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[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Aweeeeeee

[kavi ~he-him~]

Yo Kavya! Loved getting to meet you and sharing moments with you! Don't let reality burn you like Natsu! Remember to stay chill like Juvia too!

-Jonathan G. (I don't want to put his last name cause of privacy)

[kavi ~he-him~]

Before leaving I hugged him and put my head on his chest for a little bit and he hugged me back

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

AWESOME

[kavi ~he-him~]

*blushes*

[kavi ~he-him~]

😊😊😊

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

:)

[Sirius (Malakalato) Belacqua]

That's fantastic. And really cute.

[kavi ~he-him~]

When we get back together I'm gonna hug him and kiss him and hold on to him and I'm never gonna let him go. Ever. Idc if reality gets in the way. I love him and I am NOT going to let him go or lose him again.

[Sirius (Malakalato) Belacqua]

Smart.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Idc about distance either I love him and I am NOT letting anything/anyone come in between us EVER

[kavi ~he-him~]

Because we are in this together

[kavi ~he-him~]

The problem is....last time he let his depression come in between us and our relationship. He broke up with me because he didn't want to hurt me

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

KAVY I PMED YOU! XD I is bored

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't want to hurt him either. He doesn't want to hurt me and I don't want to hurt him

[kavi ~he-him~]

But I love him too much to let my depression/anything get in the way. Or come in between us.

[kavi ~he-him~]

My phone has a crack/scratch in it and idk how it got there. I swear I didn't drop it -_- idk what happened.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I got free books :D my school library was giving out some books

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Kavy. Im so laughing. I saw a pic of Blaze the Cat from the Sonic series dressed up as Erza Scarlet from Fairytail

[kavi ~he-him~]

OH MY GODS 😂

[kavi ~he-him~]

I got free ice cream :) a teacher came in and asked us all in anime club if we wanted ice cream. It's homemade ice cream

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't think Jonathan wants me to be around cookies anymore cause of how many cookies I ate yesterday XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

....my mom wants me to go see a psychologist and she already scheduled one

[kavi ~he-him~]

I DON'T NEED A PSYCHOLOGIST

[kavi ~he-him~]

I DON'T WANT TO SEE A PSYCHOLOGIST I AM FINE WITHOUT ONE

[kavi ~he-him~]

I HAVE MY FRIENDS ON HERE I HAVE MY FRIENDS AT SCHOOL I HAVE JONATHAN I HAVE MUSIC I HAVE ANIME I HAVE BOOKS

[kavi ~he-him~]

I HAVE THINGS THAT CAN HELP ME

[kavi ~he-him~]

Ppl have already scheduled me up for tests -_-

[kavi ~he-him~]

My parents want me to open up to ppl quickly and make friends but they don't see how difficult it is for me to make friends

[kavi ~he-him~]

I don't want to open up quickly, I don't want to get hurt again. I'm trying to be cautious around ppl because of my past. I've had friends leave and I'd been left behind a lot. I don't want to try I don't want to keep trying when they're not trying I don't want to be around anyone that doesn't want me around I don't want to get back stabbed I have trust issues and I've built a wall around me trying to protect me from getting hurt. I don't want to tear them down just yet

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm not that same girl that I used to be

[kavi ~he-him~]

The old me is dead

[kavi ~he-him~]

I killed the girl that I used to be. The girl that used to be so happy and cheerful and used to smile so often is dead

[kavi ~he-him~]

on the outside I put on a fake smile, and mask my true feelings behind my happiness act but on the inside I'm broken and shattered....

[kavi ~he-him~]

and I can't be fixed, I'm broken beyond repairable so don't even try fixing me. I don't want you to get hurt

[kavi ~he-him~]

the past is the past....but it affected me a lot....

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❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "

Everyone name your Zodiac signs, I'm a Leo and proud :D"

I'm Libra and I'm proud of it.

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❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "

well I am a Leo and I AM lazy and my mom sometimes yells at me for just sitting here and doing nothing XD Sorry Mom, but I AM a Leo and Laziness is a part of Leo's traits, XD"

Crap Libra...

[kavi ~he-him~]

btw guys there was this guy in anime club.....and I'll tell you the story later

[kavi ~he-him~]

My stomach hurts....

[kavi ~he-him~]

so anyways STORY TIME!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

so the other day in Econ, I was on my phone and there was this guy he wasn't in Econ but he was in the classroom and while I was on my phone that guy came over to me and was like, "Hey, is this yours?" he held up the drink and I said no

[kavi ~he-him~]

Then today in anime club that same guy and his friend came in and Jonathan was there and David went over to him

[kavi ~he-him~]

And I was feeling kind of shy cause new ppl, but I looked at that guy and I was thinking that he looked so familiar and then I remembered so I was like,

Me: I've seen you before
Guy: Have you?

Guy: where have you seen me?
Me: in Econ
Guy: I'm not in Econ, I'm a Junior
Me: Yeah but you were there in that classroom
Guy: oh yeah I was there with my friend

Guy: what did I ask you again?
Me: you asked me, "is this your drink?"
Guy: OH YEAH good memory

[kavi ~he-him~]

for some reason this guy was making me feel self-concious and I kept thinking stuff, and because of that I just stayed near Jon most of the time

[kavi ~he-him~]

basically there is just something about him

[kavi ~he-him~]

I felt something about him, but I'm in love with Jon so I was like trying to tell myself to go to Jon because HE is the one that I love and no one else

[kavi ~he-him~]

but that guy....his eyes are so blue and he is gorgeous and I was thinking that earlier but why am I thinking that???? and no I don't have a crush on him and I DON'T like him like that, I barely know this guy

[kavi ~he-him~]

plus he is not Jon

[kavi ~he-him~]

But why was I thinking that? I don't care if he is hot or not