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[kavi ~he-him~]

ugh most of the time when I go to take a shower I get lost in my mind and I start thinking about things about my past and my fears and a lot of the negative stuff

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "IKR so in the dream, I had to stay at some ppl's place for the night for some reason, and they had an older brother named Matt who was a year ..."

WOW

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "ugh most of the time when I go to take a shower I get lost in my mind and I start thinking about things about my past and my fears and a lot of the negative stuff"

Aw *hugs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "IKR so in the dream, I had to stay at some ppl's place for the night for some reason, a..."

XD I've had so many dreams that I've had boyfriends that never existed or bfs that I don't even know the names of. But I kinda wished that guy Matt was real, unfortunately he is just a part of my imagination, oh well XP

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "IKR so in the dream, I had to stay at some ppl's place for the..."

Unless..........

YOU'RE PSYCHIC!!!! O_o You dream of Gameslayer and its true! What if this MATT IS REAL?!!?!

[kavi ~he-him~]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "ugh most of the time when I go to take a shower I get lost in my mind and I start thinking about things about my past and my fears and a lot o..."

*hugs* I feel like the only place where I can truly be accepted as a friend, is anime club, lunch, and GR, and the internet, but even with my anime club and lunch friends, I sometimes feel like I'm not really good enough for them cause most of them are in APs and Honors and so smart, and I'm here with a learning disability and a speech problem, which I had for my whole life now, and I keep wondering if they'd still stay if they knew how broken I am on the inside, they're my friends, but they don't know the me on the inside, the me that has so much pain in her heart, the me who's been through so much in the past *sighs*

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "ugh most of the time when I go to take a shower I get lost in my mind and I start thinking about things about my past..."

Its okay!! Im here! And a disability is okay to have!

[NerdyJediGymnast]

I dont like saying "disability" because itmeans "not able", you are just able differently :D

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Holy CRAP KAVY, I just printed the note about Michael and my parents read it!! They are calling me downstairs now...wish me luck O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

my parents know I'm depressed. But they don't really understand. They don't understand that it's not just sadness that I feel, or what's truly going on in my mind. They don't know that their daughter is broken inside, and not a good idea to tell them. My friends at school, they don't know how much pain, their friend has in her heart. there was a time when I thought I finally was free from all this pain, when I thought I was finally okay, that was the time when I was dating Gameslayer, I was like at the happiest that I ever was in most of my life now, but then everything crashes, and now everything has been like a rollercoaster, there are times when I think I'm doing better, at least better than the past couple of weeks, but then I fall and crash even harder than before.

[kavi ~he-him~]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Holy CRAP KAVY, I just printed the note about Michael and my parents read it!! They are calling me downstairs now...wish me luck O_O"

OH GOD NOOOOOOO GOOD LUCK!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "ugh most of the time when I go to take a shower I get lost in ..."

*hugs you tightly* thank you Nerdy.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

For me, Idk when the misunderstanding started happening


Same here sis!!!!

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm getting sneeze attacks :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

So now what should I talk about now?....hmm......

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm so tired.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I couldn't sleep until like 3 am last night and I woke up at a time, idk what time it was....but I couldn't go back to sleep.....and then I had to get up for school.....*sighs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

My overprotective parents caught me on here while talking to some friends.....they don't like me talking to ppl I never met in person....but I do it anyways because of my really amazing friends/family.....I love them all and love them too much to lose them.....I can't lose them....I can't bear to lose any more ppl......*sighs* I can't wait until I go to college......

[kavi ~he-him~]

they think that ppl are just trying to lure me on here -_- yes there are bad ppl out there but there are good ppl out there too.....and in my heart I know all my friends/family on here are good ppl and they are really amazing.....my parents will never understand.....but I wish they would.......

[kavi ~he-him~]

I'm really tired.....and warning I'm kind of in an emotional state rn because lack of sleep messes with my emotions, so if I randomly start crying......it's because of lack of sleep......

