For the Fans

by Nyla K.

I can see it all so clearly now. I’m gay, and I’m in love with my stepbrother. There it is.

👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 ayyyooo, we got some self honesty and acceptance happening over here.

We all want that special person to take care of us. 🥹🥰

By golly, I do believe he’s in loveeeeee♥️🥰

🥺oooohh, puddin. You’re gonna have to face those demons at some point.

dinner… Avi’s always been able to read me; to see through my bullshit. It’s how he knew I didn’t really hate him, how he knew exactly what my body wanted when my head just wouldn’t let up. He’s gonna know… He’ll find out the truth. And then he won’t want you anymore.

You’re gonna have to tell him at some point darling. You can’t hide it away for fear that he won’t want you. Which, you should know by now isn’t true. He loves you. That’s your own fears talking.

“But you liked my gift?” I grin. “Yea. I love that candle. It’s my favorite scent…” My eyes shift to Avi, who’s giving me a puzzled look.

Aawwww, that’s why he couldn’t place the scent before. He knew he recognized it but couldn’t place it. And then he figured it ouuttttt. That’s why he’s always smelling himmmmm🥺♥️♥️ omggg

“Kyran…” His tone is soft, but insistent. And I already know what he’s going to say. “You’re gonna kiss me, aren’t you?” I murmur. He nods. “I don’t think I can help it…”

Eeepp, kiss yo man. Claim him in public ! Yeess👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽♥️

We’re in public. In front of my sister…. But I don’t care. I’m waving the white flag… I just can’t fight it anymore. “Then do it.” I slide my hands onto his thigh. “Please…”

👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 yeeesss. ♥️♥️

“Holy fucking shit…” Bridget gasps, startling me when her palms slap down on the table. “I knew it! I knew you guys were a thing!”

Lmaooo, 😂. Older sister vibes.

Moving back in my seat, I squint at her. “You didn’t know shit.” “I so did!” she squeals. “No offense, but it’s pretty obvious. You’re both smitten.” “Are not,” I grunt petulantly. “Yes, you are!” she whispers, her eyes round and sparkly as she beams like she’s overjoyed for us.

Lmaaaoo, I love how much she loves the idea too. It’s cute. Very much older sister vibes.😂♥️

“Look at him trying to hide it!” Bridget shimmies in her seat. “Baby bro… You’re in love!” “Stop,” I snap quietly. “Or so help me, I’ll move your seats to the nosebleeds tomorrow.”

😂😂💕 awwwww.

I don’t want to dull my senses anymore… I want to experience every single second of being in love with him. Because I’ve never been in love before, and being in it with Kyran Harbor is like going on a tour of Willy Wonka’s Chocolate Factory.

🥹🥹🥰🥰 that is so sweeeettttttt.

shot, Kyran takes it. His arm flies up. The ball soars. Guty catches it. Touchdown. The Eagles just won the fucking Rose Bowl, baby.

Whoooooo

“That’s Father McAdams,” Bridget whimpers, then snarls with the same fury I’m feeling in my veins. “The fucking monster who raped my brother when he was twelve.”

Called it ! ☎️ Smdh. How sad and true this is about the Catholic Church.

The Church will pay out a sum of one-point-four million dollars to the family. Settlement professes nondisclosure… “Bridget… I’m gonna be sick…”

4 million and a NDA ?? Oh yeah, he definitely did that shit. Smh. Pathetic.

“But he still didn’t want to believe it. He didn’t want to accept it, because he’s a coward. His goddamn faith meant more to him than his own son. His reputation, his place in the church…

What a shitty thing to do and say. What a shitty parent. Or parents. Smh. Ky deserves better. ❤️‍🩹

I was a coward too…” She whispers, curling up into a ball on the floor, “Because I left him. I should’ve stayed… Just to be there for him.

You definitely should’ve stayed w/ him. Because it wasn’t about you. It was about him. You can be angry for him at your dad but you should’ve stayed and been there for your little brother.

Kyran: BABY!!!!!!!!!!!! A choked sob leaves my lips, tears welling in my eyes and a happy-sad grin curving my mouth. Two more quick texts pop up, radiating his excitement. Kyran: We did it! We did it Avi… Kyran: God I can’t wait to see you baby.

