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February 24 - March 21, 2023
His voice reassures my mind, but not my heart. Tears start rolling down my face. I don’t want to let her go. New York is far. Too far. Petra is the joy of my life. My only child. My little angel, as I call her. But how can I fight against Roy Van Gatt and his multimillion-dollar lawyers? How can I fight when I’m an alcoholic who doesn’t want to get help?
I already hate this book and I’m only in the prologue. 🤦🏽♀️
“Do you like it? I named her Lucy. A blonde, sun-kissed, with brown eyes, just as you like.” I actually have a penchant for the opposite, but since the birth of his daughter, I’ve never told him.
It’s freaking creepy that he cites the reason for hiding his sexual preferences as being the birth of his best friend’s daughter.
“Look, here is what I can do for you. As her godfather, it’d be a pleasure to spend more time with Petra, but I won’t repeat to you anything she tells me unless I deem it necessary for her protection. And I promise to keep that Emma away.”
This is actually extremely fucked up. So, they are planning to isolate her from her best friend because she is the polar opposite of Petra…..ew.
It’s my first time on a motorcycle, my first time running away from home, and my first time dressing so daringly.
This character is so exhausting. Girl, all you did was put on jeans, a T-shirt, and a choker with some heels and a jacket…..and you aren’t running away, you’re an adult going to a party. I hate when writers feel the need to remind the reader how innocent and young the MC is.
“Just in case you didn’t realize, little Petra, it’s a teen concert.”
Okay, this is so fucking annoying! We get it, she is still a teenager! Why does it have to be classified as a "teen concert" just because the audience is younger? Ex: Ariana Grande appeals to teens, but she's still a grown ass woman singing about grown woman things.
Jimmy reaches down, takes my hand, and presses it firmly against his boner, already arching hard into my palm. I gasp at the feel of him but keep my hand still.
Red flag alert! This girl is just melting for any man that shows her the least little bit of attention. Not a great setup for her.
Hungry for more, he discreetly pulls my skirt up, and I feel his fingers fondling my inner thigh. I shiver at his touch, and I instinctively stop him from getting closer to my crotch. “I’m sorry, I’m—” “I know,” he cuts me off with a sly smile. “You’ve never done it, right?” I frown at the question. Is it written on my face or what? “And how do you know that?” I ask, confused. “I felt it,” he replies plainly. I narrow my eyes, Alex’s voice suddenly resonating in my mind. I don’t think he cares about you, but rather about what you are. Did he mean a virgin? Jimmy’s about to reach my lips, but
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Okay, let's break this down: The first time they spent alone time together he kisses her and she kisses him back, they'd just met and don't know each other. She goes to his concert and backstage before the show, they kiss and he places her hand on his crotch telling her she's sexy and he wants to be totality alone with her and she agrees. Now that they are alone as she agreed and he has mad eit clear he wants sex, something that was very clear and obvious from the very beginning, she's confused and upset??? Her reaction was stupid and uncalled for because literally what else would he want if the entire basis of their relationship has been purely physical from the start? His reaction is not at all okay but he's also coked out of his mind and drunk off his ass, he likely won't even remember this in the morning.
She’s so beautiful without all this rubbish. Natural, angelic, pure…
The way he and her father's other friends and colleagues perceive Petra gives me the ick. It's like they all have a teen virgin kink.
After getting out of the shower, I observe my naked figure in the mirror. Pale, fragile, too skinny, and curveless are just some of the words that come to mind. I can even see my collarbone sticking out.
The way her self esteem took a tumble after that attempted rape is just sad.
“Since you are no longer fit to be part of this family, you’ll renounce our father’s name and his heritage. You’ll change your name to Jimmy Visser.”
Okay, I have zero sympathy for scumbag rapists and abusers, but uh....get this man into rehab and psychotherapy maybe...? What good is disowning him if he's still a total and complete train wreck?! The guy was coked out of his mind and has no recollection of what happened...wtf?!
“Unless you consider death a viable option.”
That escalated to an uncomfortable and unnecessary level.
I know, but Alex is not a boy, he is a man… and a very special one, actually.
I am uncomfortable....
A softness that seems to settle on his face, his gaze, his lips… And as we remain quiet, there is this strange energy between us, some sort of attraction I know we both wish we didn’t feel.
I am definitely uncomfortable
The woman is wearing a badge that reads Marie-Claire, Guest Assistant.
I see what she did here…
“We’re going to watch a movie like friends do,”
This very clearly a date……uncomfy.
“This is so dope!”
This sentence feels super out of place for this character….next time get an editor.
“Because you are way too young to drink.” Not really, but I prefer to keep it alcohol-free. It’s safer.
Sir…what???? Fucking creepy.
“Ms. Van Gatt, we are already having a very cheesy evening. Let’s not exaggerate.”
I can’t stand the writing in this book. It’s giving “ English isn’t my first language and I couldn’t be bothered to hire an editor.“ Also, the writing is just plain juvenile. Think that trash ass fanfiction, My Immortal.
“Promise me you will never settle for anything less than you deserve.”
You have got to be kidding me………..🤦🏼♀️
How am I supposed to tell her she is too old for cuddles? This is not okay, for God’s sake. Where are the boundaries?
Sir, if you know this then push her off of you and set the boundaries. Disgusting.
We couldn’t agree on anything more.
