For the Fans

by Nyla K.

he moves in steady thrusts between my legs. “I’m gonna fill you deep…” “Breed me,” I gasp. And that’s it. Game over for Avi.

Not “Breed me” 🥴..chieeee. Whew😮‍💨

“I… I love you,” I whimper, moving my hips forward and back, fucking his fist and riding against his dick, chasing my next orgasm that’s so fucking close. “I love you, Avi Vega.” “Mmm… I love you so hard, Kyran Harbor.”

🥹💕

And tranquil, in a way that only Avi can make me. See? This is specific to him. He is the only one. He’s the first, and the only.

🥹♥️. He is. He’s your choice. He’s first and he’s your only. Don’t doubt it. Believe in it. I’ve been there & you can get through this.

And I can’t fucking stand the nagging thought that won’t fucking go away… He thinks he wasn’t really your first… “Kyran, please…” His eyes shine with desperation. “Please don’t think this changes anything. It doesn’t. You’re mine, baby. I’m not giving you up, ever. No matter what.”

Mmmm. Beautiful ♥️

I’m in a place I never thought I’d be… Comfortable, finally, with my sexuality. Avi is the one who helped me get there. My biggest fan. I’ve finally stopped running from it… from him, and his love. It might be time that I also stopped running from myself.

👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽🥹🥹🥹🥹 you can do it Ky. I believe in you.

There’s some shuffling over the line, and Theo whispers something I can’t make out.

I think Theo is gay. Or bi..closeted..idk..something..but yeah..he got some stuff going on for suurreee

“Are you in your room?” Guty asks. “Yea… I mean, no. I went for a run now I’m… getting coffee.” he mumbles something again, like he’s covering the phone while talking to someone else.

He’s totally hooking up w/ someone. Why is he being so weird ??

“Hey, Bridget, it’s Avi.” “Hey,” she sighs, remorsefully. “Look, I’m sorry for just taking off last night. All that emotional shit got the best of me, and I just needed to be alone…”

How very you of you girl.🙄

Resisting, because he thinks he’s broken. He’s fucking not. And even if he is, so what?? I’d still do everything in my power to fix him, to make him mine. Because I just want him, broken or not. I want all his uneven pieces.

That’s right, go get your guy ! All you can do is be there for him in whatever capacity that looks like.

The seatbelt around my waist feels like it’s cutting off circulation. Inside the cabin is closing in on me, and I’m choking for air, suffocating. He left school…? Moved out of the dorm? Why would he do that??

If I didn’t know any better, I would say that was a suicide note…but I don’t think he’s suicidal at all ! & why does Gutsy get a text message and Avi doesn’t ??? This is strange..I mean, he has to deal w/ his stuff the best way he can and however that may look like..but shit.. have some consideration for others.

She’s grinning, looking all excited for me, but I can’t help rolling my eyes. “Thanks, Mom. I really love feeling this way,”

Well, she took all of that very well. She didn’t even bat an eyelash. Hmm. Kudos mom.👏🏽👏🏽

“No… In fact, he’s very secretive about a lot of things,” she breathes, her eyes flinging to the suitcase on the floor. “Aviel, I’m leaving him. We’re getting a divorce. I just can’t handle the secrecy anymore.”

I saw that coming. Good for you mom ! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

Religion has spread more hate in this world than love, and that is one of the saddest things I’ve ever experienced.”

Unfortunately, this is very true. The things that have been done and said in the name of “God” Or religion…is horrifying.

“Aviel, God is not some old, bearded man sitting up in the sky, punishing us when we’re bad. God is love, and laughter and light. God is the good things, and the bad. He… They, I should say, are the Earth and the stars and the vast openness of an existence we’re only a small fraction of.”

What a beautiful way to view it. To view God. Hmm.♥️

Where does Cody fit into this? you might be asking… Well, I’ll tell you. Cody and I played well together.

I’m assuming Cody was your first crush. The first guy you might’ve liked as more than a friend. The first guy to help you realized that you are in fact gay and enjoy men. 🤷🏽‍♀️ Just guessing…

Cody and I were joking around about a few of his catches, and he playfully shoved me. It was something that happened often; it wasn’t new or distinct in any real way. But for some reason, this time, his hand lingered a little on my chest

Called it…☎️🤞🏽

The thought of actually telling a boy I liked him, or God forbid, kissing him, still made me sort of nervous. But I knew, deep down, that it was what I wanted eventually.

