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“Havoc.” The word slips past my lips before I can stop it, before I can question the decision I just spent a whole summer making. It's the first thing I utter when I get past the security guards, drug dogs, and metal detectors that guard the entrance of Prescott High. The whole hallway goes silent. Everyone in it turns to face me, the girl foolish enough to bring them down on me, those dirty, rotten H.A.V.O.C. Boys. Hael, Aaron, Victor, Oscar, and Callum.
starting off strong lol. she's ALREADY looking for trouble!? the book just started! I don't even know her name! is it the first day of School!? I love this already. so reckless and fast.
“Jesus fucking Christ,” he says,
same, dude, same.
“Right, okay, whatever, it’s your fucking funeral.”
right? lol I thought they
During sophomore year, my ex-best friend hired the Havoc Boys to torment me. I’ve spent a year and a half wondering what price she paid. Mostly, I’ve spent a year and a half wondering if the Havoc Boys ever cared about me at all.
um... what DID she pay? I'm curious. what would they have wanted in order to spend a whole fucking year harassing her?
There’s a fine line between hate and lust, isn’t there?
um... not in my experience lol
“I have to be married before I can collect.” “Married …”
aaaaah, lol I'm starting to get where this is going, the reasoning ans all that jazz
“If I’d wanted that, I would’ve asked you to be my whore, not a member of my crew.
True, I was wondering too before all the info
“You thought you caged a kitty cat? You got a fucking cougar. Watch my claws when you take me to bed.”
lol that was sooo fucking cheesy
1. the stepdad 2. the best friend 3. the social worker 4. the ex-boyfriend 5. the principal 6. the foster brother 7. the mom
finally, the list.
“Bernadette Blackbird,” Vic begins, kneeling down in front of me. My brows go up as he pulls the velvet box from his pocket, and opens the top, his attention focused solely on my face. “Will you marry me?”
fucking priceless lol
See, that's the thing with pain. Once it finds you and grabs hold, it doesn't let go easily. It's always there, a demon with reaching claws.
cocksure
ok, why!? lol cocky, COCKY smile. I've read corkscrew so many times I hate it
The Havoc Boys have just given Donald Asher the sensation of dying without actually having done anything at all.
ok that would be really fucking scary
My pulse begins to hum, and I swear, the whole universe hones down to a single, fine point, like we're resting on the tip of some dark god's ballpoint pen.
I'm sorry, I have never been so in Lust to be attracted to a guy while in hurt lol. fuck him and his smell until the pain Is gone.
“If nothing happened with Kali, why not just tell me?” I demand, breathing hard, shaking. “It’s okay. You used her. You’re using me. You don’t give a shit who you destroy or step on or fuck up, do you?”
damn girl lol she's persistent
I hate him. I want him.
she's a fucking idiot
He just stands there; I can feel his presence behind me, this all-consuming demand that I both hate and crave at the same time. The way I feel about Victor Channing, it makes no sense.
what the fuck!? so... they have a fight.he just decided to fuck her. he finished and she didn't. and then she's in the ground and he's just like. get up we have shit to do? argument forgotten? problem solved? nope. no . nope.
And yet … when I close my eyes, I can feel him buried inside of me, and that heat I work so hard to fight back begins to creep into every single cell.
fucking idiot. forget she was JUST arguing with him about kali and what their price was and not backing down. a little bit of dick. not even good dick because she didn't even finish and she let's it go!? she's way too easy to manipulate
“What did Kali pay you to get her dirty work done?”
oh good! she's not TOO dicknotized
“She betrayed every person she knows to us, including her cousin who was fucking a well-known local judge.”
aaaaah, they tortured her to help Aaron keep the girls. that makes sense.
Aaron’s own words drown him out. “It was me,” he announces, and our eyes meet across the rainy courtyard. “It’s my knife.”
fucking idiot. they're all idiots. he has 2 little girls who depend on him. he can't afford to get thrown in jail, but by all means, our of all of the Aaron need to cover for her. fucking idiot
“Yeah, maybe stabbing that bitch in front of the whole school wasn’t a good choice, but you’re new. You’ll figure things out.”
ya think!? she's an idiot
It’s only in that moment that it occurs to me what I’ve just done. I’ve risked Aaron’s safety with his sister and cousin.
like I said, fuxking idiot. she JUST realized this!?NOW!? idiot.
“Aaron’s in love with you,” Hael says,
um, duh
“You finally got Vic to crack, huh?”
