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[kavi ~he-him~]

If I don't get to see Jon and tell him I love him in person today or tomorrow I'm telling him in a text message

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sorry guys I don't wanna do this in a text message but life is about to leave me with no choices

[kavi ~he-him~]

But then again there is still Jon's graduation party hopefully my mom will let me go

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Yolo

[kavi ~he-him~]

LEON

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KAVY

[jericho]

KKKKAAAVVVVVVYYYYYY *HUGGGSS*

[kavi ~he-him~]

THELMA I MISSED YOU *HUGS*

[kavi ~he-him~]

Guys, is my name, Kavya, hard to pronounce?

[kavi ~he-him~]

This kid at the park thinks Kavya is hard to pronounce, so he insists on calling me Navya -_-

[kavi ~he-him~]

It's a five letter name -_- not hard to spell, and not HARD to pronounce. it's pronounced as Kaav-ya, not that hard

[kavi ~he-him~]

and yet, I've had ppl both pronounce and spell it wrong so many times -_-

[kavi ~he-him~]

um, there is an account called the dating site on twitter and it followed me and I usually follow ppl back, but I looked at the account and stuff and I saw some pics....and now I'm just questioning life

[kavi ~he-him~]

so while in the shower I've had some ideas

[kavi ~he-him~]

so I don't know if I'm gonna see Jon much tomorrow and I don't know if I have the chance tomorrow

[kavi ~he-him~]

but there is a chance I might be going to the Graduation party at Jon's house

[kavi ~he-him~]

so, I think I'm just gonna make something for Jon,

[kavi ~he-him~]

I've had this idea a couple of weeks ago, an idea to make some art, or write a poem expressing my love for Jon. and give it to Jon, because the love I have for Jon, I love him to the point where words can't express how I feel

[kavi ~he-him~]

I did write a poem but I didn't get to give it to him cause of life, and idk where that poem is so I'm gonna write another poem and I'm also gonna make some art for Jon

[kavi ~he-him~]

been a while since I did any art.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't draw as much as I used to so I don't know if I'm still good but I'll try

[kavi ~he-him~]

Art and drawing is like that one thing, that I was born with, I'd been dedicated to Art since I was little.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need to get back into drawing again

[kavi ~he-him~]

for some reason I find it easier for me to just write my feelings, into a poem, or song lyrics, something like that, than saying them out loud.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't talk much irl so

[Lys: the adorkable kitten]

❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "I've had this idea a couple of weeks ago, an idea to make some art, or write a poem expressing my love for Jon. and give it to Jon, because the love I have for Jon, I love him to the point where wo..."

SIS I APPROVE IT SO CUTE

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love writing and drawing

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love them because for some reason when it comes to me and my writing, when I'm writing, I feel proud of my writing, like writing is like that one thing, that I can just be proud of, even if there are some ppl that don't like it.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't want to brag about this stuff, I'm trying not to brag about this stuff, but I tend to put myself down a lot....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm trying to build up my confidence, and I'm trying to love myself. I don't love myself. but I want to. I don't know how to because I never learned how to. but I want to.

[kavi ~he-him~]

when I look back in the past, I see flashbacks of the bad things that happened to me, because there were more bad than good, there were good things, but not as much as the bad

[kavi ~he-him~]

that's why, I'm trying to cherish all the good memories, and make more good memories, so I can cover the bad or something like that. because I don't want to see the bad things, I don't want to get flashbacks of the bad things, because it hurts me,

[kavi ~he-him~]

the good thing about the bad memories was it made me who I am today, and I'm stronger than I was before

[kavi ~he-him~]

there are times when I fall, and relapse, cause overthinking is a problem, but I don't give up that easily

[kavi ~he-him~]

also another thing I was thinking in the shower

[kavi ~he-him~]

1 month, I have 1 month until I get to meet Andy Biersack, my hero

[kavi ~he-him~]

because Andy has inspired me a lot, and saved my life a bunch of times through his music and taught me a lot of stuff, and been there so many times.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want to get him something or make him something

[kavi ~he-him~]

maybe I'll get something for his wife too, because his wife is also my hero. Juliet Simms isn't gonna be with Andy Biersack, I'm not sure, but maybe I'll ask Andy Biersack to give it to her

[KingJohnny]

hm

[kavi ~he-him~]

I want to draw something for them but I'm afraid it'll get messed up, because we're gonna be outside in the sun all day

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk what I should get for them

[kavi ~he-him~]

Andy likes batman so I sorta know what to do for him, I'm gonna draw Andy in a batman costume

[kavi ~he-him~]

but idk what to do for Juliet simms

[kavi ~he-him~]

I never done fan art before, but I've always wanted to try. I tried once, but it was hard

[kavi ~he-him~]

it's hard for me to draw stuff based off of my own imagination but I try

[kavi ~he-him~]

I do really need to get back to my drawings

[kavi ~he-him~]

maybe I'll talk to Andy's dad about it. he knows I exist, then again Andy knows I exist too but still

[kavi ~he-him~]

KingChocolateMilk wrote: "hm"

hey Jonathan

[kavi ~he-him~]

so I also made a fan account for Black Veil Brides on twitter, but idk what to do