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[kavi ~he-him~]

I hate it because I feel ppl mostly focus on the romantic love on valentines day

[kavi ~he-him~]

romantic love isnt the only love thats there

[kavi ~he-him~]

romantic love is important but its not the only important love

[kavi ~he-him~]

friendship love, family love, self-love, are all important

[kavi ~he-him~]

some ppl say that ideal bfs/gfs don't exist

[kavi ~he-him~]

but they do exist they are out there somewhere

[kavi ~he-him~]

I found my ideal bf so

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jon isn't perfect, no one is

[kavi ~he-him~]

but for me, he is the right one

[kavi ~he-him~]

I gtg wish me luck

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't find Jon

[kavi ~he-him~]

Haha I was playing a horror game and I got scared

[kavi ~he-him~]

NOO WE HAVE 30 MINS LEFT BEFORE WE HAVE TO GO

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banana

[kavi ~he-him~]

so funny story:

I was playing a horror game which was intense and Jon wasn't there playing with me and I kept getting scared and calling Jons name and he came and I called out his name and he came inside and then I got scared and screamed XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

I also told Jon that I was gonna visit him at his work sometime XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

I didnt get to tell him cause time

[kavi ~he-him~]

well I was about to and the words were on my tongue but ugh

[kavi ~he-him~]

I think I'm gonna just tell him in a text

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't wanna have to tell him in a text but I might have to

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have an idea, I'm gonna tell my best friend Alana, about my problems cause she's friends with both me and Jon and she's known Jon longer than I did so maybe she'd help

[kavi ~he-him~]

what would I say to her tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

Yay Jon had fun

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TELL HIM YOU LOVE HIM NOW

[kavi ~he-him~]

I told my twitter friends my problems and feelings with Jon and stuff

[kavi ~he-him~]

and one of my twitter friends told me this

[kavi ~he-him~]

Oh darling you are totally in love with him. And I know that it is so hard to tell those words. But don't worry sweetheart, that right time will come. And everything goes in naturally way.
You know I am totally in love too and to me it is sooo hard to believe that he really loves me back.
Just relax honey.
Do you guys have a special place where you love to be together ?? If you do that is the best place to tell him.

You can start talking about love and feelings, asking him about it.

These situations are difficult cause there is no right answer.

How do you feel, has he changed, so he would be ready for dating ?

-Tiina (my twitter friend)

[kavi ~he-him~]

and then I told her this

[kavi ~he-him~]

thank you <3 we don't have a special place.and I don't know if he has changed or not or if he is ready for dating or not, I know he is still his nice and kind self, and he still cares for me. but it's also summer so Idk if we'll be seeing each other much cause he has a Job now and I'm going to australia for two weeks. and we both have to get ready for college we're going to the same community college and then we'll be transferring to the same university so we'll probably gonna see each other often in college. idk for sure

[kavi ~he-him~]

she said this

[kavi ~he-him~]

Okay. So in future you guys will be the same places. That is great. He sounds so nice guy. But that right time will come and then you can tell him. Enjoy your summer and I know it is so hard cause you are in love. He might feel the same way.

-Tiina

[kavi ~he-him~]

I think the world is trying to test us and our patience idk

[kavi ~he-him~]

you know how the universe throws obstacles into our paths in life and relationship

[kavi ~he-him~]

so maybe I'll wait a while until that right time

[kavi ~he-him~]

and in the meantime I'll be Jon's best friend and I'll work on my own self

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need to work on my self-esteem and self-love and insecurities and self-confidence

[kavi ~he-him~]

and I can work on strengthening my friendship with Jon

that way no matter what happens even if the romantic love crumbles our friendship bonds will still be there

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have all the time in the world anyways since me and jon are gonna be in the same place

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can also see where me and Jon's relationship went wrong and what caused it to crumbled I was talking about this the other day

[kavi ~he-him~]

its love anyways

[kavi ~he-him~]

lmao so there is this game called office jerk where you can throw objects at a guy

[kavi ~he-him~]

its really funny

[kavi ~he-him~]

but that guy in the game is like, just sitting there and taking it in

[kavi ~he-him~]

like I'm just throwing stuff at him and he's just like taking it in XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

if someone was constantly throwing stuff at me I'd be mad and annoyed

[kavi ~he-him~]

omg putting my name with Jonathans last name.


it fits!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

I keep thinking about the future :/

[kavi ~he-him~]

I had a dream last night and in the dream Jon got another girlfriend and I was sad because I was still in love with him and then I was upset and I told Jon that I loved him

[kavi ~he-him~]

Alphabet Questions
Stolen from Hallie

A – Age: 17 turning 18 in August

B – Birthplace: Texas

C – Current time: 12:22 pm

D – Drink you last had: Water

E – Easiest Person to talk to: Jonathan

F – Favourite Song: too many

G – Grossest Memory: idk

H – Horror yes or Horror no?: sometimes

I – In Love?: Yes

J – Jealous of People?: maybe

K – Killed someone?: I killed my main character's mother in a book I'm currently writing

L – Love at first sight or should I walk past again?: walk past

M – Middle Name: I'm not gonna say because privacy

N – Number of Siblings: 1 related by blood, and I have more sibs by heart

O – One wish: to find a band

P – Person you last called: Jonathan

Q – Question you’re always asked: idk

R – Reason to smile: Jonathan

S – Last Song you sang along?: Mama by MCR

T – Time you woke up today?: 10:39 am

U – Underwear Colour?: idk

V – Vacation Destination: Japan!

W – Worst Habit: not asking for help even when I need it

X – X-rays?: Yes

Y – Your favourite food: Ice cream, cookies, chocolate, cake, sushi, brownies, etc

Z – Zodiac Sign: Leo

[kavi ~he-him~]

waiting for the right time is hard to do