I mean... she HAS been obviously thirsty
“You look … ruffled,” Oscar says, his voice a smooth purr that doesn’t belong in this dark world we live in. He sounds like a fallen prince or something. “I think I like you better this way: vulnerable, messy, and wearing Victor’s gym shorts.”
Oscar does seem the type
guessing Vic got this for me because of the knife wound … but I need it a bit more for the ache between my legs. I
Come ON! really? she got fucked hard so that's why she needs meds? NOT the large knife wound with stitches. nope, the fucking. get the fuck out
If you want to jump Kali, we can make that happen. I’d just prefer nobody else knew about it.”
EXACTLY. and she fucking knew that.
“Are you on birth control?” he asks, and I grit my teeth. Of course we can’t just let yesterday go, can we? “No.”
yup, she's a fucking idiot. not because of not taking birth control. I mean yes, she should have started on that the second she asked to this arrangement. but mostly because she knows he didn't use protection and doesn't expect him to ask about birth control
“Do you want to stop and get a morning-after pill when we’re done here?”
smart boy
“Why are you so determined to make this suck?”
thank you!
“Why?”
ok yes i want him to fess up too. why?
“Let me perform my duties,” I grind out, gesturing at his hard cock. “Like you did yesterday.”
this fucking girl.
“When we're finished here, you can go back and perform your duties for Hael. He's chomping at the bit to fuck you over the hood of his Camaro. Have at it.”
LMFAO
remembering that night we spent together in the homeless shelter. I was so scared, but Hael wasn't. He covered both our heads with his blanket, wrapping us up in our own private cocoon. Don’t be scared, little bird, he’d said, smiling a gap-toothed smile at me. We can tell stories until the sun comes up. I remember thinking he was the bravest, most beautiful person I'd ever met.
aaawe Hael. I like him. I think this far i like Callum most though. idk why
the temptation and the challenge of getting Vic's best friend in bed warring with my sudden and desperate need to be alone.
she is a giant red and glowing self distruct button with a curious monkey as the only guard.
“I’m pretty sure I hate her. Maybe I’ve always hated her?” “You screw people you hate?” I ask, and he cocks a brow at me. “You slept with Vic.”
fair.
Because he basically ordered me to have sex with you.”
no. he did not. this ridiculous girl.
“What’s your problem? How can you fuck a man who treated you so poorly? Vic annihilated you during sophomore year, and yet you’re panting after him like a bitch in heat.”
fair question, but damn boy
“Head's up: the Ensbrooks and the Charters are out for Havoc blood,” Stacey
I kinda like Stacy
Confucius says dig two graves before embarking on a journey of revenge. But what if that revenge is the only thing keeping you alive? And what if the people you're seeking revenge on deserve it? If Batman had just killed the Joker from the get-go, how many more people would still be alive? Sometimes the bad guys have to die, so if I have to dig two graves, so be it. Better than digging three.
you... turned that in. idiot. just write a confession to the murder before it happens.
“According to you, you're just a fuck-buddy for us to use as we please. Why don't you stick with that role since it seems to interest you more?”
can't have it both ways. I like vic.
“Are we really Havoc anymore with Bernadette here?” Callum muses, reaching up to ruffle at his blond hair under his hood. “More like Havoc B. Bhavoc. Covahb. There really isn't a great configuration to add a B in, is there?”
see? I like cal, he's saying what I've been thinking lol
There's this strange churning in my stomach that I can't explain, that almost feels like guilt.
oh you mean because you're thinking of another guy? because you didn't kiss him even though you like him? because you're both full of shit?
But somehow, Aaron's and Vic's attitudes make me want to leave with Hael.
honestly same lol if want to go do it even more just because they're all mad about it
And all for the sake of revenge.
she's so full of shit
“You don’t like my voice?” he asks, that husky sound curling around me like smoke. “I love it, actually,” I say,
me too girl lol. i haven't heard it ,but the description. *chef's kiss*
“Sometimes pain is pretty, to the people who have too much of it,” he tells me, and then kisses me on the cheek. “You’re gorgeous, by the way.”
wow. that's um... one way to tell her he sees her pain. I REALLY like Cal.
“Did you like it?” he asks,
yes.
“You could barely stand letting me touch you, but the look on your face when you were riding him … Well, shit, Hael must be as good as all the sluts at Fuller High say he is.”
lol yup