Awww,❤️‍🩹🥺 this is so sad. Such a happy moment tainted w/ such miserable information from the past.

Plus Coach popped a bottle of Dom in the locker room, so I’m a lil tipsy lol Kyran: I wanna kiss you so bad babe. I’m gonna kiss you in front of EVERYONE :) Jesus, my fucking heart. I can’t even breathe…

He’s so happyyyy.🥺❤️‍🩹. I’m happy he’s happy. Let him have that moment w/ you Avi. Let him be happy. You can bring up the info you found out another time. Don’t ruin this for him babe. Try and live in that moment w/ him.

Me: I love you, Kyran. I am so fucking proud of you. He must really be tipsy because he sends me a bunch of emojis. An eggplant, a peach, and five water-squirts. My chest shakes with a laugh as I wipe tears from my eyes.

😂💕 lol. Of course he did. Cute.

Kyran: Come to the party… please. I need you Avi. Me: I wouldn’t miss it for the world gorgeous.

💕🥺 awww. Good. Put him first right now.

“We’re together,” I speak quietly, then straighten. “He’s my boyfriend. I’m his…” My voice trails, and I peek at Avi, watching his lips slope into a timid smile. “I’m his boyfriend.”

And just like that he’s outta the closet ! 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽💕🥹

“You’re so much fucking more than that,” he breathes, and my heart jumps as I reach for his jaw. “I know,” I sigh, pulling his mouth to mine. Kissing him. Fucking kissing him, in front of everyone.

🥰 can you feel the loveeee tonighttttt🎶

“My baby,” he hums while our lips brush in just enough kiss for it to feel like a revelation. Not enough to scare the shit out of my teammates and their families, all of whom I know are now staring at us. “Yours,”

🥹👏🏽😂👏🏽🥰👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽💕

Coach looks to Avi, raising a brow. “You couldn’t just let us have one party, could you?” He scoffs, but I can see the amusement on his face, and Avi shows him a tense grin, shrugging.

😂 Coach is tired. He said yall doing too much

“Okay.” I shoot Avi a quick glance, then nod to Guty. “I’ll meet you in a few.” “Oh God… you’re going to get laid, aren’t you??” Guty groans, and Avi laughs.

😂😂😂

Theo whips his drink back, his face all flushed. There’s something going on with him, but I can’t worry about it right now. Because yea… I really wanna go get laid.

I’m starting to think it was Theo who snitched. But what would be his reason for doing that tho ?? I think, Theo use to watch his only fans anndd now he doesn’t know how to be around Avi.

“You haven’t fucked me in so long, Avi… I’m having withdrawals.” “I know.” He grabs my ass hard in two handfuls that have me grunting between his lips. “I should’ve just fucked you after that dance the other night…”

😂😂😂 damn.

The second I read it, the whole world slows down, clucking and chugging like an engine running out of fuel. Fear grips the inside of my chest as my eyes slowly slide back up to Avi’s.

Uh ooohhhh. How is this gonna play out ?😬

He’s staring at me, eyes shimmering something I’ve never seen on him before. Something I never wanted to see on him… Something I’ve only ever seen from a handful of people. Oh my God… He fucking knows. He knows.

He was gonna find out one way or another. It would’ve been better coming from you but nevertheless he was gonna find out.

“She said… I’m sorry for telling Avi.” My jaw tightens and my gaze drops back to the phone to read her text, word for word. “Please don’t blame him. It’s my fault. He deserves to know. I love you so much, Kyran… I just need you to be…” And I pause before breathing the word, “Okay.”

Big sister. Doing what’s hard for you to do. 🤞🏽❤️‍🩹

“Kyran… Please,” he says, softly, like someone who’s trying to stop a vicious psychopath from attacking. “Let’s just talk about this. We can talk about it…”

Aww man. This has to be superrr hard for Ky. I mean, facing the very thing you’ve worked endlessly to keep buried deep. Damn. ❤️‍🩹

“Talk about what…?” I mumble, covering my face with my hands, backing up farther. “There’s nothing to… talk about.”

Denial. Of course that’s what he’s sticking too. That’s fair.

“Baby, just hear me, okay? Hear what I’m saying…” His hands grip my thighs, and he rubs them with his fingers. “This changes nothing. Nothing is different between you and me. I just… I just care about you, that’s all.”

