In My Dreams I Hold a Knife

by Ashley Winstead

the Duquette motto: Mutantur nos et vos, corpus et animam meam. We will change you, body and soul.

“Let me finish. I get it. You’re hungry. You want things so bad it hurts. You’d do anything to get them.” “Coop—” “And I fucking love you for it, all right? I always have. One look at you freshman year, and I was doomed. I know it’s wrong because of Caro. But it’s always been wrong, for one reason or another. Never the right time. And Christ, never worse than now. But I can’t hide from the truth any longer. Do the wrong thing with me, Jess. I promise, I will make you happy. I will love you for the rest of my life. I’m going to do it anyway; I accepted that a long time ago. But please. Do it with me.”