For Sarah, this experience of an uncontrollable, ever-changing reality was a breakthrough that dramatically shifted how she related to herself. She wasn’t controlling what was going on inside her, and she never had. She had not asked to be filled with craving. She couldn’t stop the barrage of obsessive thoughts. She described how, during that meditation, she heard a voice whispering, “It’s not my fault. It’s never been my fault.” It wasn’t Sarah’s fault that she was so filled with fear, so obsessed, so ashamed. It wasn’t her fault that when her feelings got intolerable she would reach out for
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