Alexandra Stuckey > Alexandra's Quotes

“You have been in every way all that anyone could be.… If anybody could have saved me it would have been you.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I do my best thinking at night when everyone else is sleeping. No interruptions. No noise. I like the feeling of being awake when no one else is.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I learned that there is good in this world, if you look hard enough for it. I learned that not everyone is disappointing, including me, and that a 1,257-foot bump in the ground can feel higher than a bell tower if you’re standing next to the right person.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“People rarely bring flowers to a suicide.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“You saved my life. Why couldn't I save yours?”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I should be happy, but instead I feel nothing. I feel a lot of nothing these days. I've cried a few times, but mostly I'm empty, as if whatever makes me feel and hurt and laugh and love has been surgically removed, leaving me hollowed out like a shell.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“You deserve better. I can’t promise you I’ll stay around, not because I don’t want to. It’s hard to explain. I’m a fuckup. I’m broken, and no one can fix it. I’ve tried. I’m still trying. I can’t love anyone because it’s not fair to anyone who loves me back. I’ll never hurt you, not like I want to hurt Roamer. But I can’t promise I won’t pick you apart, piece by piece, until you’re in a thousand pieces, just like me. You should know what you’re getting into before getting involved.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“What a terrible feeling to love soemone and not be able to help them.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“The future is uncertain, but that can be a good thing.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“He says, “ ‘Lovely’ is a lovely word that should be used more often.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Your hope lies in accepting your life as it now lies before you, forever changed. If you can do that, the peace you seek will follow. Forever changed. I am forever changed.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I am in pieces.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Is today a good day to die?”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“The problem with people is they forget that most of the time it’s the small things that count. Everyone’s so busy waiting in the Waiting Place.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Disguise the pain. Don’t call attention. Don’t be noticed.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“People like Theodore Finch don't die.He's just wandering.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“You’re probably better at math than I am, because pretty much everyone’s better at math than I am, but it’s okay, I’m fine with it. See, I excel at other, more important things—guitar, sex, and consistently disappointing my dad, to name a few.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“The cadence of suffering has begun - Cesare Pavese

I
am
in
pieces.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Labels like “bipolar” say This is why you are the way you are. This is who you are. They explain people away as illnesses.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“For a minute, I can feel it: the sense of peace as my mind goes quiet, like I'm already dead. I am weightless and free. Nothing and no one to fear, not even myself.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Is today a good day to die?

Is today the day?
And if not today–when?”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I’m a fuckup. I’m broken, and no one can fix it.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I run until time stops. Until my mind stops.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“There are no rules, because life is made up of too many rules as it is.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I hate you.
If only I'd known.
If only I'd been enough .
I let you down.
I wish I could have done something.
I should have done something.
Was it my fault?
Why wasn't I enough?
Come back.
I love you.
I'm sorry.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I skim through our notebook, thick with words, and then through our Facebook messages—so many now—and then I write a new one, quoting Virginia Woolf: “Let us wander whirling to the gilt chairs.… Are we not acceptable, moon? Are we not lovely sitting together here …?”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I am not perfect. I have secrets. I am messy. Not just my bedroom but me. No one likes messy.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Finch scribbles something and slaps it to the wall. Welcome. He scribbles something else. Freak. He shows it to me before destroying it. He writes Belong, which goes on the wall, and Label, which doesn’t. Warmth, Saturday, Wander, You, Best friend go up, while Cold, Sunday, Stand still, Everyone else go into the heap.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Sometimes in the darkest places, we find the brightest light.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I love the world that is my room. It’s nicer in here than out there, because in here I’m whatever I want to be… I am fearless. I am free. I am safe.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places