Last on the List (Wait With Me, #5)

by Amy Daws

“You have nothing to feel guilty for, Jess.” I reach down and untie my tie, feeling suddenly like I’m sitting in the hot seat. “You can’t control your sexuality any more than I can control mine.” Her voice is strained when she replies, “I know, but I know you struggled with thinking everything in our past wasn’t real…and you’re just so wrong about that. I loved you, Max. I loved you in all the ways I knew how to love you at the time. You are my family. Leaving you was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I considered staying with you forever despite my sexuality because I loved our family, and I loved you! But ultimately, I knew that wasn’t fair to you.” “I know all this, Jess. We did the therapy. I’m good.” “I don’t think you are. I don’t think you’ve ever really let it sink in. You’ve read the books and done the therapy. You’re an ally and a great co-parent, but you haven’t forgiven our past. Our life together was not a cloudy storm. It was sunshine and rainbows. They were the best years of my life. You made me a mom, Max. We made Everly together. She is you. She is me. She is ours. Nothing about her creation should feel darkened to you.”