Awwww, so gay. You’re gay. You’ve always been gay. But due to your upbringing and trauma you felt that it was wrong…but Avi helped bring it out of you. He helped you become who you truly always were. Good for you. 💕

But when Father McAdams showed up on the last night to observe our youth prayer circle, I knew right away something didn’t feel right.

Oh goodness. Smh. Sick, just sick.

I knew who I was, and I was ready to grow into that person. But he stole my identity. He, and my father, forced me into shame and remorse that wasn’t mine.

He did. He really did. But you came back.

It’s been killing me not to talk to him… but I know it’s necessary. Getting the real Kyran back is work I need to do myself. I can’t put it all on Avi.

Kudos to you. 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 good on you for realizing this, and actually taking whatever steps you deem necessary. Love it. Love this. 💕

But I don’t want to return to him half-hearted. Because the real Kyran is still a stubborn control-freak in a lot of ways. He’s a determined motherfucker. Sets his mind to something and makes it happen.

This is good. I’m sooo totally rooting for you babe.

When I come back to Boston, it’ll be because I’m ready to face the world as me. Gay. In love with my stepbrother. Sexual assault survivor. Football quarterback.

Absolutely ! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽🥹❤️‍🩹 I’m loving this. I’m all for people properly healing and growing.

I spent a month at that hotel in the Berkshires, seeing my counselor Anna and working through a lot of difficult stuff I’ve let fester for eight years.

A month ??! You’ve been gone a month ??! Wooow. You’re really doing it. I’m so proud and happy for you. 👏🏽♥️

My trauma will always be with me, no matter where I’m located. It’s a part of who I am, and as I’ve learned in these past weeks, I just have to make room for it inside myself. Work on acceptance, and giving myself the time and space to heal.

That’s it. That’s all we can do. You’ve already don’t the hard part… now just keep going.

“More importantly, I’ve always been gay. I was born this way, and it’s just a fact. Also, I’m in love with Avi, and I want to be with him. So… yea. That’s that.”

HELL YEAH ❗️👏🏽👏🏽🥰

A giant smile hijacks my lips as I turn to face Frankie. She breathes out slowly, then pinches my chin. “Not your baby, my ass,” she sneers, and I chuckle. “Go on, baby. Go get your boy.”

Lmaoo, 😂♥️

Slay_is4whors3s: Backwardz_Avi r u Backwardz_Cap??? Where’s Not_Your_Baby?!?! Slickrick762: BC Eagles QB Kyran Harbor just changed his IG to His_Baby… Do you think…????

Oh shit ?! He did ??? 🤭

“Avi, I say this with love…” she starts, standing up from the couch. “You need to smoke some weed. Because you’re stressing me out.”

😂😂 I love his mom yo.

My angel saved me. He rescued me from hiding. He held me when I needed him, and he loved me when I didn’t. He’s selfless, real… just a brilliant, beautiful fucking weirdo. I’m in love with an angel… And his name is Avi.

That was so beautifulllll🥹♥️. Wow. That was really nice Ky. Awwwwww, what a lovely poem. 🥰

He hums. “In case you haven’t noticed, I have a bad habit of running from you, baby. But I’m done now… Avi, you deserve to be chased.”

Damn right he does ! Lord knows you’ve put him through the wringer Ky !

Bearing myself against the wall, I grab him by the ass and hoist him up on my body. He gasps and chuckles, wrapping his legs around my waist while I carry him toward my bedroom. “I love being with someone strong enough to lift me up,” he sighs,

Oop- 😂🥹..I’m happy you guys are working things out.

“You’re not wearing the hat,” he snickers breathlessly. “They might not recognize you.” Peeking up at the camera, I smirk. “This is Backwardz_Cap, reporting live from in between Not_Your_Baby’s legs.”

😂 that’s one way to announce who you are to the world. ♥️

“You missed this dick, baby?” I groan, and he nods fast, his ass gripping me while I slide, working up a rhythm in his hot, quivering body. “I missed this dick…” His fingers dig into my sides. I pump harder, jostling him up and down on the table with my increasingly sturdy thrusts.

Damnnn. They going innnn. 😂🥰. They really are complete opposites of their everyday life in the bedroom. It’s like they get in the bedroom and switch. Avi becomes dominant and Ky becomes submissive.

