Sorted: Growing Up, Coming Out, and Finding My Place (A Transgender Memoir)

by Jackson Bird

“But if you dress like a boy and you have a haircut like a boy, how will anyone know you’re not a boy?”

mood xD

Not that I would’ve been caught dead dressed like them. I just wished it wasn’t so strange for me to be different.

“See? You dress like a boy, you’ll get mistaken for a boy.”

How could she think being mistaken for a boy was such a bad thing? Didn’t she realize that was, at least partially, my goal in dressing like this?

I remained slightly confused about my gender and sexuality, but absolutely convinced that there was nothing I could ever do about it. I believed becoming Jack was impossible, so I let writing be my one outlet and spent the rest of my time working on becoming the perfect, desirable girl.

It would be another year before I would buy a proper binder and another five and a half before I was sure enough in myself to tell other people who I was. But in that moment, it felt as though the world was exactly how it always should have been.

good to know im not alone :)