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Neha's Random Journal of Wonders <3!!
Now I know who all those people in the title song of Death Note are....doesn't mean I'm happy to know them -_-
Episode 36: I'm crying...I'M CRYING!!!!!!!!!! AND ITS NOT EVEN BEEN DECIDED YET AND IM STILL CRYING!!!!!!!! GODS I DONT KNOW IF I HAVE THE GUTS TO SEE THE LAST EPISODE. This was the second last. OH GOSH I JUST DO NOT!!!!!!!! I DONT WANT TO SEE HIM WIN!!!!!!! NO NO NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!! I dont want to watch it..but then I wont know who won. HE KNOWS THAT HE WON..but did he actually won. I DONT WANT TO SEE HIM WIN!!!!!!!! JUST NOOOOOOOOOO WAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh goshokay
here i go
to the last episode.
Episode 37: Interesting. Very Interesting. I JUST LOVED THE JOURNEY. GODDAM ALMOST GAVE ME A HEART ATTACK! (view spoiler)
Well, now that my reviews for each episode are finished, and if you've been reading the spoilers cuz you've already watched it, I'm not gonna write a summary review because1. No time
2. What my review is pretty much sums up all my reviews for each episode :D
Random Quote of the Day If you don't speak, you will die.
That's gonna be my life motto from now on!
Elastic Heart Music Video Review Wowzy..
I stared at the whole video dumbly. My mouth opened just a bit, a lot of times. There was definitely a deeper meaning but I couldnt find it.
The choreography was awesome! The girl's dance steps matched with the song's tunes really well! Some of the man's steps also matched. But I couldn't understand how the song fitted the video..just one relation that 'Elastic' here probably related to the girl's flexibility.
I got this video reference many times on internet today. So strange, because few months ago I listened to this song 24/7 along with other Catching Fire soundtracks. Jeez, some people know nothing. True Fangirl Here!!! :D
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TOday: Very Productive Day (Kinda) Whose classes start at 8:30? Who can't drive car so that she has to hitch a ride from her uncle and for that has to wake up at 6? Who has 3 continuous class till 12:30 pm, only to do lunch after that in between half an hour and then catch a bus to the mall to go work at Target FROM FREAKING 2 PM TO 10 PM?!?!
Ok yeah that's me. Gosh, you guys are so good at guessing!
Lol okay, today was PRETTY busy. But that's not my first rollercoaster ride. Oh man, if I tell you that story where I missed a bus then took another one and had to walk 10 minutes more JUST to return a library book..
*got distracted again* DAMMIT. Okay, as I was writing, Today was hella busy! BUT what made this day a bit different from other busy days are the reasons Below~
1. I got to buy the book Fairest which JUST got released this friday. And that too on 40% discount!! If you don't know why I'm still absolutely freaking out (at 12 am) it's because The Lunar Chronicles is one of my most favorite series, and getting to know about the villain (there's a WHOLE book written on it!!!) is kind of my favorite hobby :D
2. Got my upper lip done today! After days and days of... Oh okay...too much information (TMI). Sorry folks *meap*
3. Usually in Target, since I'm a TEAM member, I usually get to work as a team. Sometimes, as a duet, or a triplet (lol) in my department. Basically my department is clothing and fitting room. BUT today I was alone for the very first time, from 7:30 to 10 pm. There was this MOJO project needed to be done in fitting room, plus I had to work as the Operator today, which freaks me out, ALOT! Cashier and Operator are the shifts I try to avoid the most. Anything with talking to people...uh no. But yeah I just HAD to do that. Anyway, I've kinda practiced for phone operating, so that was not that much of a challenge. BUT for the very first time, I had to make the Closing Announcement.
For those who don't know, you're supposed to announce 'Good evening Guests. Target is closing in __ minutes. Please make your final selection bla bla bla. Have a nice evening bla bla' something like that.
There are 3 announcements, one for last 15 minute, one for last 5 minute and one for the end (when it closes!). SO yeah, I had to announce 3 times, and I can assure you I screwed up two of them. Or maybe 3, cuz I was speaking a bit fast..maybe.
Dammit I was so nervous! I feel pretty productive though. The other team members didn't believe I'll be able to compltet the project we had for today, but I did it! There'll be sure patting my back tomorrow..or maybe not.
