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kavi ~he-him~
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Apr 27, 2017 06:23AM
I like being alone but at the same time I'm scared to be alone....
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Don't go there! Think of the happy thoughts, good Goodreads thoughts
Because it's when I remember....That's when the thoughts come rushing....I'm scared of my mind....I'm scared of those thoughts.....
My future is blurry again and I can't see the future clearly again.....
I'm back at the point where I don't know if I'll make it to the future.....
Princess Breeze~We think caged birds sing when really, they cry~ wrote: "Don't go there! Think of the happy thoughts, good Goodreads thoughts"Idk how to get out of this place.....
I'm tired and in an emotional state rn and I might break down at any time
But reality slapped me in the face
I love how in school I could be crying and no one will notice no one will care I could be sad and no one would care
I could be in pain and no one will notice
Granted, I don't want the attention I don't want to be seen as an "attention seeker" which I am not. But I want someone to care and someone to be there
I'm always afraid of losing someone but sometimes I wonder....if someone out there is afraid of losing me....
I feel like I bother and annoy everyone....
The tears are threatening to come....
❄️Small beans (Kavy/Kavya) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "I feel like I bother and annoy everyone...."You don't annoy everybody.
❄️Small beans (Kavy/Kavya) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "The tears are threatening to come...."*hugs tightly* I hope you feel better.
*hugs* I love you guys so much.....
You're nothing bothering anyone! Kavy, can you listen to some music now? That might make you feel better. *hugs*
If I didn't have GR, or music or books or anime or Jonathan or my cousin or my fav bands/singers or anyone/anything I love I would've lost it....
So I now have four different playlists on spotify. So that way I can listen to which ever playlists I want depending on my mood and which playlist I'm in the mood for. I'm gonna create another playlist filled with songs that relate to me or fit my mood so that way I can listen to it if I'm in the mood
Bvb just saved my life again O_O Bvb calms me down and comforts me and soothes
Shoot I accidentally deleted my Black Veil Brides/Andy Black/Juliet Simms playlist. Whoops.....
Gonna go to lunch soon....I'm scared the tears will come back.....
Jonathan sat next to me again tho I left to get some cookies from the Cafeteria and came back. And at some point I kind of started laughing and I couldn't stop
But there were a few points when my eyes were threatening to water and I had to hold myself together but I was fine
Me: *eating a cookie* Annette remember yesterday when I was wanting to marry the cookie?Annette: but you ate the cookie
Me: 😂 I ate my future husband
Annette: Kavya the cannibal
Julia: but she's not a cookie
Me: 😂
Me: Annette, if I was a cookie I would probably....
Annette: must be sad being a cookie. Only existing to get eaten
Me: the poor cookie
Me: *steals Jonathan's cookie*Jonathan: no *trying to get it back*
Me: *holds it away from him*
Jonathan: *grabs my arm and pulls it back to him and grabs the cookie*
I'm so tired today. I slept well but I woke up in an emotional state and really tired
Question:What is the point of making friends if they are just gonna leave? What is the point of friends if they're only gonna hurt you?
what is true meaning of friendship? Of TRUE friendships?
Friends are supposed to be there for each other and it's supposed to be 50/50 not one-sides. Friends are like a second family.
Friends are supposed to accept each other no matter what happens. Both of the people are supposed to put in the 50/50 efforts it has to be both sided. Yes there may be fights/dramas at times things happen, reality slaps us in the faces. But we're friends no matter what happens we'll always love each other. No matter what happens you should NEVER let anyone/anything come in between your friendship. No matter what happens you should never stop trying and putting efforts in the friendship. Because if you really care for each other you would continue to keep trying and making effort to make the friendship work. Because you love and care for each other
❄️Small beans (Kavy/Kavya) of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "Friends are supposed to accept each other no matter what happens. Both of the people are supposed to put in the 50/50 efforts it has to be both sided. Yes there may be fights/dramas at times things..."Exactly
Even if you move away and live far away or make new friends. There will always be new ppl in your lives but even then you never let the old ones go. Unless the olds ones just keep bringing you down, then you don't need those ppl in your life
It's the same with love and relationships
Look at me and my best friend Meytal, or me and my best friend/cousin
Or me and one of my friends Rachel
Me and my best friend Meytal, we'd been best friends since 4th grade but she moved away in middle school. When she moved away I was sad and I missed her a lot. She was my first best friend here, maybe my first REAL friend. We had differences but we also had things in common. She hated reading (idk why) and I loved reading. She was the only person that I could call because I'm to shy to call ppl or talk on the phone, unless it's family but I've talked on the phone with her. Me and her it's like fate brought us together. Sure after she moved away we lost contact for a while and then 3 years later I found her on Kik and we talked and we're still best friends in those 3 years I missed her I was sad, I cried and I think of her a lot. I thought she forgot me, but she didn't I have her on Kik, Facebook (she's the only person I talk to on there and I only go on fb to talk to her due to overprotective parents) and Insta. Sure she lives so far away from me but still look at us
We're still best friends and on the first week of school she came for a visit, and it made me really happy
It's been 5 YEARS since she moved away and she still remembers where I live and I still remember where she used to live before she moved. I still remember her old street name and her old house number
My cousin and I. We're the same age. We're as close as twin sisters we have a bond. Which is as strong as twin bonds even tho me and my actual twin brother aren't close. But me and my cousin are closer not just by blood but by heart. We have so many things in common. We have a really deep connection. I love her. She accepts me and I accept her. She lives in Virginia I live in Texas. I tell her everything and she still accepts me. On my last birthday she made me a card and on her last birthday I made her a card. Even if we do stop talking, when we start talking again, it's like nothing happens. Whenever she is sad, I'm sad. Once she was feeling really depressed and then I was feeling depressed too cause she was depressed. We're practically connected XD I'm more closer to her than any of my other cousins. She's the one who got me into anime. She's one of the few ppl that truly understands me. If anything happens to her....I'd die.....
That is what friendship is for.
stolen from Blue Comment your name and I'll tell you 1. How we met 2. My first impression of you. 3. What I like about you. 4. My favorite memory of you..
reply to this with your name and i'll do it
I don't remember how I met some of my friends on here tho XD
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