It breaks my heart that the role should have been my big break and yet here I am, no longer an actress – no longer anything at all except a single mother. I know that’s a really important job and I wouldn’t be without my darling S, but I don’t see why I couldn’t have had the job and the baby. I’d have made it work if I’d only been given the chance. But no. I had to up sticks, leave it all behind and just accept that’s the way things work.