Anyway, I do feel very productive though. I really wanted to write that all out because this was one of the good days I had. Lots of adventurous stuff. AND A NEW BOOK! *confetti*
I'm still debating on whether to read the book in reading week or this weekend. Not that it's big...
UGH! I have such a loong list of work though. But I just can't take my eyes away from the book. Daang, why don't scientists just invent something so that we could get enough sleep within an hour or so? Seriously, 16 hours are NOT enough to get your daily work done.
That's my rant for today :D. Woah, 86 VIEWS?! Do people actually read them? Maybe they just run away after seeing such long rants. Idk
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My concept of DEATH Did you ever hated on a person so much you just wanted to kill by your bare hands sometimes?? Yeah me too. Probably a thousand times. This next line is pretty cliche but I'm just gonna throw it off as I don't know how else to start my topic so..
But seriously, What is Death? *dun dun dun*
As an experienced reader of Percy Jackson series and Heroes of Olympus series, I'm really fascinated with how Greek and Roman people think Death is like. I've also read the Kane Chronicles so now I know what exactly Egptians think death is like. And then as a born Hindu I do know what Death is like for Hindu people too!
Okay before I say that I prefer the Hindu one, it's definitely NOT because I'm Hindu myself. I'm 110% sure even if I was some other third religion I would still find the Hindu one pretty explanatory. BUT I didn't say that I 110% believe in their concept. I have some of my own 'speculations' as well.
I honestly can't even imagine people suffering 'after' their Death. As a believer in Science as well, it's unbelievable that a soul can be affected in any way after their death too. The scientists have their limits too on the concept of soul and all that, even science has limits to which it can explore (that's just what I believe folks!). For me, I do believe in souls, but not particularly in ghosts. Ghost could be more like...souls with determination I guess. But they're certainly not in punishment.
*sigh* I'm so not getting to my point. Ok, here we go. And what I'm about to write is absolutely MY theory, my opinion, so please don't get upset or offended. No plagiarism, I swear! This is just a perspective of how I see it.
So, when someone kills somebody, it's because they don't want them to exist anymore. Like, an animal kills another animal to eat them, or to get them out of their way. Same for humans, birds, even plants! Why they don't want them to exist? The reason could be anything!! Like I just gave an example, they kill them so that they can consume their body, or that they are causing intrusions into the way of living of certain someone. So when the other one doesn't get away, they are being killed, just so they cannot exist anymore. But what really bothers me is that people think Death is justified! ITS SO HELLA NOT! The thing is, we don't know who really can decide who to kill, because there's NO OTHER REASONS than what I mentioned! Who will decide that?? That's one of the reasons we have 'God' or 'Mother Earth' or in a citizens point of view the 'Judicial system'.
But that thing does not end there. After they are being killed, majority of the humans beings in this smaller-than-dot planet in the Universe is that these beings, who got killed, just got a 'Punishment' by being killed. But in reality (and in my perspective) that totally depends on the person who got killed. Maybe it's a punishment for the being that he/she does not exist anymore, and cannot be a part of someone he/she cares...but what if they don't have a motive of existence? Also, if your body stops working, you really don't have a choice but NOT exist anymore. It's not like you can actually so something about it. Unless you have rare determination to live, but trust me that's like 10 in a billion possibility only.
So why do people think that it's justice, or it's good that they died? Because they believe in afterlife! Which, for me, does not exist! We have a soul within us..and if it's not in a body..the soul stops existing too. True, no one really knows about souls and stuff (other than that they may exist). But I can assure you that Death is not something destined. It happens because of natural reasons or species reason. A snake is hungry? GULP! Eat the frog. The frog is dead. Will the frog live in heaven now? Or one human kills the another because he was a bad person. Will the bad person get a 'special punishment' for what he did afterwards?? NO! You simply killed that person, so that he cannot cause intrusion in your life anymore. It's not about him, it's about you!!
