“And what do you see?” I ask, afraid of the answer but unwilling to let this moment go. His eyes close, and he brings our foreheads together. “I see a selfless girl. I see a smart woman who is going to change the world. I see a woman who is so fiercely protective of the people she loves that she’ll do battle for them. I see the most beautiful and desirable woman in the world. What I can’t have. What I want. What keeps me up at night. What has my entire belief system at war, trying to convince myself that I can’t give you what you want, even if I wish I could.”