‘What is it, Mr Hannigan?’ she asks, watching it written all over my face, the utter hopelessness of it all. She knows. She knows it like I do, its touch, its taste, its smell. It is then she lays her hand on mine. I stare at it, and am surprised at my instinct to want to place my other on top. But it will not move. ‘How have you coped?’ I say, instead. ‘With him dying, leaving you, how have you managed to keep going?’ ‘Ah. That. Does one really? That’s more the question. Does one really cope?