A person can be the reason you took your present decisions, he/she might have influenced your past greatly. But if you don't want him/her to exist in your own area of life, you really don't need to kill him/her unless you have no choice! But obviously not all people have the expertise to kill. It's not really 'Survival of the fittest' thing like it used to be in cavemen times. That's why the police, or the judicial system is there, to help those who don't want the other person to intrude in their life or wherever their own influence is. Death is one way to do that, but it's the ULTIMATE WAY! But you think that someone else will punish that person just because that person harmed you somehow, you are greatly mistaken. YOU have a great role in it. It's you who decide IF to take that person out of your life, and HOW to do that.
That's it really! That's my definition right there. Death: Someone getting out of your area of influence Permanently. The words like 'justice' and 'punishment' have nothing to do with death. More importantly, it has nothing to do with the person who dies. It has something to do with the person who LIVES and who causes the death of that person.
Thanks for reading my whole rant of today :D
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Dang that went good! I hope my writing doesn't get worse in the future. It used to be pretty good before. Or maybe I'm improving? Idk...I don't really think I'm good at self-speculation.
Youtube comment of the day We all are human...no one man is immuned from LIFE as it goes by.
Random Fun Fact of the Day I say MEAP! when I get excited. Inspired from the mono-dialogue MEAP! by Meap from Phineas and Ferb :D
My opinion on: Fanfiction (In construction.. :P)
Hey, Neha. What is the Hindu concept about death? I'd like to know. :)
♆Some-person♆ wrote: "Hey, Neha. What is the Hindu concept about death? I'd like to know. :)"Hindus really don't believe in afterlife. Well, some stories do tell about how you will rot in hell if you didn't behave properly in life or whatever. But mostly, they say that hell and heaven are only on Earth. Our scales will be balanced in the end, there will be no extra good points or bad points left. Whatever good points you earned, you will be given reward throughout your life and if you did something bad and got bad points, you will get all punishments too throughout the life.
And of course, right after death, our soul will be immediately reincarnated into a new individual. It could be anything really. From flower to dog to mosquito. Some myths say that you will have to live up a thousand lives just to get a human one (which makes up the moral of the story that Value your life!). But the soul itself, never dies.
Or never remains in hell or heaven, because they only exist when you have a body. :)
DANG IT! Now I forgot what I had to say about Fanfiction. Seriously, DANG IT!! I'm sooo cursing right now!
I want to be a Wildflower when I grow up. ITS MY HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (10th March folks)
I know I know. Such an accomplishment :D. Honestly, whenever my birthday is coming up I'm all like 'Yeah I really don't care.' But as the time comes near, I get this bubbly excitement inside of me that wants to grow even more and then dance happily into the sunset singing Happy Birthday to myself. I GET SO HAPPY, if only for the reason that I completed 19 revolutions around the Sun. Even this lame sentence makes me feel so proud! (Such a nerd! :P)
Anyway, so what's going on right now is that I need to complete this assignment and then I also got this Lab test tomorrow, so I'm gonna pull a 1-o-clock-nighter. I call it a half-nighter.
ALSO, my birthday officially started around 2:30 pm TODAY and will end at 2:30 TOMORROW at EST, because that's what the Indian timing is for 10th March.
Back to the wildflower topic (which in fact is more like a starting of the topic), after my last class in University, which ended at 8:30 pm tonight, when I was already tired because I slept 6 hours yesterday, my oh-so-cute Chinese friend was trying to encourage me that I can actually pull it off and said 'Neha, don't worry! You are a wildflower!'
I wasn't sure I heard her correctly. I thought she said I'm a 'Wallflower' so I asked her What? And she said 'I said, you are a wildflower!'
So I asked 'Why are you saying that? What kind of metaphor is that?'
She said 'Oh you know! Wildflower is a flower that can grow even in desert.'
And then...it was as if my world turned upside down, and all of a sudden I felt like I was melting. That was SUCH a cute comment. I never knew I could feel like that by such simple words. 'Aww thanks Sharon." I said.
And then we walked and she said goodbye and Happy Birthday and I said thanks and bye and 'see ya!' and all that jazz, and even after that I was smiling the whole way. It was such a compliment! Actually it was not a compliment, her english is not that good so I knew she wanted to encourage me, so if she was fluent in english I'm pretty sure she would have said 'Be like a wild-flower girl!' or something like that.
But she said it like a metaphor, as if she already thought I was a wild-flower. I thought, 'I don't think I even deserve this kind of compliment. BUT, *drumroll* this could be my goal.'