[kavi ~he-him~]

So what to say now.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love him I love Gameslayer so much and I think he loves me too. I need to tell him but idk how to get him alone and how to tell him I love him or what to say. I'm afraid of rejections but he means a lot to me.....and idk how to tell him confidentially cause I'm so shy

[kavi ~he-him~]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "IKR so ..."

O_O

[kavi ~he-him~]

Oh wow if my dad catches me again.....I don't think it's gonna be pretty.....

[NerdyJediGymnast]

KAVY I SAW MICHAEL

[kavi ~he-him~]

PinkLoki(Shine) RULER OF: CrimsonPeak, Asgard, Jotunheim, Midgard, AvengersTower wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "Oh wow if my dad catches me again.....I don't think it's gonna be pretty....."

That's why I hide my iPad and delete the history. They think I..."

I tried changing the tabs but my dad caught me when I was least expecting it.....I usually try and keep an eye out and stuff I'm gonna do that now tho

[kavi ~he-him~]

NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "KAVY I SAW MICHAEL"

YAY HOW DID IT GO

[kavi ~he-him~]

Oh yeah....I keep forgetting.....the end of January is almost here.....and for some reason something ALWAYS happens to me at that time.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I dread the end of January....

[kavi ~he-him~]

I actually would go XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

YES I'm actually gonna name my future kids after fictional characters XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

The end of January....it's near.....

[kavi ~he-him~]

looking through my pinterest, and I found this

[kavi ~he-him~]

My life

[NerdyJediGymnast]

YAASSSS

[NerdyJediGymnast]

Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "NerdyJediGymnast wrote: "KAVY I SAW MICHAEL"

YAY HOW DID IT GO"

READ MY JOURNAL

[kavi ~he-him~]

Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: "looking through my pinterest, and I found this

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Accepting this call *accepts the call*

[kavi ~he-him~]

Anyways I read for 36 mins....I think.....before I went to sleep last night and IT FELT AMAZING!!! Although I want to punch and slap a fictional character so badly because he mistreated his son really badly

[kavi ~he-him~]

I was reading The Thor of Hammer....yes I am still reading that book after a few months....if I could I'd read faster and finish it in a week or so BUT STUPID TIME AND STUPID LIFE AND STUPID SCHOOL :(

[[deleted user]]

Sorry you feel that way.

[kavi ~he-him~]

It's alright

[kavi ~he-him~]

So I'm gonna put this stuff in spoilers just in case anyone hasn't read the Thor of Hammer because I have accidentally spoiled some books because I didn't know the ppl hadn't read them so....

(view spoiler)[ I wanna smack Mr. Alderman from the Thor of Hammers so badly, because of the way he mistreated his son. His son, Hearthstone is deaf, and his younger brother was killed by a spirit in the form of a creature and then Mr. Alderman made Hearthstone skin the creature by himself and he wants Hearthstone to pay the wergild himself which is to earn a lot of gold to cover up all of the creature's skin -_- I hate that guy and I feel really bad for Hearthstone and I wanna hug him so badly (hide spoiler)]

[kavi ~he-him~]

Lmao 73 views....

[kavi ~he-him~]

Personal Survey time
Stolen from Deviantart



What's your name? Kavy
How about your age? 17
Gender? Female
Birthday? 8/3
Height? 4' 10
Weight? 89
Zodiac sign? Leo
Birthstone? Peridot
Heritage? Indian
Eye color? Dark brown
Hair color/style. Black/long wavy
Current fitness? Idk
Skin tone? Dark brown

Romance Section.

Sexual orientation? Straight
Current relationship status? It's complicated....
How many relationships have you been in, and could you give a brief description of them? 1
What is your favorite feature of your preferred gender? I have girl power
Are you a virgin? yes
How often do you go on dates with your partner? Eh
If you aren't already, do you hope to marry the person you are with? yes
If you aren't in a relationship, then do you have a crush on someone? no but I'm in love with someone
Where is your favorite spot to be kissed? cheeks, forehead, lips
How old were you when you had your first kiss? 16

Seven Deadly Sins Section.

Would you consider yourself a glutton? Maybe....
A sloth? No
Lustful? no
Envious? No
Wrathful? no
Greedy? no
Prideful? No

"Naughty" Section.

