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[kavi ~he-him~]

A lot of the other fans are doing some kind of art for bvb but I haven't done anything.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Besides giving Andy, and the other bvb members a lot of support and love, that is something but still

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have 402 followers on my main account on twitter woah.....I ONLY MADE THIS ACCOUNT 3 MONTHS AGOOOO

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❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "Guys, is my name, Kavya, hard to pronounce?"

I go by Shine, because my name is hard to pounce by others.

[kavi ~he-him~]

LAST DAY OF SENIOR YEAR AHH

[kavi ~he-him~]

Idk why but idk if I want to see Jonathan today or not

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want to see him and hug him

[kavi ~he-him~]

But I'm kind of mad at him

[NerdyJediGymnast]

GO SEE HIM. THIS IS YOUR LAST CHANCE

[kavi ~he-him~]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "GO SEE HIM. THIS IS YOUR LAST CHANCE"

Well I'm gonna see him at 3-4pm today because we have to go pick up the tickets for the graduation and I'll be seeing him at Graduation ceremony and I'm going to his party if my parents say yes and I'll probably see him after school before I leave

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm mad at Jonathan because he didn't show up that day when I was going to go tell him

[kavi ~he-him~]

I had a chance to tell him right there on both Tuesday and Wednesday when we were going to do the trade.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I went to the hallway where we were supposed to meet I texted him on Tuesday but he texted back saying he forgot so there goes that chance

[NerdyJediGymnast]

When you see him today, there's your chance

[kavi ~he-him~]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "When you see him today, there's your chance"

Yeah but I won't be seeing him alone. Plus my dad is coming to pick me up

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Hmmmm... write it down on paper and pass it to him

[kavi ~he-him~]

Also on Wednesday I went to the hallway and I was waiting for Jon I WAITED MINS to see him I was ready I was actually gonna do this and not run away but then he didn't show up -_-

[kavi ~he-him~]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Hmmmm... write it down on paper and pass it to him"

Ok. I'm gonna write a poem for Jon and give it to him at his graduation party

[kavi ~he-him~]

The party is at 1 pm on the day of the graduation

[kavi ~he-him~]

I forgot what I was gonna say -_-

[kavi ~he-him~]

Oh wow some ppl unfollowed me on Twitter o.o oh well

[kavi ~he-him~]

So we get out of school at 10:50 am today but we have to come back at around 3 pm -4pm to get our graduation tickets and blue card

[kavi ~he-him~]

I SAW BAEEEEE

[kavi ~he-him~]

STORY TIME!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

and SCHOOL IS OUT

[kavi ~he-him~]

after school:

Me: *was walking out, and sees Jonathan and starts walking over to him*
Jon: *sees me* oh * comes over to me, smiling and pulls something out of his pocket* (it's the game that he was supposed to give me)
Me: *takes the game* thank you!! *hugs him*
Jon: *smiles and hugs me back*
Me: *pulls away for a while*
Jon: *smiles*
Me: *hugs him again and holds on to him and doesn't let go for a few mins*
Jon: *hugs me back*

[kavi ~he-him~]

Me: Jon, question, why do we have to come back at 3-4pm just to get the tickets.
Jon: idk
Me: I mean, why not just do it rn, I mean we have to comeback so
Jon: It's pointless
Me: ikr!
Jon: we could be sleeping and then we have to be here for extra time
Me: I could be playing smash
Jon: *laughs* that too
Jon: hey, we still playing smash?
Me: *nods* you want to play smash later today?
Jon: sure

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jon: so what are you doing?
Me: hm? (it was hard to hear him clearly cause of the noise)
Jon: *repeats his question*
Me: oh, I'm going to austrailia for two weeks in July so, and I'm also meeting one of my favorite singers
Jon: *smiles* nice *laughs*
Me: Yeah, that moment when you get to just meet your favorite singer
Jon: You coming to my party?
Me: Yeah, if my parents say yes
Jon: it's gonna be really fun, and you're gonna be meeting a lot of my family members

[kavi ~he-him~]

and then Jon said brb and left to go talk to some of his friends and then my dad came to pick me up and then I ran over to Jon and told him that I had to go and he said bye and I told him I'll text him, and he said okay

[kavi ~he-him~]

I wonder if my dad saw me hug him

[kavi ~he-him~]

also in the car I asked my dad about the party and if I can go and he said yeah sure

[kavi ~he-him~]

YES I CAN GO TO JONATHAN'S PARTY!!!!

[NerdyJediGymnast]

KAVY THAT WAS YOUR CHANCE

[kavi ~he-him~]

YESSS

[kavi ~he-him~]

also guys sorry but while I was talking to Jon, I wanted to say "I love you" and "I'll miss you" like I was thinking it, and I was wanting to say it, but for some reason....I just couldn't because the words wouldn't come out of my mouth.....I'm no good with words guys...but I think with that hug, I think he might sorta notice that I love him because of that hug, when I hugged him and held onto him for a few mins

[kavi ~he-him~]

that hug probably implied it idk

[kavi ~he-him~]

XD I can't stay mad at Jon

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love him too much

[kavi ~he-him~]

I saw him today so it's alright

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I come on here simply to say "Whooooooo"

[kavi ~he-him~]

XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can never stay mad at Jon, then again I don't get mad often

[kavi ~he-him~]

it takes a lot to get me mad, even if I do get mad I won't show it

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm good at hiding my feelings

[kavi ~he-him~]

what the hell, someone just honked their car

[kavi ~he-him~]

I remember once, in 9th grade, my dad used to drop me off at school

[kavi ~he-him~]

and then one time my dad was dropping me, and I was getting down from the car, and while I was getting down, a car behind us honked. -_-

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was like, oi, I'm getting down! do you want me to fall??? I didn't say that out loud tho XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

ppl need to learn to be more patient

[kavi ~he-him~]

patience is the key to everything, to a lot of stuff