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~the sea does not like to be restrained (Kavi's journal)~
I've found myself blushing around ppl, I don't like, one of them is my friend's bf, and one of them is Jonathan's friend and I barely know them I don't talk to them and yet I blush around them. Why?
no, I'm not blushing because I like them, I don't like them, not like that, it's because I'm shy and have social anxiety

O_O Do I appear in Jon's dreams? He told me once he dreamed of me. He comes in my dreams a lot, Does he think of me like I think of him a lot?
I've noticed that my relationship/friendship with Jonathan has kind of progressed over the years/months that we've known each other
then as we became friends and got to know each other I opened up quickly and we were just talking and stuff
and then as time went on when I was falling in love with him, I found myself just telling Jon a lot of things.
like I could just randomly find things to talk about with Jon, I've told him stories that happened to me, we'd talked about deep stuff
and then now look at us. we're like really close, like I feel more closer to Jon than before, like I trust him now, and have a little faith in him, and I know he is not going to leave me. before when we were together, I got scared a lot, scared that he'd leave me, and I wasn't too trusty. it's not HIM, because I know I should've had more faith, but it's just I'm scared he'd leave me, because I'd been left by my "friends" before. and scared he'd get tired of me, because the others have, ppl tend to get tired of me after a while and stuff. but Jon stayed, he hasn't gotten tired of me yet, and he HASN'T left, yeah, he broke up with me, but he's still here. and now I trust him with my life, because he showed me that I can trust him, I trust him, and even then he hasn't left.
and now we're like not too serious but we're playful with each other too we tease each other sometimes and stuff, we just talk about anything
I like that I can just tell him anything and he won't judge me, I don't have to care about how I dress in front of him because he won't care how I look, because he loves me for ME, and accepts me for ME
I need to start drinking more water, cause it's summer and I tend to get dehydrated easily and I don't wanna get dehydrated this summer especially because warped tour and my birthday is coming up and I'm gonna be out in the sun all day during warped tour and Texas is hot. like really hot I mean I'm used to the heat cause I lived in Texas my whole life now but still....it's hot
there is fall, spring, summer, and summer-er, and a few days of Winter, and if we're really lucky we'll get a little bit of snow, which is rare
❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "CLARICE!!idek XD blame his teacher for that cause she was the one who taught him that XD"
KAVY!!
Ugh, I keep disappearing... I'm sorry Kavs.
But yeah, I'm just really getting into Fairy Tale. Gray and Natsu are both so great! Happy too! But i really love Erza and the authoritative figure she is!
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