The First to Die at the End
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Read between June 22 - June 28, 2024
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Do you ask pilots to explain aerodynamics before boarding the plane
Alix
I can look it up, my man. And you should have gotten the gist in elementary school science classes.
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“Nah, you can’t live without me.”
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It’s like the end of the world is actually beginning.
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You and your sister shared a womb. You’ll figure it out.”
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I’m never going to exist without her again.
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an organization that expects us to trust them with no real proof.
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Then a shirt does catch my eye. It’s white with Have a Happy End Day! written in a typewriter font across the chest. It’s kind of classy even if I don’t believe an End Day can be happy.
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A woman wins a free month, which is worth $275. You can pay as little as $20 for one day or $3,000 for the whole year.
Alix
That’s insane. Who can afford that, especially in 2010, 2 years after the crash?
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“Some rich-ass clowns were campaigning for Death-Cast to have a platinum tier where the operators would call them before anyone else dying.” Dalma stops dead in her tracks. “Rich people are why we can’t have nice things.”
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Which shots I personally prefer ultimately depends on my perspective. But perspectives shift over time too—years, months, weeks, days, hours, even minutes.
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He must have a huge heart.
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while Death-Cast can’t predict the fate of fetuses,
Alix
Interesting
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And everyone goes about their lives—their really difficult, complicated lives.
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“Speak from your heart,” Dalma says. “Not your dick.”
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“Subway showtimes.
Alix
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Showtime_(busking)
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“I feel like I’m missing a whole chapter of your story,” Orion says. “You’re fresh off this accident. I’d think now more than ever you’d jump at the chance for Death-Cast to give you some peace of mind.”
Alix
It’s THREE-THOUSAND DOLLARS.
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I feel nine years old all over again
Alix
So, born around 1992?
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If this is the last time I’m going to share this story, I’m going to tell it right.
Alix
I’m glad I initially read this as an audiobook since it’s really unclear what’s being said out loud to V & D on these couple of pages.
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Here at the company, we refer to those who are dying as Deckers. “Why Deckers?” you ask. We want you to remember that you are all the captains on the decks of your own ships,
Alix
Man, I thought this was some slang term. Doesn’t it sound like a slang term?
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Nonetheless, Joaquin is remaining tight-lipped because he doesn’t believe the world is ready for the truth.
Alix
I wanna knoooooow.
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Sure, some of Joaquin’s intentions have ultimately been limited by the government, and he’s dreading the day that Death-Cast’s power is abused, but for now, he’s been cleared to start the work.
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Joaquin knows the devastations of losing someone unexpectedly.
Alix
??
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The alert is getting louder, louder, louder as all the demo videos warned it would to make sure the calls don’t go missed.
Alix
What if you’re deaf/Deaf?
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No one standing in Times Square is alone, but it feels that way. I’m the only one going through this right now. Then my eyes find Orion again, like magnetism, and he’s more than familiar with this fear of dying.
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Removing mystery from the equation of death is.
Alix
Except you haven’t. 🤷🏻‍♀️
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but he knows that one person’s ending is simply a contribution to this company’s beginning, and not a result of Death-Cast’s existence.
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How long is it going to take for medics to not even bother treating someone if they know they’re a Decker? A week, a month, a year?
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If I’m marked to die, does that make me a magnet for death? I don’t know, but it’s a really lonely thought to have. Isn’t the whole point of Deckers getting these End Day calls to give them a chance to get their affairs in order and hug their family and friends one last time?
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No one knows the sacrifices he made to bring these forecasts to the public.
Alix
That’s on you.
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Perhaps Death-Cast should have remained buried.
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I’m done entertaining thoughts on who wants to murder me.
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“Did Death-Cast call Orion?” I hear the nurse ask. “No. Let’s not give them any reason to,” Dalma says. That nurse’s question is unreal. There’s been a lot of debate since Death-Cast was announced about what the roles of medical professionals will be when it comes to attending to Deckers. Are resources worth using on a patient who won’t live regardless? Should doctors treat everyone without knowing their End Day status? This idea that if Orion had been called by Death-Cast they might not take care of him is horrifying.
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If I’m brought to the hospital later, will the doctors bother trying to save my life? Or will they stand there and watch me die?
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It’s heartbreaking how much it costs to be alive when you’re always dying.
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Having had her own difficult experiences with doctors over the years,
Alix
?
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Does he not suspect that although tonight is the official launch of the program that Joaquin is no stranger to telling people they’re going to die? Because he isn’t. This may be a first for the country, but it’s not a first for Joaquin.
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An even greater truth to be told is that Rolando wouldn’t mind seeing Frankie’s name appear on this computer, promising his death,
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When the parking meter needed to be fed, I was there at the top of the hour with my pocket change.
Alix
Why are there meters at the hospital, JFC.
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The End Day calls are managed by the time zone of a Decker’s registered city. That means had I been here as a visitor, Death-Cast wouldn’t have reached out to me yet.
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I’m supposed to believe Death-Cast knows the When, but not the How? I don’t buy it.
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No one’s life will be interrupted again because of me. I can’t tell you how much lighter that makes me feel.
Alix
Being chronically ill and feeling like a burden is such a painful thing to carry. For someone who can’t get better it means a lot of work to move through it.
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“When you’re older,” Joaquin says. “It’s taking too long to be older.”
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on his way to a vault where no one can follow.
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that litter on the ground is concealing manholes that can drop me into the sewers
Alix
Is this an actual thing you have to be concerned about? It’s the second mention. 😅
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“Calling us Deckers feels too intellectual. We’re zombies. The living dead.”
Alix
The reasoning feels intellectual, or actually too flowery, but the terminology just sounds like slang, even a bit derogatory (I mean, informally, it’s just the ground, where you’re presumably going when you die).
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Valentino stares dead ahead. “Dying is morbid, Orion.”
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frosty cappuccinos
Alix
What?
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whereas the Darios live in a shitty two-bedroom in Manhattan and have to deal with all their tenants’ issues.
Alix
You own the building, JFC.
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It’s kind of a dark thought, but I bet people are going to pursue Deckers in the future to get off and move on, no strings attached; I make a mental note to tell Dalma to not create that app.
Alix
Yeeeep
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In a world that currently has no problem leaving people to sleep on the streets, I’m already nervous how Deckers are going to be treated as time goes on.
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