And c'mon folks! I feel like this is such a good goal to get in life, to be a wild-flower, which can grow even in deserts. I mean, I totally wanna be a wildflower. Something that grows and nurtures no matter what the conditions are. I'd love to be something like that!
That's like my legit life-goals right now! And if by any chance I get to cut a cake tomorrow (10th March by EST time) and I get to blow a candle..well you guessed my wish. I won't actually finish that sentence because then..it wouldn't come true (of course I believe in myths like these..such a nerdy thing I tell you).
Good night and wish me luck! Because even though it's my birthday all I can think of is my assignment tomorrow and that stupid Midterm on Friday.
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By the way I have another idea, I'm gonna post here everyday writing 'Youtube Video of the Day' with a short review. That way I'll definitely be more active! Hope it works well :P
Thanks for telling me, Neha! That's a really interesting concept. I'd heard something about how in Hinduism, you get reincarnated only 7 times, so I wasn't sure. Anyway, thanks again! And sorry about making you forget what you were gonna write...
And happy belated birthday, dude! Sorry I couldn't wish you earlier, but I haven't been on lately. :)
♆Some-person♆ wrote: "Thanks for telling me, Neha! That's a really interesting concept. I'd heard something about how in Hinduism, you get reincarnated only 7 times, so I wasn't sure. Anyway, thanks again! And sorry abo..."Oh the 7 story does seem familiar..
WAIT now I remember. Actually when groom and bride get married according to Hindu traditions they take 7 rounds around the holy fire, taking 7 oaths. And one of the oaths is that they will be together forever FOR..wait for it..7 more lifetimes. So if you're accidentally married to someone in Hindu tradition, it means for the next 7 lives the same partner is going to be your partner XD. I always found it hilarious, can you imagine if on the 7th life they become human Hindus again and AGAIN take oath to be together for 7 more lives?? lol.
Oh girl, that isn't even your fault. I wanted to write it the next day, but I forgot to even log on goodreads, much less write about it :P. And THANKS! A birthday wish is always a b'day wish so it doesn't matter :D
Wait, so if you get reincarnated as... I don't know, a bug, you're gonna end up with the same partner? Wow, talk about true love... :)
♆Some-person♆ wrote: "Wait, so if you get reincarnated as... I don't know, a bug, you're gonna end up with the same partner? Wow, talk about true love... :)"EXACTLY!! That's also kind of why marriage is a big deal in India. And uh, also old-generation people are kind of against pre-marital sex, cuz, you know, it's not 'marriage' and there no vows taken to be together bla bla bla. OMG I'm going off-topic here :P
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ITS MY HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (10th March folks)
I know I know. Such an accomplishment :D. Honestly, whenever my birthday is coming up I'..."
That was so sweet, oh my gosh. ^-^
Sword Art Online Episode ReviewsHey guys,
You must be wondering about why am I posting this when my final exams are so near? One word: Procrastination (don't kill me). Also, I was tired :P
It's just a few episodes I'm gonna watch today of this anime, since I've heard a LOT about it.
I'm recording this here because I'll have a tumblr account one day, and it's a very detailed plan/dream, where I'll post my different reviews on STUFFS. Animes will be one of them :D. But I only wanna do that when I'm kind of free. I hope that time will be this coming summer. Anyway, back to reviewing!
It's a non-spoiler review by the way (unless you click on spoiler boxes :D).
Ep 1: Okay so from the title, we all know it's about a video game. To be honest, I'm not that much of a fan of multiplayer online games, mainly because there are only two types of people in there: The too-serious-gamers and the non-serious-flirting-gamers. There is NO in between.
For too-serious gamers, I just don't understand why people take games that seriously. Of course, we all share a love with the world that is not real. BUT being too happy in a virtual world makes you even sadder in the real world, which is, by the name, is REAL and Matters, perhaps the most!
Anyway, this anime is not like that...yet, even if the game is deadly serious. It's just the first episode and we don't know that much about characters yet. I quite like the main plot. I'm kind of hoping that the later episodes will contain moral issues of differences between real and virtual world.
(view spoiler)
This is gon' be fun!