Ever done crack? no
Smoked weed? no
Done meth? no
How about tried speed? no
Heroine? no
Shrooms? no
Do you often drink? never
Do you watch any form of pornography? no
Ever stolen something? Well I stole personal surveys from some of my friends
Ever abused or bullied someone? No
Ever been arrested? no
Ever cheated on someone? no
Have you ever gotten alcohol poisoning? no
Have you ever abused over-the-counter drugs? no

Education Section.

Are you still in school? yes
If so, then what grade? 12th
Your best subject in school? English
Worst subject in school? Math
Did you ever drop out of school? no
If you are in college, then what is your major? N/A

Family Section.

Describe your relationship with your parents. They're okay tho they are overprotective of me
Relationship with your siblings? We don't talk much so....
With your family in general? It's good
Ever experienced the death of someone close to you? No

Life Section.

Do you have a lot of friends? No
Would you consider yourself a loner? Most of the times....
Briefly describe your childhood. Terrible except for some things
Best aspect of life right now? Music, books, anime, my amazing friends/family
Worst aspect? My mind is dark

Religious Section.

Do you have a religion? Yes
Do you believe in a god or a form of intelligent design? Yes
Do people need to live by morals or just to have fun? Both

"Life Sucks" Section.

Do you have any allergies? Yes
Addictions? Yes, I'm addicted to books and music
Health problems? I have Depression, Social Anxiety, Generalized Anxiety, Paranoia
Permanent injuries/scars? I have a scar on my heart

Favorites Section.

Color? Blue, red, green, Black
Style of music? Rock/Metal/Alternatives/emo/dubstep/a little bit of pop
Food? Any
Drink? Hot chocolate
Animal? Dog
Plant? None, I'm allergic to Pollen
Book? Harry Potter, Percy Jackson, The Hunger Games, Magnus Chase, Divergent, The Maze runner, The book thief, The fault in our stars, Paper towns
Movie? Harry Potter
Song? Too many
Album? Too many
Band? Too many
Sport? Swimming
Candy? Chocolates
Weather? Windy
Time of day? Night
Smell? Chocolate

What was the last…

Movie you saw? Descendants
Book you read? I'm reading the Thor of Hammer rn
Thing you ate? Ravioli
Thing you drank? Water
Piece of art you did? a drawing of Zeref from Fairy Tail
Time you cried? Couple of weeks ago

Have you ever…

Punched someone? Yes
Kissed, or done more with, someone of the same gender? no
Thrown up on someone? No
Been thrown up on? no
Been to a rave? no
Danced on a table? No
Had a hangover? no
Flashed someone? no
Sneezed more than three times in a row? yes
Hugged a zebra? no
Seen a ghost? no
Talked to an inanimate object? yes

[Zombieslayer⚡Alienhunter]

Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: " Personal Survey time
Stolen from Deviantart



What's your name? Kavy
How about your age? 17
Gender? Female
Birthday? 8/3
Height? 4' 10
Weight? 89
Zodiac sign? Leo
Birthstone? Peridot
Heritage?..."

Stealing this :p

[kavi ~he-him~]

ALEJANDRO wrote: ":D"

ALEX

[kavi ~he-him~]

Zombieslayer/Alienhunter {Gandalf the Blonde} wrote: "Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: " Personal Survey time
Stolen from Deviantart



What's your name? Kavy
How about your age? 17
Gender? Female
Birthday? 8/3
Height? 4' 10
We..."

XD can't wait to see your answers XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

Thank you Alex XD *bows*

[kavi ~he-him~]

ALEJANDRO wrote: ""

O_O *hides behind Gray*


Gray: *pats my head*

[blue]

Kavy Jackson Fullbuster ~So everybody come on~ wrote: " Personal Survey time
Stolen from Deviantart



What's your name? Kavy
How about your age? 17
Gender? Female
Birthday? 8/3
Height? 4' 10
Weight? 89
Zodiac sign? Leo
Birthstone? Peridot
Heritage?..."

Stealing this!