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[kavi ~he-him~]

I feel like fate has grabbed both of our hands and is trying to push us together

[kavi ~he-him~]

I feel like fate has tied us both to each other

[kavi ~he-him~]

The dreams with Jon in it, are telling me something

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can feel it

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't I can't stand not being with him I can't stand just being friends with him. I want to be more than friends

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't I can't stand not being with him I can't stand just being friends with him. I want to be more than friends

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want him to hold me like he did when we were together

[Hallie]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) wrote: "What would you call someone that is married to my cousin"

Same doubt here!

[kavi ~he-him~]

I like my cousin's fiance tho. As a brother tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

Last night I had a dream that Jon had a girlfriend that is not me

[kavi ~he-him~]

Those kind of dreams make me sad ;-;

[kavi ~he-him~]

Good thing those are just dreams

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love Jonathan. He means so much to me

[kavi ~he-him~]

He is my true love

[kavi ~he-him~]

My future husband

[kavi ~he-him~]

But the dream seemed a little real :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

I noticed that, since the break up Jonathan hadn't had another girlfriend and I haven't had another boyfriend

[kavi ~he-him~]

Does that say anything?

[kavi ~he-him~]

but the thing is

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't have any game like Idk anyone else that likes/loves him the same way that I do

[kavi ~he-him~]

But....

[kavi ~he-him~]

A few times when I'd mentioned, "couples everywhere" and "my brother has a gf" he'd said, "I'm forever alone"

[kavi ~he-him~]

Idk if he knows that there is a girl that loves him, really loves him and cares for him. Like love him for HIM.

[kavi ~he-him~]

That girl is me

[kavi ~he-him~]

It hurts me a little when he says things like that

[kavi ~he-him~]

Cause I love him

[kavi ~he-him~]

And I'd do anything to be with him, to make him happy

[kavi ~he-him~]

Ppl, when you find someone like that, someone who really cares for you and loves you for YOU and wants you to be happy. Someone that doesn't just love you for your looks but for your personalities. Someone who truly loves you. Do NOT let that person go ever, no matter what, because you're gonna regret it. You'll never know when you'll find someone like that again. There'll be other ppl but you might not be able to love them the same way you loved that person. There will always be that one special person. Trust me, take it from me

[kavi ~he-him~]

Whenever Jon says things like he's gonna be forever alone, I'm like thinking, "cause he broke up wih someone that really loved him"

[kavi ~he-him~]

And I know he really loved me too

[kavi ~he-him~]

I still love him. I will always love him

[kavi ~he-him~]

Before we started dating I felt like I was gonna be forever alone and that I was unlikely to get a guy.

[kavi ~he-him~]

And I think Jon felt the same way too

[kavi ~he-him~]

Because I saw the anime club group chat

[kavi ~he-him~]

The day after the day we started dating. Before I said "I love you" my friend Carlos said that he was unlikely to get a woman and then Jon said that he felt the same way too.

[kavi ~he-him~]

But now we broke up cause he didn't want to hurt me

[kavi ~he-him~]

But the thing is

[kavi ~he-him~]

He hasn't hurt me.

[kavi ~he-him~]

And either way whether we're together or not it's still gonna hurt

[kavi ~he-him~]

Because I care for him a lot

[kavi ~he-him~]

His pain= my pain
His happiness = my happiness
His sadness = my sadness

I can feel his pain.

[kavi ~he-him~]

And it hurts me more than my own pain hurts me

[kavi ~he-him~]

That's what love is

[Tati]

Did you tell him that? Tel him that nothing he could ever do would hurt you because you love him? Maybe his fear is the reason things are still like this

[kavi ~he-him~]

Me and him have a connection

[kavi ~he-him~]

I think

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can feel something in me trying to tug me towards him

[kavi ~he-him~]

My love for him is too strong

[Tati]

What hurts him will always hurt you but it's worth it, isn't it? to be truly loved by someone

[kavi ~he-him~]

Anya wrote: "Did you tell him that? Tel him that nothing he could ever do would hurt you because you love him? Maybe his fear is the reason things are still like this"

I think we both had some things. At the time I didn't have much faith and trust in him either but it was not because of HIM he's one of the nicest ppl there is, my trust issues were because of me and my past because I've been hurt a lot