Ep. 2: Okay yeah, obviously, that had to happen. You know it people, the bad word, the big D-word? *sigh* (view spoiler)
Ep. 3: OMG. That was some serious schist. (view spoiler) Anyway, I'm enjoying the anime so far. Kirito also reminds me of Nico (hint: He has a coat on so..)
Ep. 4 This is very awesome. Seems like Kirito has gotten really famous. (view spoiler)
Ep. 6 Just forget what I said about Kirito like Nico. No way, Kirito is more like combo of Nico and Percy :P. (view spoiler)
Ep 12: This episode was pretty emotional, with a dam good message. (view spoiler)Ep. 13: DAT ATTACK DOE! (view spoiler)
Episode 14: OH. MY. GOODNESS. WHAT. JUST. HAPPENED.
HOW. EVEN!
*denial mode before explosion*
Ep. 15: Geez this is starting all over again now. It's like..you know..after PJO series ended and then Heroes of Olympus started?? PRETTY MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Part of the reason why it's highly recommended to watch!!!)(view spoiler)
UPDATE: I have finished it!! I liked it. There were just a few things that bothered me but the ending was great! Looking forward to watch SAO2. (But first, FINALS AAHHH!)
Love and Childhood Sexual Abuse Okay, this is again a random post (like all my other posts EVER, heh). But I just saw this post on facebook and couldn't resist putting it to my journal because it is something everyone, including me, needs to know and hope for.
There's this not-that-famous Bollywood superstar Kalki Koechin who was being interviewed, and the following are her words
❝ The reason i spoke out about my sexual abuse is not to get people to feel sorry for me but to give others who have had similar circumstances the confidence to talk about it. I allowed someone to have sex with me at the age of nine, not understanding fully what it meant and my biggest fear after was that my mother would find out. I felt it was my mistake and so I kept it hidden for years. If I had had the confidence or awareness to confide in my parents it would have saved me years of complexes about my own sexuality. It's important that parents remove the taboo around the word sex or private parts so kids can speak openly and be saved from potential abuse.
I believe in being myself every step of the way and not hiding my true self from society, whether that means getting a divorce because me and my husband didn't want to pretend for other people, or wearing shorts because it's a hot day or choosing a career which is unstable but creatively satisfying, or admitting to my weaknesses because learning from them has led to my strengths.
I've also been asked a lot about love lately. Well, i just feel love is not up for public display. Love is not the pictures you put up on social media. Love is not a certificate of marriage. Love is not property, children, family or ownership and love is not a barter - 'I'll give you this, if you give me that.'
Love is giving without expecting in return. It sounds like the ultimate act of self sacrifice right? But the trouble with giving, and I mean happily and limitlessly giving without expecting in return, is that one has to be self sufficient, and full of love for oneself. So, in a way, I believe love is selfish, because only a person who loves themselves fully, can give fully without expecting, without needing, without dependency. I'm not there yet, but I fight to be myself everyday in a world where we are constantly pressurized to be someone else, and that daily fight is my pursuit for love. ❞
Game Of Thrones Season 1Okay...I got addicted to this one now. For sooo long people have been urging me to watch it. I also read online reviews, and I remember someone wrote how it is the best show if you really wanna experience a completely fantasy world.
Well, I've watched the first three episodes and I couldn't agree more with ALL the reviews I've read.
Complete Fantasy- Yup!
Best Show for unexpected deaths- Double Check.
Best show if you're interested in stuff like backstabbing, kingdoms, incest, nudeness and whatever- *sigh* Way too much check..
Inspite of all that, I'm hooked to it now. And below is my review so far so DON'T READ BELOW IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED IT YET!!!
When I watched first episode, I just could not understand anything, so of course I had to take some help from the Wikipedia for me to remember all the names and kingdoms, and thank goodness it's not that hard to remember once you do remember. BUT I wasn't really liking it that much. Of course I knew about bad stuff in it, but I felt like there's nothing more than bad stuff happening. For a few minutes through the show I was really wondering how people could even like it. At the end of one episode, I had no favorite character so far other than the little 10 year old boy (who of course was thrown down in the end making me gasp) and those little wolf puppies. I did not even LIKE anyone other than those. But, just for the sake of the cliffhangar and the boy, I just clicked on the next one.
