~the sea does not like to be restrained (Kavi's journal)~ Showing 9,801-9,850 of 20,354

[kavi ~he-him~]

So I have major trust issues but I trust him now

[Tati]

Then you need to tell him the truth. It seems like he doesn't know there's someone who loves him with all their heart but you do. He deserves to know the truth, especially from his friend.

[kavi ~he-him~]

True. I need to figure out how to tell him tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

My twitter friend told me that the right time will come. But idk when that is

[kavi ~he-him~]

Idk how long I can wait.

[kavi ~he-him~]

It's been a year!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Oml 598 followers on twitter

[kavi ~he-him~]

Going to a party soon

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna photobomb photos cause It'll be funny

[kavi ~he-him~]

Almost photobombing time 😂😂😂

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'll be photobombing photos at the party AND the wedding tomorrow 😂😂😂

[kavi ~he-him~]

Photobombing time!! 😂😂

[kavi ~he-him~]

I put bunny ears on my cousin and her fiance while we were taking pics

[kavi ~he-him~]

Ugh flashbacks

[kavi ~he-him~]

I
Miss
Jon

[kavi ~he-him~]

MY COUSIN IS MARRIED

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love my cousin's husband as a brother

[kavi ~he-him~]

He is so nice

[kavi ~he-him~]

I guess I have a big brother now idk. Well he is a brother to me

[kavi ~he-him~]

In my family we count the cousins as brothers/sisters so my cousin's husband is apart of my family now

[kavi ~he-him~]

He lives in Australia tho :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've always wanted a big brother

[kavi ~he-him~]

I know I have a twin brother who is one min older than me

[kavi ~he-him~]

But he hasn't helped me much

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want a big brother that cares for me and is always there for me

[kavi ~he-him~]

Percy Jackson is my big brother idc if he is a fictional character or not

[kavi ~he-him~]

I see Andy Biersack as my big brother.

[kavi ~he-him~]

HOLY CRAP

[kavi ~he-him~]

I MEET ANDY IN 12 DAYS AHHHHHHHH

[kavi ~he-him~]

I MEET ANDY IN 12 DAYS AHHHHHHHH

[kavi ~he-him~]

XD my brother is scared that I'll see my cousin's husband more of as a brother than him

[kavi ~he-him~]

And now I'm crying

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'll tell you guys why I was crying later

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm with my cousins rn

[kavi ~he-him~]

I feel better rn

[kavi ~he-him~]

Is it bad I like to spend a lot of time with my cousin and her husband

[kavi ~he-him~]

My mom keeps telling me to give them space and let them talk to other ppl but I like talking to them and I am giving them space

But my mom is telling me to let them spend time with other ppl which I am

[kavi ~he-him~]

But she keeps telling me that in a way that makes me feel like I'm being annoying and clingy and I don't like that

[kavi ~he-him~]

That was why I was crying earlier

[kavi ~he-him~]

She was telling me to stand behind them not next to them and I didn't like that cause it makes me feel like a third wheel and I don't like that

[kavi ~he-him~]

After I cried a little in the bathroom and I walked back to the room My cousin and her husband were in and gave her husband a t-shirt and then hugged him and held on to him for a while

[kavi ~he-him~]

Ranting time:

I’m tired. I’m tired of the tough girl act I’d been keeping up despite being broken inside. My mom telling me to give them space and saying it in the way that makes me feel annoying and clingy makes me upset. My mom wants me to talk to others. And then I go and hang out with my cousin and her husband. I talk about Jonathan a lot. And my mom thinks I’m giving off a bad impression by talking about him a lot and constantly saying I love him. Which I’m not. My mom actually asked me if I was stalking him. Which I am not doing!! I love Jonathan but I am NOT that obsessed with him. Not to the point where I’d scare him away cause I DON’T want to scare him away. If my cousin and her husband wanted space they would’ve told me. And my cousin’s husband let me hug him. I held his hand for a while, and my mom said to let him hold my cousin’s hand. But he let me hold his hand. He is my brother now. My mom wants me to be more girly and be like the other girls and fit in with the situation. I am a tomboy. I am not like the other girls and I feel more tomboyish and girly. I like being a tomboy because it’s ME. I’ve always struggled with fitting in. I am different. My mom wants me to be normal. I don’t want to be normal. I like being different. When I was younger I used to care about fitting in and do whatever I could to fit in cause I wanted friends. But I’d always had trouble no matter what.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I stopped caring about fitting tho. Cause I was born to stand out

[Hallie]

Normal? You are normal! Being unique is normal. What's abnormal is when someone tries to pretend to be someone they aren't.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm not normal. Normal is boring. There is no such thing as normal. i am different and I am proud

[kavi ~he-him~]

I ❤️ my new big brother

[kavi ~he-him~]

While I was out with my cousins and brother (my twin):

Me: who's gonna be the next person to get married
Cousin: maybe it's you Kavya. Where's the husband? Huh, where is he?
Me: my best friend
Cousin: aww

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want a big brother, a twin sister and a little sister

[kavi ~he-him~]

And I have a big brother now

[kavi ~he-him~]

As for the twin sister, I have my cousin, that's my age. She is my age and she is as close as a twin sister to me. I'm more closer to her than any of my other cousins I do love them all but me and my cousin that's my age are closer on a deeper level. She's my only cousin that's my age. And I consider her as my twin sister