I didn’t know if I trusted Susan in the way I once had—because of Robert Mallory—and in that same moment she asked me the question I realized I couldn’t tell her the truth and this revelation was so sudden and landed with such force that any hope of relief was wiped away. I could only be half honest with her—I had known Susan for a long time and I loved her in such a way that meant I could never fully lie to her and up to that point I never had. But we weren’t there anymore.
