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[kavi ~he-him~]

I guess somethings are just meant to happen

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but as for my trust issues

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I used to trust ppl too easily but Id been hurt a lot so

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Id been hurt really badly and id been left by some ppl Id called “friends“ so thats why I have trust issues

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one of my ex-friends she was the one that hurt me really badly and my heart was shattered it was after her, that I started developing trust issues

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Id made some really nice friends during this year and last year me and Jon are in the same group but its hard for me to trust them, I trust Jon tho

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also one of my friends she became friends with someone that kept being mean to me also insults me idk if that counts as bullying or not but idk my friend is nice but she never said anything when her friend was being mean to me

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that person moved tho so yay

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for some reason she thinks its “fun“ to pick on innocent ppl idk why


probably why she was mean to me >->

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SHE was the one that told me I was worthless and she kept saying things like no one likes me >->

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for some reason she hates me she's hated me since 5th grade idk I never really did anything to her so

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Id been hated for no reason by ppl for most of my life now Id dealt with haters

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I stopped caring about those things a couple of months ago tho

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well the negative things


well at least I try not to cause Im sensitive but I at least dont let it show that it hurts actually it does hurt, cause words, but at the same time I dont care idk I got used to the haters and stuff

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Lillian wrote: "I don't understand why anyone would hate you, if they hated me I could understand that, but you? Come on."

eh ppl are idiots and they tend to get off on ppl for the stupidest things

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well this world is cruel and haters are everywhere so

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also they cant really bring me down anymore well they can but I will just come back stronger

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also bullies are cowards no offense to them. and haters are just ppl that are jealous

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or ppl that are too busy living in their own hate for themselves that they just take their hate on other ppl just to make themselves feel better

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or they have things going on in their lives so they take out their anger on other ppl and try and make them suffer too

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but then again that doesnt really give them the excuse to bully other ppl

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Ive been through a lot in my life and I dont bully others

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I love helping others

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tho sometimes its hard

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cause its hard to help others when your also struggling

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Lillian wrote: "That sounded really mean (my above comment) didn't it?

It was not supposed to be like that."

its okay

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Yeah, I did

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Nah it's fine

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Jon came in my dreams again last night

He's been coming in my dreams EVERY DAY

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I've had crushes before Jon and they never came in my dreams that much

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Then again I never really knew why I liked those guys

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BUT JON COMES IN MY DREAMS WAY TOO OFTEN

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And the dreams with Jon seem kind of real and vivid


What are these dreams trying to tell me? I feel like they are tying to tell me something

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good but some of them make me sad

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but then the ones that make me sad are probably just me and my doubts and worries idk

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No the ones that make me sad are not really good dreams but not bad dreams either but they are worry dreams

Those dreams are about Jon getting another girlfriend or him not loving me back or him trying to avoid me and push me away but Idk what those dreams are trying to tell me. But I think it's just my doubts

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Irl I don't really have any game Jon has other friends that are girls but I'm fine with that as long as....you know....

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Lillian wrote: "Lillian wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "No the ones that make me sad are not really good dreams but not bad dreams but they are ..."

XD that last one tho XD

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Usually my dreams are weird and crazy and don't make any sense but then the ones with Jon in it have a little weird stuff but it also feels real

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OMFG THIS COUPLE IS LIKE SO FREAKING CUTE AND THEY ARE MY ROLE MODELS FOR A RELATIONSHIP XD

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They are two of my fav singers Andy Biersack from my fav band Black veil Brides and Juliet Simms aka my heroes

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OMFG I MEET ANDY IN 3 WEEKS AHHHHH AND HIS WIFE IS GONNA BE THERE TOO

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ALSO MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 4 WEEKS

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Same and Andy has the heart of gold and is really caring he and Juliet cares for their fans so much and their music is amazing too

Bvb saved my life

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Lillian wrote: "❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "ALSO MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 4 WEEKS"

❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone..."

IKR

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've noticed that a lot of the ships/couples I know irl have the letter J in it like not just the couples I know in person or on GR but some of my fav celebrity couples too

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There is:

My Jonathan x Kavya
Nerdy’s Jonathan x Nerdy
Jack x Thelma
Josiah x Lys
Andy Biersack from Bvb x Juliet Simms
Jake Pitts from Bvb x Inna Pitts
Jinxx from Bvb x Alice


See Js

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who else am I missing

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OMG I'M GONNA BE TURNING 18 SOON I'M GONNA BE AN ADULT


I can join the 18+ groups XD


I wish I could join them now since I'm gonna be 18 in 4 weeks anyways

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I feel like creating a new roleplay group but idk what to do or what to name it