“in the dark

I'm hiding behind this smile
and lately
chaos has found its way
into my heart
there's a shade of gray
that covers my day to day
and fills me with the type
of sadness
difficult to define with words

the darkness hovers over me
like vultures awaiting supper
ever so patiently
as life takes a toll on my soul

nearly out of my mind
and out of control
searching for myself
in mirrors
yet all I see
is a face that I don't know

who am I
and if I were to lose
this fight
where in the hell
would I go”