I know I’m not supposed to feel anything other than lust for Pax. That’s kind of the whole point of our not complicated arrangement. But what am I supposed to do when he takes me somewhere so thoughtful and looks at me like I’m someone? What am I supposed to do when he kisses me like he doesn’t have a choice? If he doesn’t want me to fall in love with him, he’s doing a really crappy job of keeping that from happening.
