“It was the first time I cried in almost twenty years, and I'm not talking about the occasional wet eye you get when you are extremely happy, or when you are watching a movie that pulls just a bit too tight on your heartstrings. No, not like that, but harsh, ugly cries, that escape your soul without permission, as your heart hurts so much that you actually have to clutch your chest, completely sure that you are about to die. But you won't, and you know that you won't somewhere deep inside your mind and that fact hurts perhaps even more because that's when you realize that you are going to have to live through it.”