I had come to a point where it felt like no matter what I said or did, I would never get Killian to understand me. Beg for salvation. I did, on my knees, every night… Atone for your sins. Repent. Marrying Killian and staying in this relationship was my atonement. Redemption is in the hands of the one you have wronged. Too bad for me, the man I had wronged hated me with every ounce of his being. I had come to understand that maybe, I would never find the redemption I was seeking. Not in this lifetime anyway.
