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[kavi ~he-him~]

I
need
Jonathan

[kavi ~he-him~]

where is he??

He hasn't answered my text that I sent yesterday and he hasn't seen it yet. I sent him that text at 7:56 pm

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need to tell him how I feel soon

[kavi ~he-him~]

Either right now or soon

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't hold my feelings in anymore

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't. I'd been holding these feeling in from Jonathan for so long. I'd been doing this since the beginning of the senior year because of the fear of messing up our friendship and stuff but I just can't hold it in anymore

[kavi ~he-him~]

The only ppl that know that I have feelings for Jonathan are my friends on GR on here

[kavi ~he-him~]

Is this what happens when you hold in your feelings for so long?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I feel like I'm gonna blow or go crazy if I don't tell him soon

[kavi ~he-him~]

I know that holding my feelings in isn't healthy

[kavi ~he-him~]

I care for Jonathan so much

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm home from alabama

[kavi ~he-him~]

the books be calling me

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk why but I'm unable to get into looking for alaska

[kavi ~he-him~]

WTH!! I HAVE 506 FOLLOWERS ON TWITTER!!! I'VE ONLY HAD TWITTER FOR 3 MONTHS NOW!!!!! I'M FAMOUS!! AHHH

[kavi ~he-him~]

Twitter is nice

[kavi ~he-him~]

I never really thought I'd get twitter or insta XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

well I wanted insta but mom and dad wouldn't let me get it :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

and as for twitter, I wasn't really into social media except for wattpad, GR or tumblr

[kavi ~he-him~]

Idk I was trying to avoid drama and cyberbullying and stuff and I kind of like being different

[kavi ~he-him~]

but then I decided to get Insta and twitter to connect with my heroes

[kavi ~he-him~]

irl I'm not that popular and I've always had difficulties fitting in, like I used to care about fitting in and I used to do whatever I could to fit in

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm more invisible except with Jon and my closest friends

[kavi ~he-him~]

but on the internet?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have 506 followers on twitter

[kavi ~he-him~]

I do love them all tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

there is a spider on my bedroom wall!! O_O

[Hallie]

❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "there is a spider on my bedroom wall!! O_O"

Aaahhh run!!!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's on the wall that's behind my bed. oh no I'm not sleeping tonight with that thing on my wall

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jon still hasn't seen my text from two days ago :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

where is Jon?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need to tell him now or soon

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't hold my feelings in anymore

[kavi ~he-him~]

sorry guys I may end up tell Jon my feelings in a text message idk

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk if we would be seeing each other next week or not. we decided next wednesday but we don't know what time or where to hang out

[kavi ~he-him~]

ugh I miss Jon


ugh these feelings

[kavi ~he-him~]

I did text him asking what time and where he wants to hang out? two days ago he hasn't answered yet and he hasn't seen the text

[kavi ~he-him~]

I
need
Jonathan

[kavi ~he-him~]

I haven't been on Tumblr in a while

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna make a new blog and dedicate it to the band/music fandom and dedicate my main blog to the book fandoms

[kavi ~he-him~]

I got tumblr mainly for the fandom stuff

[kavi ~he-him~]

then I'm gonna make 4 more new blogs and dedicate them all to my nerdy, emo, geeky, and tomboy stuff

[kavi ~he-him~]

and then maybe I'll make one dedicated to anime

[kavi ~he-him~]

Oml the spider went into my lamp and I thought it disappear because I was going to turn the lamp off and I didn't see the spider and I put my hand out to turn the lamp off and then the spider came and I freaked and pulled my hand back

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jonathan.....where are you?......

[kavi ~he-him~]

he broke up with me cause he doesn't want to hurt me but either way whether we're together or not, it would still hurt me if he is hurting, because I can feel his pain, I love him and care for him so much

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "I'm gonna make a new blog and dedicate it to the band/music fandom and dedicate my main blog to the book fandoms"

or maybe I'll dedicate my main tumblr to just me

[kavi ~he-him~]

my p key isn't working for some reason. it works when I take the key out but when I put it back in it doesn't work....weird :/

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna make a group for all the members in the bvb army

[kavi ~he-him~]

maybe I'll make a group for ppl that love alternative/punk/emo music