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January 18 - January 30, 2024
Isn’t he already blind in one eye? HA HA ha ha ha…” Before he could finish, Qi Rong’s own sight went dark again, and his cheek exploded in agony as he spewed blood from his mouth—he got himself socked again! However, this punch wasn’t from Hua Cheng, it was from Xie Lian.
Xie Lian was completely stunned. “Why must he know the truth? Was the truth that important?” “Very important,” Hua Cheng replied. “He needed to know what you did and what you didn’t do, and why you had to do it.”
i think this disagreement shows a big part of why xie lian and hua cheng’s relationship works. xie lian is very self destructive, willing to let people harm him and his reputation without any malice on his part. he was fine with being banished and being called a murderer if it meant protecting Tai Hua. he doesn’t hold it against the officials in the heavenly court when they talk badly about him or openly avoid him. mixed with xie lian’s kind nature, he’s been beaten down so far by what has happened to him that he thinks he deserves more bad things that may happen to him. in his mind(and in heaven), he is a failure, misfortune does follow him so who care if misfortune is blamed on him? who cares if other call him what he believes he is? hua cheng directly goes against these sentiments at every turn. hua cheng fiercely protects xie lian and his reputation against heavenly officials and making examples out of them(the 33 officials incident). hua cheng is setting the record straight here bc he knows xie lian wouldn’t have killed the yongan royal family without reason(and he knows what xie lian suffered as a result). throughout the story, we get these instances of xie lian’s self destructive behavior being managed by hua cheng(who’s happy to do it, mind you)
hua cheng and xie lian really like diminishing their traumatic experiences and i thinks it’s interesting how different their reasonings are
hua cheng basically acts like hong honger and his time as a ghost flame never existed. like he could’ve never been such a helpless entity. he has spent basically all of his time as a ghost building up his reputation so he never has to be that helpless and useless again. it’s as if he acknowledges that he was once useless, who’s to say he still isn’t?
xie lian’s case isn’t as explicitly show but i think it’s a mix of two things. the first being his memory. now in the story it’s described as selective memory where he actively chooses to forget the bad so he can remember the good but putting him in a more realistic scenario; xie lian has been severely traumatized through his existence and trauma comes with memory lose. disassociation also commonly happens during traumatic events which would add to the memory issues. it’s possible xie lian, due to a mix of disassociation, selective remembering and general mental capacity for retaining information, simply can’t remember how bad the events in his life were. he obviously knows the events happened but the smaller details, his emotions at the time, the specifics could truly be lost on him so the events don’t seem as severe. the second thing that i think causes this minimizing is that xie lian sees others issues as bigger than his own. paradise manor burning over his injury. the truth of the gilded banquet over his 100 years buried. bc of his self destruction, his problems are smaller than other peoples
Hua Cheng watched him quietly and didn’t argue.
in my interpretation of the their relationship, i think hua cheng prefers taking xie lian’s emotional outburst and having them directed at him because he knows xie lian can’t and won’t take out his emotions properly. xie lian has 800 years of pent up trauma inside of him and has no way to release any of the emotions way him down. hua cheng wants xie lian to let these emotions out and would rather have them directed at him, someone who won’t take it personally or won’t use it against him or react really.
After staring at it for a moment, Xie Lian sighed and placed his hand on its head, pouring in a powerful pulse of energy. When he removed his hand, two long crevices crawled over the cheeks of the statue, and soon after, the crying face broke apart. The statue collapsed and crumbled into innumerable small rocks and fell to the ground, never to be restored.
xie lian destroying the kneeling statue is very symbolic of him destroying a past that’s held him hostage for years
However, Feng Xin still had his bow pulled at almost full strength, holding his breath and not saying a word. Shi Qingxuan smacked him. “Put it down, can’t you see they’re close? Nothing bad’s gonna happen.” Feng Xin said in a dark voice, “Your Highness, the one next to you is a supreme…”
Feng Xin’s protectiveness of Xie Lian despite everything that's happened, like shoot me in the face dude
“I’m not talking about him,” Shi Qingxuan said. “I’m talking about you! Your Highness, look at you: the martial gods of the southeast and southwest are both your old buddies, the Martial God of the East is your disciple, that Night-Touring Green Lantern is your little cousin, Crimson Rain Sought Flower is your sworn brother, and I, Lord Wind Master, am your friend. Ain’t that something?”
This child was no older than seven or eight, and quite the small, gaunt creature. After falling from such a height, his little body was shaking uncontrollably in his arms like a newborn animal. However, from that mess of bandages wrapped around his head there peeked a large black eye that reflected the silhouette of a snow-white figure. He was watching him unblinkingly, as if he could no longer see anything else.
“The first method,” the State Preceptor said, “is to find the child who disrupted the procession, and then we shall conduct a ceremony. At the very least, one of his five senses must be sealed as penance.” Xie Lian’s head shot up. “No.” He then repeated definitively, “Absolutely not.”