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[kavi ~he-him~]

My best friend

[kavi ~he-him~]

Life....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jon saved my life

[kavi ~he-him~]

He gave me hope

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jonathan the first person that hasn't left me yet

[kavi ~he-him~]

Everyone always eventually leaves me :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

I attract haters

[kavi ~he-him~]

Meh, I'm used to it

[Ahana~]

I won't leave you!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Thanks Ahana.

[kavi ~he-him~]

So I saw a reallt weird thing today

[Ahana~]

You are welcome, Jon's cutie! ;) XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

My cousins and brother and I were walking to my uncle's car and this girl, her car was parked really close to my uncle's car like so close that one of her car windows was too close to my uncle's car window

It's hard to describe it

[kavi ~he-him~]

♧Ahana♧ I am 365 so FRESH! wrote: "You are welcome, Jon's cutie! ;) XD"

*blushes* XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

I hope we can get back together soon

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't stand being away from him I can't stand not being in his arms

[Ahana~]

Omg!!! Awww!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

I know we are best friends but still.....I miss being his girlfriend I miss his hugs. I've hugged him as best friends but I wanna hug him the way I did when we were together I wanna kiss him I wanna be with him. I wanna snuggle with him.

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's been so long since the breakup

[kavi ~he-him~]

I feel the longing. I long for him my heart longs for him

[kavi ~he-him~]

Is this what true love really is?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Why did reality have to come in between our relationship?

[kavi ~he-him~]

Fuck reality

[kavi ~he-him~]

There I said it

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sorry for cussing

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't cuss often

[kavi ~he-him~]

But reality is terrible

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'D BEEN TRYING TO TELL HIM I LOVE HIM I'D BEEN WANTING TO TELL HIM I LOVE HIM THIS WHOLE TIME

[kavi ~he-him~]

But fuck reality

[Ahana~]

THEN TELL HIM!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

I keep getting scared and stuff

[kavi ~he-him~]

There were times when I thought it was the right time to tell him but then reality comes in the way and I get scared and stuff

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can tell Jon anything but when it comes to "I love you"..... Why can't I just say it?

[Ahana~]

Awww!! *hugs you* Tell him, okay!! You will be fine!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

♧Ahana♧ I am 365 so FRESH! wrote: "THEN TELL HIM!!"

♧Ahana♧ I am 365 so FRESH! wrote: "Awww!! *hugs you* Tell him, okay!! You will be fine!!"

I can't I am 15 hours away from him rn and I have to wait for the right moment I don't wanna tell him when he's not ready or if he is hurting. Because idk how he'll react

[kavi ~he-him~]

We should've been back together by now x.x

[kavi ~he-him~]

He makes me so happy

[kavi ~he-him~]

When we were together before the break up I was insecure a lot and I was in my comfort zone and a little afraid to leave it cause I'm shy and I have really low self-esteem but Jon makes me want to leave that comfort zone and now I'm less insecure with Jon and I trust him more i trust him way more than I did at the time

[Ahana~]

Awww!! *huge you*

[kavi ~he-him~]

Trust is something that I don't give easily

[kavi ~he-him~]

With me you have to earn the trust

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jon earned it

[kavi ~he-him~]

My friends on GR earned it

[kavi ~he-him~]

The reason ppl have to earn my trust now is because the world is cruel and evil and I'd been hurt a lot

[kavi ~he-him~]

But Jon came in my life and showed me that he cared and he accepted me for ME and he's like my savior

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need Jon in my life

[kavi ~he-him~]

He gave me a reason to stay

[kavi ~he-him~]

A reason to want to stay

[kavi ~he-him~]

He doesn't know that he saved my life tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

♧Ahana♧ I am 365 so FRESH! wrote: "Awww!! *huge you*"

*hugs*