That’s how you accept that kind of news. 👏🏽👏🏽💕 love Avi man.

“I have no idea what you’re talking about…” I whimper into my palms, breathing lies all over the lines of my roadmap.

Don’t do that Ky. 🥺 Please don’t do that.

“Why wouldn’t I feel safe with you?? Are you fucking serious?! So what, just because… You think you know about something my sister told you happened, that means now I’m some fragile, wounded child?!”

You know that’s not what he’s saying. & maybe if you had told him and talk to him about this before he heard it from your sister you both could have talked through this. But like he said it doesn’t change anything in your relationship. Don’t let it Ky.

“I love you, Kyran. I love you so fucking much, and that is never ever going to change. No matter what happens, no matter what I learn about you… Baby, you’re it for me.

Mmm,♥️🥺. Good Avi. Just giving him that love and support, I’m sure Ky will appreciate that. I know he will.

I feel like a fucking idiot for thinking I could be happy, in a relationship with someone… I should’ve known. I don’t deserve to be happy with him.

🥺..you can be happy w/ him. Don’t let your past ruin your present.

“Stop treating me different,” I whimper with tears threatening to push out of my eye sockets. “Stop… looking at me. I don’t want you to see how broken I am…”

🥺❤️‍🩹 this is sad. I feel for him badly.

I’m at the edge of the bed. Then his fingers slowly push my already unbuttoned pants down over my ass, marveling at the jockstrap I’m wearing… The gift he gave me for Christmakkah. I can’t even enjoy it… because I’m too up in my head.

😂😂😂 he gave a jockstrap as a Christmas gift ? WEAAAKK.

He loves me like a brother, and a friend. He loves me like the boyfriend I never thought I could have, because I thought it was wrong. Avi Vega is everything I’ve ever needed…

Of course he is. 🥺❤️‍🩹 You two are like 2 peas in a pod.

Kneeling on the bed, I grab his face and kiss him slowly, reclining and pulling him on top of me. Avi sinks into me, settling his big, warm body between my legs and grinding his cock on mine through the material of both of our underwear.

The news doesn’t have to change anything. Be w/ him. ❤️‍🩹

I want him so badly right now. All I want, in the world, is for him to fuck me the way he has been. Like the fans are watching…

Period🥴. “For the fans”

Avi’s eyes fall shut, and he releases a shivering breath. Parting my legs wide, I lift my hips a bit, offering him my body, because I want him to have it. I need to make sure he knows… I’m his. Because I want to be.

Aawww🥺❤️‍🩹. He knows. You know. The entirety of Boston knows. He’s your choice.

he grabs one, lacing our fingers. “You love me, don’t you?” “I love you so much,” I choke, relaxing just enough for him to tunnel inside. And I purr out a shaky sound, intoxicated by the burn of him entering me. “Oh fuck, Kyran, feel it…”

Not them making loooovveee. 🥴♥️. This feels like such a private moment that I’m interrupting.

Since the last time we were together, all I’ve thought about was doing this again. In fact, every second of every day since the first time he fucked me, all I’ve wanted was to feel him in me like this…

Oop- I knew it ! You were hooked after that first time. I could just tell. That’s why you were avoiding him. Or trying to at least. Lmaoo. Cutteeee🤭♥️

He’s barely halfway in and I feel like I could come. Because I do love this feeling… Whether I’m supposed to or not, I don’t care. It’s a wholeness, completion. I’m complete when he fucks me in the ass.

Definitely a bottom. Lol.♥️

“I’ll make you come so many times you won’t be able to walk tomorrow.” “Fuck, Avi,” I whine out hoarsely, lifting my hips so he can really pound me. “Baby, I love how you fuck me. Fuck me forever…”

And I oop-🥴..🤭 excuse me. ♥️

It’s kind of the most vulnerable position I’ve been in with him… Having my feet up by his head. But then he tilts his face left and kisses my calf. And something about it mollifies me. The way he’s so intimate,

Been there babe 🥴. That’s a fun reality to live in. All those feelings rushing through you. ♥️

And then his fingers slip inside me. Two of them. With his dick.

Oooop- 🥴.. mmmmmh. Well alrighty then.