Now I'm kinda happy I did that, because from the second episode I got to see some good things too, and realised it isn't all about bad stuff. I especially love the music background, it's so cool!
After episode three, Arya is my absolute favorite (that's why my fingers are crossed for her...NOT dying!!). I like the whole Stark family actually, including Jon. So honorable and all that. Whereas the Lannisters...oooohhhh those ^%#^%^$^%$^#^!!! I'm also liking 'Khalaesi' now that she has grown some character development (*cough* not to mention a freaking baby too). Her name is kinda hard to pronounce...and spell; so I just call her Diana. I wonder what will happen when these nomads and the people of Kingsland (and the Starks) 'meet' O_O.
I'm really wondering what kind of disasters and internal warfare will the Winter bring. I can already tell something really really Huge is gonna happen. It's like a mountain building up from small pebbels, until the Huge mountain starts to fall and just...destroys everything. Problems upon Problems...I can only hope everything goes okay by the end.
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This Journal.. Hey Folks.
So it didn't come to my attention until right now that I've been writing in this online journal for...MORE THAN ONE YEAR!! *confetti*
I don't know whether it is good or bad, but so far I've only filled 7 pages and 342 comments (this one is 343). At any rate, I feel accomplished because of 2 reasons:
1. I didn't stop writing in here.
2. My journals are exactly in accordance with the Journal Title itself, especially the 'Random' part (the part which maybe people don't even care about...which consists this whole journal itself :P)
But yes, I'm happy because now I know I will never Ever stop writing here, no matter whatever the circumstances are.
I'm also glad the journal got 93 views so far. I'm pretty sure all of them must be bored or annoyed and just left after 'accidentally' clicking here. Must be like falling in a pit of random colored snakes XD.
Just wanted to give a quick shout-out to my LOVELY GR friends who didn't let me go even when I changed countries :P. Means that I'll be the part of this online GoodReads community irrespective of my real life communities :D
Thanks so much for that! And yeah, I'll keep writing random stuff so if you (by any luck of mine) like them or something then stay tuned!
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Game of Thrones madness (still on Season 1..) Gods, I'm addicted to it now!!! I guess 7 total hours are enough to keep someone hooked to a show :D
The best part about the show is that no matter after how long you start to watch the next episode, you feel the same kind of emotions you felt in the ending of earlier episode JUST by the theme music.
Oh, the music is just too good. The characters so distinctive and complex with different levels of development. It's such a good show to watch (err..still..not for younger viewers..for obvious reasons)
Just so you know, I've watched 7 episodes, I'll be finishing Season 1 tomorrow. So excited!! I have no idea how the ending would be like. Most probably a cliffhangar. And then before I know I'll be watching the first episode of the second season, lol.
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My friend watched the first episode of Game of Thrones, and she said it was really bad so she stopped watching it. Haha, maybe I should tell her to keep watching it because of what you said. :P
Lσŗεŧŧą ~I Dση'т Wαηηα Gαιη Tнє Wнσℓє Wσяℓ∂, & Lσѕє Mу Sσυℓ....~ wrote: "Hi Neha! :D"Heyyy :D
♆Some-person♆ wrote: "My friend watched the first episode of Game of Thrones, and she said it was really bad so she stopped watching it. Haha, maybe I should tell her to keep watching it because of what you said. :P"Haha yeah maybe she'll like it after a couple more episodes. I can honestly say that it was the second episode that got me hooked instead of the first.
Oh my Gosh...Episode 9 was so NOT good. That just didn't happen, oh no. Everything was going so well then why..I feel so slayed right now...
This is one sad show! The saddest right now. Everything is just..pathetic. It seems like the good side can never win, because all the good people give mercy, and bad people don't
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First Season Finished:The Goosebumps are real. The ending scene..wow.
I'm really happy they didn't exactly end it with a cliffhangar. We just don't know how it will go next, although there are several hints.
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Books mentioned in this topic
Fairest (other topics)The Blood of Olympus (other topics)
Scarlet (other topics)
The Death Cure (other topics)
Cinder (other topics)
Dammit....Light....I just know that you will HAVE to die no matter what!!!!! Near and Mello will kill you. Or Michael...whatever his name is. I wonder if Near is his actual name. And what the heck was the name of L?!?!?! (hide spoiler)]