2:15 a.m.: Eyes flew open. Was I awake? Had I been sleeping? My tongue was huge in my mouth and felt like sandpaper. I guzzled water from the bottle on the nightstand. The sheets were stuck to my arms. Holy shit, did I pee myself? Oh my God. I am an animal. I am an old animal. I am going to have to lie in my own pee all night. My hair is even wet! Ohhhhhh, thank God, it’s only night sweats. I can lie in sweat. I can totally lie in that kind
