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“What if I can’t walk again?” He grinned cruelly. “Then, I’ll drag you down the aisle, on your fucking knees, if I have to.”
I should pay for my sin. I should suffer. I should die at his hands. It was his right. After all, I killed his heart.
“I will break you, Julianna Romano.” You can’t break what’s already broken.
This marriage was his vengeance – the vows would not be of love, but of hatred. His retaliation. My atonement. One imperfect marriage.
“To hurt you, to break you… and to hate you for the rest of our days. I will never be your protector, never your defender; I vow to be the villain in your story.” “… And to keep her in sickness and in health, forsaking all others, for as long as you both shall live?” “In health and in sickness, through sorrow and pain, for all the days in my life, I will be your worst nightmare.”
It would have been a sight to be seen, watching her break, if I hadn’t been so bothered by it. But I didn’t let myself question why because, at the end of the day, it didn’t matter. Julianna and I were poison together, as she said. There was no cure.
“There’s a fine line between love and hate, Killian,” Julianna muttered, her voice soft and broken. “Not for us,” I said. “Not for us,” she agreed.
“I came into your life, bringing tragedy with me,” I whispered. “Love can kill while still keeping you alive to feel it. How deadly it is, how painful, how cruel.”
Because my truth was that… I fell in love with Killian Spencer when I was seventeen years old. But I only ended up killing his heart.
Two weeks in her company and I was starting to see Julianna for someone other than Gracelynn’s killer…
“So fucking haunting. So goddamn beautiful. How dare you, Julianna?” Killian rasped into my ear. “How dare you make me look at you as someone other than Gracelynn’s killer? It’s not fair for you to have such power over me.”
She was betrothed to one man. But loved another.
She was a virgin. Had been. Like me. Goddamn it. All this time… I thought… FUCK!
“Gracelynn.”
“I wanted to wear a red dress, but then I thought it would be too bold.” “You made the right choice, because if you had worn a red dress – I would have defiled you right there behind a pillar.”
“Indeed,” Killian rasped. “Patience is a virtue, but mine has been stretched thin. I throb for you, Princess.”
“I plummeted into chaos because your love was everything beautiful and pure, but my love was everything deceitful and destructive. So, I didn’t just fall in love with you, Killian. I crawled, on my knees, bleeding for you. So, it was real. Every moment, every smile, every kiss… it was real and it hurt.”
“There’s a fine line between love and hate. And I just realized that I love you as much as I fucking hate you, Julianna.”
I married the woman I loved through deceit. I mourned the woman I loved, when she wasn’t even fucking dead.
It was in this moment that I realized her scars did nothing to hinder her beauty. No one looked at the moon and thought of how bruised it was for the scarred moon’s beauty was more mesmerizing.
My fists clenched on the armrests, so that I wouldn’t do something stupid like reach out for her.
I burned in Killian’s presence and I ached in his absence.
“Don’t make me fall in love with you again.” “I can’t promise that,” I whispered. “Because it doesn’t matter how hard I try, I can’t take you out of my heart. You’re so deep under my skin that you’ve burrowed yourself into a corner of my soul, Killian.”
“Hi,” I said, my eyes darting to my out-stretched hand and back to his dark gaze. “I’m Julianna. Nice to meet you.” Killian’s brows rose up in surprise. “Did I just fuck you into insanity?”
Though our relationship was still shaky, we didn’t lack physical intimacy in our married life. Julianna and I had consummated our marriage on every possible surface of our rooms.
Little did she know… I never fell out of love with her.
“I took a bullet for my wife,”
“You’ve dug yourself under my skin, into my bones. You fucking stabbed me in the chest, I’m bleeding for you, Princess. You kill me and I still fucking need you like I need my next breath. I need you as much as I want to destroy you. How is that possible?”
“You’re not fragile, but you’re my wife – the woman I love and I almost lost you a month ago. Please, humor me. Let me do this,”