“I missed this perfect dick fucking me so good.” “This dick was made to fuck you, beautiful.” My head is spinning as I melt over him, kissing his lips and recording myself doing it. “We fit together so well.” “You make me whole,” he whispers into my mouth.

It’s the whispering of the sweet nothings for meeeeee. How cuteeee. 🥰

Look at themmm. This is just heart filling. Again, I feel like I’m in their business.🥴💕

I’m obsessed with the look. Kyran sitting astride my lap, his knees braced on the table, sweat-slicked skin flushed and glistening, golden hair all tousled and hanging in his face. “Ride me, gorgeous,” I plead up to him. “Show me how much you missed fucking my cock.”

Oooo, this is new. We’ve never seen him ride it before okaaayyyyy Ky. 🥴♥️

He’s a revelation, this man. I could get off just watching him. I get it, fans. I totally see it.

Lol. 😂. I’m sure you do. 💕

“Yea, baby. Ohh, angel… come inside me.” He bounces harder, lost to the sensation. “Soak my prostate with your hot cum…”

🥴😮‍💨sheesh.

filthy,” I roar, pushing my hips upward to meet his thrusts, our bodies jamming together rougher and faster. “Give me all your dirty words… Tell me how you wanna come, my beautiful, big-dicked slut.”

Welp🥴.. LMAOO, this is sweet in its own way I guess. ♥️

“Fuck the cum out of me, Daddy,” he chokes, and I rasp a breathless chuckle, watching his eyes roll back in his head. “Fuuuck… fuck my ass. Fuck… my… tight… Oh God, I’m coming!”

DAWG ❗️🥴. My goodness. KYRAN ?! 🤭 sheessshh. Ok, I’m definitely intruding on them now. Damn. Ky. Who knew you had that in you💕

“Baby… I’m coming in you,” I whimper, pulling him down to me. “K-kiss me. Kiss me, Kyran, oh my God, I love you.”

Awww.♥️

We spend a few heavy seconds petting each other, my fingers in his hair and his trailing from my jaw down my throat. And we’re just staring, feeling it. We’re finally here. Snapped into place. Whole.

Two fools in love. 🥹♥️♥️ & I’m here for this.

He bites his lip, pressing his legs together, and it’s somehow the hottest and most adorable thing I’ve ever seen, watching him squirm at the feel of my cum gushing out of him.

I bet he is taking his time standing up after all of that. 🤭🥴

Kyran Harbor is “in a relationship” with Avi Vega Avi Vega is “in a relationship” with Twizzlers His_Baby: What a fool… Backwardz_Avi: My alien came back to Earth!

Twizzlers ? Lol, I don’t know why that made me chuckle.

And best of all, people are walking by us on the street while he’s showering me with affection, and he clearly doesn’t mind at all. At last, we’re in a real relationship, out in the open. I have a boyfriend!

Yes Avi, you do ! Lol 🤭♥️ I’m happy for you two.

He peeks at me over his shoulder. “I’m like… stupidly in love with you.” “Baby… I’m fucking moronically in love with you.”

🥰💕 I’m so happy for them ! Cute ! Just absolutely cute.

I kiss his lips while he chuckles. “Are you hungry?” He nods, rubbing his ass on my crotch. “For food, Kyran.” “Oh, yea. I’m starving,” he snickers.

Lmaaaoo, maannn Ky is always ready for some D.😂That’s for sure. Smh.

He tugs on the brim of my backwards cap. “Well alright, then. Spoil me, Backwardz Avi.” Cupping his jaw, I kiss his lips softly. “Anything for you, Only My Baby.”

“So this is love. Mmm hmm mhmmm. So this, is loovveee.” 💕

Avi the Angel takes care of his baby. “Babe…” he murmurs, gazing up at me. “I want you to know that he never actually… I mean, he did things to me, but he didn’t…” “My love,” I whisper, holding his face. “It doesn’t matter.”

He truly is opening up and revealing things that he kept hidden. I love this character arch Ky has gone through. 💕

“No, I know. But I want you to know,” he sighs, tiredly, like even talking about this stuff for a few minutes takes the wind out of his sails. “You were my first, Aviel. I promise.” “I know that,”

🥺♥️🥺♥️🥺