm not jealous of Juliet, and I don't love Andy in that way, I love him as a brother and I'm in love with my best friend, but sometimes I get jealous the love that Juliet and Andy has. I want love like that. I believe in true love and I love true love. I've found my true love, but it's not really easy, it's complicated and hard

[kavi ~he-him~]

my true love and I are best friends and I love him, and I want to be with the one I love, but it's hard

[edge]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAVYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't know how to tell him I love him, without meaning it in a friendship way because I love him as more than friends

[kavi ~he-him~]

but at the same time I don't want us to break up again

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't want to seem clingy or desperate. I am NOT desperate. I tried moving on but it didn't work

[kavi ~he-him~]

tbh now that I think about it, I don't think I did stop loving him. a part of me wanted to but another part of me held onto him. I'm waiting for him because it feels like the right thing to do.

[kavi ~he-him~]

edge wrote: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAVYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY"

THANK YOU SIS *hugs tight*

[kavi ~he-him~]

there were a few times when I made the decision of letting Jon go, and tried going for other ppl. tbh I made that decision mostly for Jon because I wanted him to be happy, and I wasn't sure how he felt about me, and I tried to convince myself that I loved Jon as a friend and I loved someone else but it didn't work but Jon eventually came back to me and I just fell for him again, I never stopped loving him but....

[kavi ~he-him~]

true love is never easy.

[kavi ~he-him~]

my gut feelings says me and Jon are meant to be together but if we were meant to be together shouldn't we be together? why did we break up if we were meant to be together?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I guess break ups can happen even if we were meant to be together but usually if ppl are meant to be together and they break up usually they'd eventually get back together