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[kavi ~he-him~]

UGHHH last year I got the courage to confess to him, telling him I had a crush on him, WHY can't I do it this year?

[kavi ~he-him~]

this time

[kavi ~he-him~]

I keep saying I'm gonna do it soon but when the time comes, I keep chickening out and running away

[kavi ~he-him~]

then again last time was in a text, this is different

[kavi ~he-him~]

idk what to do....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can feel my heart aching for Jon. I'm addicted to him

[kavi ~he-him~]

I realize that we hadn't had that much time alone with each other as we had last year. we'd had a some time alone this year but it's not a lot, and we spent time together but the others were there, I miss the talks that I have with him when we're alone. I feel like I can tell him anything

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can feel an invisible thread binding us together and trying to pull us back together

[kavi ~he-him~]

so I was thinking dirty thoughts about Jon again earlier XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need Yaoi,, me want yaoi

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm gonna post some yaoi pics on here

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sting x Rogue

IT'S YAOII

[kavi ~he-him~]

Gray x Natsu= Gratsu


I don't ship them as much as I ship Nalu or Gruvia or Gravya (Gray x me) but I do ship a little bit of Gratsu

[kavi ~he-him~]

Light x L

[kavi ~he-him~]

well I'm now starting to read Yaoi

[kavi ~he-him~]

Yaoi is cute

[kavi ~he-him~]

I have to return my book to the library today :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm not done with it but the library needs their books back because it's close to the end of the year

[kavi ~he-him~]

But I put both the books Matched and Looking for Alaska on hold at the Plano Library- I had to return Looking for Alaska a long time ago

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mornin goodreads family how r u today?

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm okay wbu Leon

[kavi ~he-him~]

The librarian said that I can keep the book cause I need it for class and I can return it whenever I'm done with it next week

[Sirius (Malakalato) Belacqua]

❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "I keep saying I'm gonna do it soon but when the time comes, I keep chickening out and running away"

I would've done the same thing, but my friends forced me to just do it. And I forced me to do it. I promised Joe that I'd do it Tuesday, and I don't generally make a habit of breaking my promises.

[kavi ~he-him~]

I need to get the courage to do it at the some point I don't wanna lose him....he's like everything to me

[Sirius (Malakalato) Belacqua]

I know how you feel...

[kavi ~he-him~]

Woo I won two games of Uno in a row today

[kavi ~he-him~]

Jon kept trying to get revenge on me cause I used a 4+ card on him XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

So I have to write a personal essay in English

[kavi ~he-him~]

It has to reflect on something significant in my life and I have to write something based on some life experience

[kavi ~he-him~]

And I'm choosing to write about music but idk what to write

[kavi ~he-him~]

Also me and Jon....idk what to do I didn't tell him

[kavi ~he-him~]

He was kind of in a mood and I didn't want to tell him when he isn't in a good mood

[kavi ~he-him~]

He was okay tho funny we were in kind of a sync

[kavi ~he-him~]

he didn't play in the first round of Uno cause he mentioned that he was hurting or going through some shit rn.

[kavi ~he-him~]

And I was in kind of a mood because of my overthinking last night and stuff I almost cried last night.

[kavi ~he-him~]

But it hurts me to see Jon in pain cause I love him

[kavi ~he-him~]

But idk what to do because I can't lose him and we only have a few more weeks

[kavi ~he-him~]

Idk what to do

[kavi ~he-him~]

I can't do it. I can't tell him i keep chickening out

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm no good at talking about my feelings out loud I'm good at writing them tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

But I'd been thinking

[kavi ~he-him~]

My gut feelings tells me that we are meant to be. And I can kind of feel it because I can feel the invisible string binding us together trying to pull us together

[kavi ~he-him~]

So no matter what we'll eventually come back together

[Sirius (Malakalato) Belacqua]

❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "My gut feelings tells me that we are meant to be. And I can kind of feel it because I can feel the invisible string binding us together trying to pull us together"

I felt the same way...
I hope it goes better for you.
And yeah. If you're meant to be, you'll eventually be. Lol.
But.... Idk. I find it hard to believe in that.

[kavi ~he-him~]

The thing is I love Jonathan but there's times when I get the feelings that he does love me but then there times when it's hard to see if he really does love me

[kavi ~he-him~]

Sometimes I can't tell how he really feels about me

[kavi ~he-him~]

My gut feelings tell me he loves me

[kavi ~he-him~]

But there's times when I start feeling like I should move on but keep the friendship but then the other times it's hard to move on it's hard to let go because there something still holding on. I can't let go I've tried before.

[kavi ~he-him~]

But Jonathan....I feel like I need him. No I shouldn't need a guy. I'm a fighter girls don't always need a guy. But Jon....he is the light to my depression....

[kavi ~he-him~]

He's like that one thing that's keeping me stable....keeping me alive....