You intellectually want to feel compersion for your partner having positive experiences with others, but you keep interpreting them being with others as a sign of your deficiency.
Oh just @ me next time. I feel this connects with my only- gifted- child experiences. The imposter syndrome, the internalization of the expectations of others, and just a general sense of responsibility for 'solving' relationships. Aaaaand in monogamy these traits are easily covered by the normative structures.
