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[kavi ~he-him~]

What has this world come to?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't express my thoughts anymore

[kavi ~he-him~]

Apparently talking about my anxiety and depression is bad

[kavi ~he-him~]

I swear my parents make big deals about everything

[kavi ~he-him~]

What's wrong with talking about my feelings

[kavi ~he-him~]

This is MY journal

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can DO whatever I want in here

[kavi ~he-him~]

as long as it's good

[kavi ~he-him~]

I just wanna have fun

[kavi ~he-him~]

It's not healthy to keep the feelings bottled up

[kavi ~he-him~]

You have to talk to someone

[kavi ~he-him~]

Or write it

[kavi ~he-him~]

Yes this isn't a private journal but still

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm not gonna write about anything too private

[kavi ~he-him~]

I write about Jon and my feelings because I feel it's right

[kavi ~he-him~]

I write about whatever I feel it's right

[kavi ~he-him~]

I won't right anything that is too bad

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate this world

[kavi ~he-him~]

This world is too cruel

[Tati]

Hi, Kavy. There is nothing wrong with writing about your feelings at all or talking to someone about it. And I'm not sure if you are okay with my commenting so I'm sorry if you're not but I'm here for you if you need someone.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Anya wrote: "Hi, Kavy. There is nothing wrong with writing about your feelings at all or talking to someone about it. And I'm not sure if you are okay with my commenting so I'm sorry if you're not but I'm here ..."

Thanks

[kavi ~he-him~]

Anya wrote: "Hi, Kavy. There is nothing wrong with writing about your feelings at all or talking to someone about it. And I'm not sure if you are okay with my commenting so I'm sorry if you're not but I'm here ..."

Tell that to my mom

[kavi ~he-him~]

She thinks I'm coming off too strong by talking about Jonathan too much

[Tati]

Well how long have you felt like this about Jonathan?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need a distraction

[kavi ~he-him~]

Anya wrote: "Well how long have you felt like this about Jonathan?"

Since last year

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't stop loving him

[kavi ~he-him~]

I tried to

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I tried to let him go but keep our friendship

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I couldn't

[Tati]

So are you guys together? I saw the photo of you two a couple pages back

[kavi ~he-him~]

Not rn. Idk but we're really close friends like best friends

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm unable to tell him I love him

[kavi ~he-him~]

Mean while in the fanfiction world

[kavi ~he-him~]

in the fanfic world I'm dating Jinxx from bvb, not irl tho

[Tati]

Oh I understand, I am in a similar situation with my best friend. I think it's completely fine that you talk about him a lot. I also understand how difficult it is to tell him the truth but I think you'll find it will make things easier. I hope he loves you back but if you two are as close as you say, if he doesn't, nothing will change between you. You will still be best friends.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Anya wrote: "Oh I understand, I am in a similar situation with my best friend. I think it's completely fine that you talk about him a lot. I also understand how difficult it is to tell him the truth but I think..."

Thanks

[kavi ~he-him~]

I feel like my parents don't really understand me much

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have an idea


Maybe I'll talk about my best friend and my feelings on here but not in front of my mom

[kavi ~he-him~]

If I'm with my mom then I'll write my feelings on google docs and then I'll copy and paste it on here

[kavi ~he-him~]

She says it's fine if I write this stuff on google docs because it's more private

[kavi ~he-him~]

Also my mom and dad thought Jon wasn't being nice anymore because he didn't ask me if I wanted lunch while we were at the arcade

[kavi ~he-him~]

But well while he was eatting I said that I should probably get some food and he said "you should"

[Tati]

I think that all depends on the relationship you maintain with your parents. My mom and I are best friends, that might be because she's only 21 years older than me (this seems like a lot but most of my friend's parents have a larger age gap) and so we are just naturally close. I don't know your relationship with your parents but do you tell them about the things that matter to you? My mom and I talk about bands I like, food, art, friends, places to visit, virtually anything I would talk about with any other friend

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jon is a gentleman

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My parents just don't really know Jonathan as much as I do they haven't known him as long as I have

[kavi ~he-him~]

Anya wrote: "I think that all depends on the relationship you maintain with your parents. My mom and I are best friends, that might be because she's only 21 years older than me (this seems like a lot but most o..."

True but it’s hard to talk to my parents about a lot of stuff. They care about me but they want me to be more normal and like everyone else and dress like the other girls. My mom wants me to be more girly. Cause I’m almost an adult. Yes I’m almost an adult and I do have some responsibilities. But I’m also a child at heart and I don’t want to let my inner child go. But I don’t want to be normal. I like being different. I like being a Tomboy. Because it feels more like me. I’m trying to focus on myself and on things that I love. Because I just wanna be me. I don’t care about how I dress I care about my personality and my actions. I like being unique because it’s ME. I’d always had trouble fitting in but now I like standing out. I am an artist. I have a creative mind and I embrace my imagination. It’s one of my strengths. That’s why I want a Job that’ll let me express my creative self. One of my biggest dreams is to change the world and make it a better place. Because I can’t stand too much negativity. It kills me to see the most kindest and amazing ppl suffer. I tend to put others before me.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna rant a little later

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need to get stuff off my chest

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But I also need a distraction rn