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Feb 12, 2014 02:49AM
She dropped her face, "You should eat Cicily I was not trying to be rude." she said begging to her.
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"No really i'm not hungry. I had loads of pizza last night" she said with a small smile "ready to go?"
She weighted her words and than believing her picked up few sandwiches and stood up, "okay let's go."
Cicily grabbed her bag and walked put the front door, saying good bye to her dad.
((Time skip))They drives to their school in silence, none of them speaking to each other. Reaching the parking spot, she hopped out of the car, muttering a good bye to her.
She takes a deep breath and hops out of the car, locking it and walking slowly into the school. She really didn't want to be here today, she wanted to go and cry in a corner.
Zayden had came earlier in the morning and was waiting for her on the gate, since she wasn't replying to his texts. "Hey." he said coming out from behind the shadows.
"Hey" she replied, her voice soft and unsure. She was really quiet today, definitely not her usual self. She walked really slowly and looked down at the floor.
He bit his lip, thinking that she doesn't wants to talk to him as she doesn't even looked at him. "I'm sorry C, what I did yesterday wasn't right." he said in a mere whisper.
She stopped and looked up at him, bags under her eyes and the usual glint of playfulness gone from her eyes "no Zayden i'm sorry. I shouldn't of said yes to dancing with you. If i said no everything would have been ok" she said softly.
He nodded, feeling bad but than he frowns hearing her talk about everything. "What do you mean everything C ? I just danced with you and it made you upset." he said, not knowing anything at all about her breakup.
She looked back down at the ground "yeah i know thats what i thought too but Bu didn't see it that way" she said softly, not looking up.
He frowns, coming closer to her body, "What do you mean Buford doesn't see it this way ?" lifting her face up with her chin.
She moved her face so that he wasn't touching her anymore "well it doesn't matter anymore because he won't even look at me" she said softly.
His face dropped and he cursed himself. Now she hates him and it is going to kill him. "But it's ridiculous of him." he said in a soft tone.
She shrugged "i know but i guess its happened now" she said, beginning to walk away.
He looks at her with a saddened face, "Do you hates me now ?" he asked looking down at the floor.
She stops in her tacks at his question and looks up at him with pity "no Zay i could never hate you. It was my fault i shouldn't have danced with you. I just hope you know we won't be dancing again so don't ask me" she said softly
He looks at her curiously. wanting to look deep into her and sighs, "Cicily I like you, please don't do this to me. It's his mistake, if he can't trust you than he isn't worth you."
((Do you want them to get together?))She shook her head "Zayden i broke up with Bu last night because i was doing something with you. Do you really have to pounce on me straight away? Thats not fair for me" she said, looking up at him with sad eyes.
((depends on you :)))He shook his head, "no that's not what I meant. I'm saying don't be upset over him and I'm always here for you, if you need someone to talk to." he said turning to walk away, her words like a dagger, knowing he did something to make her this upset.
She caught his arm as he turned away "i'll see you at lunch yeah?" She asked, feeling bad for blaming him. It wasn't his fault and she really did like his company.
He nodded at her, putting on a smile on his face, because he knew the peace between them was palpable between them. "Yeah I'll see you soon, in the lunch." with that he turned and walked away towards his first class.
She sighed and walked off towards her class. She didn't really pay attention, it just went in one ear and drifted out the other.
Ivy noticed her sitting alone and with a frown she sat besides her. "Hey girly." she said to her, trying to sound cheerful.
"Hey Ivy" she said back with a small smile, definitely not allowing herself to take anything out on her beat friend.
"What's up ? I didn't saw you yesterday in the party either." she said,trying not to sound accusing or anything since Cicily was looking totally beat up.
"Yeah... I didn't really like the party" she said softly, not really wanting to talk about it. She had been wondering where Ivy had been but was too caught up in everything else to go look.
She looks at her with tilted head looking for right, "but party was awesome, I bet you ran away with your guy." she teased her a little,trying to make her smile.
"I don't have a guy anymore Ivy" she said in an almost whisper, that one sentence just as painful as if she had just stabbed herself with a knife and drawn it through her insides.
Her mouth gaped open, but no words coming out of her mouth. She pushed her hair away from her eyes, "It's out of question, you're kidding me." she said not believing her.
She shook her head "no its true. I was stupid last night. I danced with Zayden and Bu got the wrong idea. He won't even look at me" she said, her voice cracking a little ((Gtg to bed night!))
She looks at her with wide eyes and gulps. "I'm sorry, try talking to him, maybe he will listen to you today." she suggested and pulls her for a hug.
She sakes her head "no, i think his mind his made up. He wouldn't look at me last night. The only reason he touched me was to push me away and the only reason he spoke to me was to say he doesn't want me anymore" she said
She shook her head, looking hard at her, "It's really bad of him, he should listen to you. Just try once again, it won't hurt to try. Maybe he will, if not than I'm here for you." she said with a hopeful smile, meaning every bit of the last few words.
Cicily shrugged "i don't know maybe..." She said with a sigh as the teacher walked into the room and she faced the front, trying to pay attention.
She pressed her lips in a thin line and looked ahead, she didn't knew what to say and Cicily maybe wanted nobody to bother her. So the rest of the period flew by, only in lectures.
Lunch came and Cicily packed up her things and walked to the cafeteria, sitting down and waiting for Zayden
Ivy saw Cicily going away, without saying any words to her, so she went to her usual spot in the farthest corner of the cafeteria.Zayden spots her sitting alone, looking miserable just like before. He walked to her, but doesn't sat on the seat, just looked at her with lowered eyes.
She looks up at him with a small smile "hey" she said softly, looking down at the chair as if to ask him to sit down.
Taking her cue, he sat down on one of the chair, and puts a tray of food between them. "How are you ?" he asked softly.
"Um... Ok" she replied, opening her orange juice and taking a tiny sip. She felt a little bad for ditching Ivy but she just needed to talk to Zayden.
His eyes were still fixed on her face, trying to see through the mask, which she had made, "No, I don't think so." he said, taking a bite from the apple he had bought, "Just look at yourself."
She sighed and put the bottle down "well how do you expect me to be?" She asked, looking up into his eyes. She was so lost now, the sane way she had been after her best friend had died, she needed someone to come and straighten up her life again.
He let out a breath, gulping, and not knowing what to say. He for sure one thing, knew that he can't see her in this miserable state. "C, if he doesn't trust you, than he isn't worth you. You can do better than him." he said, trying to make her understand.
"Yeah i know but it just seems like everyone that i care about most- apart from my family- get taken away from me. Its unfair" she said, knowing that she was slipping back into the hole of darkness she had just come out off.
He shook his head, looking into her eyes, "It's not like that Cicily, people makes themself go away fun you, and It's their loss, they aren't seeing what a beautiful person you're. It's their loss,"
She smiled a little at his comment and took his hand, gently squeezing it "your amazing" she told him, a hidden thank you just for being there for her.
He smiles since she showed a hint of smile on her lips, "No you're amazing and keeps your lips spread, it makes you look frightening, so they won't hurt you." he joked, trying to bring her out more.
Her lips got the tiniest bit wider and she looked up at him with hope. Maybe he was right. Maybe Bu and her won't mean to be. ((Gtg night))
