The Ex I'd Love to Hate (The Lasker Brothers #3)

by Nadia Lee

My laugh dies down as every nerve in my body prickles with awareness. He makes me laugh and long for him at the same time. I’ve never experienced that before. Actually, every time with him seems to lead to something new. As my mouth dries, I realize I’ve had my head bu...

“What are we dancing?”

“A tango, of course.” I smile. “Unless you aren’t in the mood.”

“Oh, I’m in the mood. I’ve been wanting to do it properly with you afte...

Do it…with you. “Ah, yes. The moment when I decided there was more to your beastliness tha...

“Why do people think love is special?” I stop for a second, realizing maybe love isn’t the best analogy. But it slipped out, and it’s going to be weird if I try to take it back. “Why do we make thousands of movies and stories and books about it?”

“Because they’re profitable,” he says.

“No. Because love is rare, which makes it special. Some people never even get to exper...

“If they never do, how do they know they’re mi...

“I think part of their soul longs for it. They know, deep inside, the other half of ...

He’s the one.

“You drive me crazy,”

“Brace your hands on my shoulders and wrap your legs around me.”

I always thought my first time would be nerve-racking and maybe a little scary. But looking up at his hot gaze, fear is the last thing on my mind. There’s lust in his eyes, but I can glimpse tenderness, too. I know he’s going to make it good for me.

I’m slightly nervous. This is really happening.

just because I’ve heard about it doesn’t mean I feel any confidence in the act.

“It’s huge,”

“And it’s going to feel great.”

“Are you ...

“I’ll make sure of it. ...

I nod. I do trust him—uncon...

I waited because I wanted to share my body only with somebody who was worth it.

I’ve never been somebody’s first before.”

“We can be each other’s first.”

It could hurt, and maybe pain is another reason I was reluctant to do it with just anybody.

He pushes in a little bit deeper each time until he’s entirely in. The fullness of having his cock inside me is overwhelming. I’m stretched to the limit, and can’t seem to draw another breath. But it doesn’t hurt. It’s just a little uncomfortable and unfamiliar.

It actually might not be too bad to let her hold on to my heart, which beats a little faster at the idea.

It’s the coolest thing in the universe that I’m the first thing she sees—and that I bring a smile to her face.

“I didn’t want to do it just to say I’d done it. I wanted it to mean something,”

And the fact that she chose me makes my heart swell with pride and tenderness that make my whole being ache. Wrapping my hand around the back of her neck, I pull her in for a kiss.

If she has to repeat herself, that makes you an idiot unworthy of her time and attention.

nobody discloses everything. I’m not an index fund; I’m a human being. She only has to see me, like me and want to keep me.

“I wasn’t sure if we’d see anything other than the ocean,”

“Why not?”

“I’ve just never really been lucky.” I smile at him. “Maybe thing...

He presses a quick kiss on my temple, then looks into my eyes. “It’s you who make me feel li...

My heart never beat like this for anybody. And I know I made the right decision last night. He’s the one.

I love seeing her in nice things I’ve provided. She deserves to be treated like a princess.

I make a mental note to find out which farm it is so I can make sure Aspen’s never out of their jam.

I want her to look at me with the same unguarded love. To know she can count on me—that I’ll always be in her corner.

I’m going to treat her like the goddess that she is, so her grandparents will never find out I was a dick to her at the beginning.

She’d cut me out of her life and never speak to me again. I’d rather die.

My first time—which I thought was so special—now feels dirty. I feel dirty.

It might make me a pussy-whipped simp, but part of me says I don’t care. I…I love her that much.

Every woman needs a reason to be happy.

“I just don’t like how she looks.”

“Ohhh… You like her.”

“How the hell did you jump to that...

“Because I had issues with the way Amy looked wh...

Depression starts to well up, and I shake it off. I can’t do anything about the past. I can only play the cards I’ve been dealt, even if the hand is so awful I’d be better off folding.