Forbidden thoughts for someone unimportant enough for a name

[YoursTruly]

Because they don't like him
Choosing him means losing them
And I dnot want that
Because he would lose people he cares about too
And I'm not doing that to him
I'm not worth it

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

People shouldn't dislike you for liking someone they don't like.

[YoursTruly]

It's not like that. Its just in the past there have been a lot of issues

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Why?

[YoursTruly]

Because he's a cunt and everyone knows it

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

..Not following.

[YoursTruly]

He's done stuff to everyone, including me, in the past. Bad stuff.
And we all agreed to not getting involved with him again, and I need to stick to that

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Hm.

[YoursTruly]

Hm?

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Nothing. Just thinking about what you said.

[YoursTruly]

Right. What do you think?

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

I don't know

[YoursTruly]

Ah

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Sorry

[YoursTruly]

It's 'lright

[YoursTruly]

If anyone is reading this, and you are good with advice, please can you PM me?
I need to talk to someone

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

What classifies as "good advice"?

[YoursTruly]

Helpful, rather than confusing

Although it no longer matters, I acted on my heart and sorted it out

[YoursTruly]

Everyday I hear a diffent story, people saying that you're not good for me.... I don't want nobody baby, but our love just brings me down.

[YoursTruly]

So fucking sick of walking down the stret and hearing "fat bitch" being shouted at me
5 times in past 3 days...
Im sick of it
I dont even want to leave my house anymore
But I should lose weight right?
So easy right?
Wrong
If i eat it gets stored as fat
If I dont eat my bosy panics and stores everything as fat
I exercise as much as i can in my busy schedule
There is literally nothing i can do

I know im not the thinest person but im also not fat. Just xhubby.
Leave me alone
I hate mysekf already
I want to die alrady
Dont make it worse guys

[YoursTruly]

I miss him

[YoursTruly]

I miss how bad, naughty and dirty he made me feel

[YoursTruly]

I miss how much I want him

[YoursTruly]

Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding.
Fall into your sunlight.
The future's open wide, beyond believing.
To know why, hope dies.
Losing what was found, a world so hollow.
Suspended in a compromise.
The silence of this sound, is soon to follow.
Somehow, sundown.

And finding answers.
Is forgetting all of the questions we called home.
Passing the graves of the unknown.

As reason clouds my eyes, with splendor fading.
Illusions of the sunlight.
And a reflection of a lie, will keep me waiting.
With love gone, for so long.

And this day's ending.
Is the proof of time killing, all the faith I know.
Knowing that faith, is all I hold.

And I've lost who I am, and I can't understand.
Why my heart is so broken, rejecting your love, without, love gone wrong, lifeless words carry on.
But I know, all I know, is that the end's beginning.
Who I am from the start, take me home to my heart.
Let me go and I will run, I will not be silent.
All this time spent in vain, wasted years, wasted gain.
All is lost, hope remains, and this war's not over.
There's a light, there's the sun, taking all shattered ones.
To the place we belong, and his love will conquer all.

Yesterday I died, tomorrow's bleeding.
Fall into your sunlight.

[YoursTruly]

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet

Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?

Only when I stop to think about you,
I know
Only when you stop to think about me,
do you know?

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me?

I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?

[YoursTruly]

Da da da da

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection, baby
To be with myself and center clarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes, you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late and dark outside
I need to be with myself and center clarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La da da da da da

[YoursTruly]

What a shame that the girl who once believed in fairytales and magic had to be struck by reality, and now has demons in her mind, and a fear of never being loved

[YoursTruly]

He looked away, and in that moment, she fell out of love

[YoursTruly]

She didnt know when he stopped being enough, but it killed her than he never would be

[YoursTruly]

Nothing makes her happier than you

Its a shame nothing makes her sad or makes her hurt other than you

[YoursTruly]

How long has it been since I last sat crying and listening to music?
Feels like its been forever

Sadly, crying out the last bit of water in my body isnt going ot help me fight dehydration in this heat

[YoursTruly]

A year ago
"please dont leave me"
"I promise Princess"

Today
"please dont leave me"
"i dont plan on it"


See the difference?
How much things have changed
How can this not cause me heartbreak

[YoursTruly]

[YoursTruly]

Dont you just hate it when there is one person you need in your life and they are hardly around
and theres the other person who you can live without perfectly, and she always pops up when you dont want her to

[YoursTruly]

Step 1. Aliantae everyone

[YoursTruly]

Step 2. Make sure they dont care

[YoursTruly]

Step 3. Die quietly

[YoursTruly]

Tomorrow was going to be my day
I was going to end it wall

I'm sat in my room crying, mourning myself coz noone else will,
and my little brother came and sat on my knee, and just gave me teh biggest hug ever
and asked me why I was crying, and he informed me that he loves me and doesnt like me crying

a 5 year old said that

and the thing where he came in when i needed a hug was just
i swear hes part cat
cats know when you need them
so do littlle bros XD