But I’ve been thinking about our near-kiss for the whole evening as I remained resting on his chest, reveling in his warmth and delicious scent, and wondering how it’d had felt pressing my lips on his…
I am so uncomfortable….
Alex should remain what he has always been: a friend and my godfather.
A godfather, yes. A friend ? Inappropriate.
At least once a week, Dad makes sure to free his agenda so he can have supper at home with me.
This is literally the bottom of the barrel of bare minimum. Wtf?!
“By the way, um, Mom asked if I could take a plane and go to Rotterdam after Rome. Is it alright if I spend the weekend there?”
She has to ASK to see her own mother ???????
“Petra, did you imagine the consequences of your words? It could’ve seriously damaged his reputation and our company. This is New York. People make up stories based on anything. It was in the best interest of everyone,”
She was fucking seven years old with a crush dude!!!! How could you possibly hold that against her?....Please tell me that the author isn't using the MC's childhood crush phase to justify what happens next....not okay.
I’ve spent a considerable amount of time wondering why Alex had left, blaming him for his absence, but the ugly truth is now right here in front of me. I had been the embarrassment, the one to blame, not him.
Again, she was SEVEN YEARS OLD! WTF?
“Do you remember the first painting you did?” I crease my brows together. “Um, yes.” But Dad just rephrases his question and asks again. “I mean, do you recall what you painted?” “Oh, um, no, I don’t think so.” “Well, you should go to your atelier and find out. You’ll see why I never gave your ‘gift’ to him. I know you’ll understand. It was painful but necessary. You had caused enough trouble for your godfather and his girlfriend.” “I’m not gonna check.” My tone remains low and broken, my mind still in shock. “I feel humiliated and embarrassed enough. I’m… I’m so sorry to have brought up this
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Dude….this is so irritating.
You were the pushy one and you were the one who scared him away,
I feel sick to my stomach. What is this book? 🤢
After all, I don’t even know if he’ll be joining me in Rome or not.
He literally just told her he wasn’t going….
I can’t help but roll my eyes as she poses with her flute of champagne looking out of the window. Pathetic.
Um…what? Why is this character child written so stuck up and above it all. She's so unlikable.
the corners of my lips curving downward in an inverted u-shape.
You mean she pouted…..GET AN EDITOR!
Damn, it’s so hard not to fall for him. I know I shouldn’t. After all, he’s a heartbreaker.
That’s the only problem? Not the fact that there’s a gigantic AGE CANYON between them or the fact that he is her literal GODFATHER?!
Oh boy. I feel like I’m seven all over again.
Uh…..seven year old little girls don’t have sexual feelings towards their pseudo father figures…..and if they do, therapy needs to immediately ensue.
“Would you offer me a last drink in your room?”
I can’t even….
My face flushes, my pussy drenches, and my heart explodes like fireworks, feeling his lips pinned on mine.
Dude…this is like a cautionary tale about rampant hormones in sheltered teens.This girl stays continuously putting herself in adult situations she probably isn’t even ready for. What was this author on?
He’s finally deep inside, and I feel myself bleeding.
There’s far too much ick to unpack here so I’m going to focus on the fact that this isn’t how first time sex works…..you don’t feel yourself bleeding…..once again, it's giving My Immortal.
he gave me a hickey!
Not only is this not okay, but you’d think a man so experienced would know better. Fucking gross! 🤢
“Well, there is a lot about him and his family you don’t know...” It feels like a hint. “But anyway, that’s great. I’m glad for you. He has always been so kind and caring to you. I’m happy he’s back in your life.” Her tone and face, though, say otherwise.
Now I want to know what the mama knows….
“You are confusing love with attraction, my dear. I know he is very good-looking and charming, but he is your father’s best friend and more than twice your age.”
YOU BETTER TELL HER!
I feel so ashamed and disgusted by feeling so turned on by her.
Are we supposed to feel sorry for him? 🥱
That little thing over there dressed like a teenager.
She not dressed like a teenager, she IS a teenager.....
“I won’t remove it.”
I find every character in this book to be extremely unlikable.
I love to see her wearing dresses with ribbons wrapped around her waist.
Just when I thought the men in this book couldn't get any creepier...🤦🏼♀️
My heart is thundering so loud, I hope she doesn’t pay any attention to it.
This writer needs an editor. Like ma'am, if you're going to write a fanfic about a younger you being with an older man, maybe get an editor so you don't sound like the person who wrote that God awful fanfiction My Immortal.
Her skinny legs look so smooth that I wonder for a brief instant how it’d feel to caress them.
Eeeugh! So unbelievably creepy! 🤢🙈
I want so much to lay her down, move my body on top of hers, and devour her mouth madly… My mind goes wild as I think about removing her shorts, feeling her skin against mine, touching her clit, and giving her the pleasure I’ve wanted to since Rome. Then, eyes looking into eyes, I’d tell her how much I… Damn it.
Dude.....why does the idea of ephebophilia make this author so hot and bothered?
The pain of not possessing her is too much to bear.
C R E E P Y !
The simple thought of them being sexually involved is repugnant.
Frankly, that is the least repugnant thing about any of this.
“Look, one day, very, very far away, you’ll meet a man who’ll love you unconditionally. He will want to make you the happiest woman in the world, even if that means sacrificing himself, his own desires, and his own happiness to make yours shine. When you meet someone like that, you should be on the safe side and can marry him,”
So, is the author trying to not so subtlety paint Alexander as the man to fill this role? It's still a hard no for me.
