Until You (Off-Limits, #1)

by Catharina Maura

“It is yours to keep.” “I’m worried,” she tells me, and I turn to face her. The insecurity in her eyes breaks my heart. It wasn’t me who put it there, but I’ll be the one to take it away.

“I’m worried that you’ll leave me, Gray. That you’ll get bored, or that you’ll meet someone far better than me. I’m worried that we’re risking everything for what might end up being nothing more than a fling.”

I wish she could see herself through my eyes. She’s so perfect for me, it’s almost like she was fucking made for me.

“Then we’ll take it slow, Aria. Whatever you need, I’ll give you. So long as you promise me you’re mine, I won’t ask more of you.”

“What about Noah?” she asks. I look away, a tinge of worry settling deep within me. “You’re worth everything to me, Aria. I have no doubt that Noah will think I’m not good enough for you, and he’d be right… but I’m willing to prove myself. He might be mad at first, but he can’t stay mad forever. It might take a few weeks, or it mi...

Noah is the only person I truly consider family, and if it comes down to it… I’d still choose Aria over him. It should scare me how easy that choice is to make, but it doesn’t.

Aria and I… we’ve been years in the making. We just didn’t know it.

You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen, and I swear to you, I’ve never wanted anyone more. Tell me how to make this better.”

“I need you so fucking bad.”

“I’m in love with you, Aria Grant. Head over heels. Butterflies and all that shit. I’ll wait a lifetime for you if you want me to. So tell me, baby… do you want to stop? We can stop right here if you want to.”

“I want you, Grayson. I’ve wanted you for so long that it hurts… and I, well, I’m definitely crazy in love with you too.”

“Fucking hell… I just knew it. I knew you’d be wet and needy, baby. How could you not be? Every part of you is perfect.”

“Baby, you are going to come. Multiple times, if it’s up to me.”

“So fucking good,” he groans, his eyes never leaving mine as he pulls back slightly before thrusting back into me. “You have any idea how long I’ve wanted this pussy.”

“I’ve dreamt of you, baby. For months now, you’ve been fueling my fantasies.”

“Tell me, Ari. Have you been touching yourself to thoughts of me? Because I have. Every time I wrapped my hand around my dick, it’s your face I imagined.”

“I’m not done with you,” he whispers. “I told you I’m going to make you come multiple times tonight, and I have every intention of keeping my word.”

“I can’t do this, Aria. I can’t function when you’re so close to me. I can’t stop thinking about you.”

Nyx I think I might just take you up on all those offers to make me scream your name… Minutes pass, and he doesn’t reply. Just as I breathe a sigh of relief, my phone buzzes. Ash Just tell me when and where, babe. Just the idea of you wanting me has me hard. My heart breaks as I reread the text over and over again. So much for me being the only one for him.

You are the only one for me, baby. Of course you are.”

“Then why? Why are you cheating on me? Emotional cheating is still cheating, Gray. After everything you saw me go through… Why? Why would you put me back together only to break me like this?”

“Baby, I would never cheat on you. That would never ever happen.”

“I assume this is about Nyx?” I say carefully. “When you told me you’d take me up on my offers to make you scream my name, this isn’t quite what I had in mind.”

“If I’d known that you were going to misunderstand like this, then I’d never let it get this far. I’m sorry, baby.”

“Baby, I knew you were Nyx from the second I saw you fix a script I’d been working on for hours. I’ve been trying to hack into your platform every day for months now. Did you really think I wouldn’t recognize the patterns you coded back at Noah’s house? I knew, but at the time I… Ash had a part of you that was strictly off-limits to me. I couldn’t tell you. Hell, I couldn’t even acknowledge it myself, because it meant losing the one part of you that was mine.”

“I can’t believe you thought I’d ever cheat on you, Aria. I would never do that. You’re the best thing that ever happened to me, and I’d be a fool to let you go. No one will ever compare to you, baby.”

“I’m not perfect, Aria. I’ll make mistakes, and at some point I’ll probably hurt you. But I will never do it intentionally. Every mistake I make, I promise to learn from. I know you’ve been hurt before, and I know those scars still pain you. I promise you I will help you heal, and I will be here through it all.”

“Together, Aria. You and I can get through anything together. Just promise me you’ll talk to me. No matter what’s going on, just talk to me. I don’t ever want to come home to find you gone. Don’t abandon me like that,” I murmur, my head dropping to her chest.

“Baby, you aren’t going anywhere. I’m going to keep you right by my side. I want you in my bed, Aria.”

“You’re it for me, baby. I want a whole life with you. I want your clothes next to mine, your makeup in my bathroom. I want you to have your own side of the bed, and I want to wake up to you completely disregarding that and lying on top of me instead, driving me insane.”

“I want every part of you, Aria. I want your wicked sharp intellect, those lips I can’t get enough of… I want your every smile, your every thought.”

“Now don’t get me wrong, I also want your body against mine. I want to sink my cock deep inside you every single day, and I want to hear you moan my name. I want all of you, Aria.”

“Take it,” she tells me. “I’m yours. Every broken, damaged piece of me. Take it all.”

She looks stunning in her black lingerie, and I can’t wait to get it off her. “You’re beautiful, baby.”

“Fuck,” I groan. “What the fuck have you been on about?” I murmur, cupping her perfect tear drop tits. “This is perfection, Aria.”

My girl is a nut job, man. How could she ever be insecure over a body as perfect as hers? She’s got curves for days.

“Baby, I fucking need you so bad,” I murmur. “I won’t last. I can’t cope. I need your pussy.”

“I’m going to fuck every goddamn insecurity out of you, you hear me? By the time I’m done with you, you won’t ever wonder if I want you again.”

“I’ll never get enough of this pussy, Aria. You will always be the only one for me. Always.”

“I will never leave you,”

“I will always want this fucking pussy. You will always be mine, Aria. Always.”

“I fucking love you,”

“Nyx is the Goddess of night. I’ve loved her for years, because it’s only at night that I come alive. After I lost my parents, living through the days was too hard. Pretending that I was okay, smiling when I felt dead inside… I went through the motions, but at night… at night is when I could be myself. It’s during sleepless nights that I learned to code, and it was during a sleepless night that I met you.”

“Tell me, why did you pick Ash?” I look away, my smile melting off my face. “It’s a play on my name,” I tell her. “When I thought of things that are gray, one of the first things that came to mind was ash… and just like ash, I’m all that’s left behind when everything burns down.”

“Gray,” she says. “You have no idea how much I look up to you. It’s because of you I taught myself how to code. If not for the way you’ve always inspired me, the Nemesis Platform wouldn’t even exist. I can’t believe I get to call you mine. You’re brilliant, and your accomplishments are astounding. Despite all of that, you’re the best person I know.”

“Why do you look so beautiful?”

“You are, aren’t you? You’re in love with Nyx.” Grayson smiles at me, the affection in his eyes obvious. “Irrevocably.”

“Let me tell you what I see, Ari. I see the most beautiful woman I’ve ever laid eyes on. A body beyond compare, tits that I can actually grab and an ass I’d be smacking if it didn’t make so much noise.”

“Noah,” he says, looking my brother dead in the eye. “I’m in love with your sister.”

Noah nods slowly. “I know.”