Regretting You

by Colleen Hoover

I wonder if humans are the only living creatures that ever feel hollow inside. I don’t understand how my body can be full of everything bodies are full of—bones and muscles and blood and organs—yet my chest sometimes feels vacant, as if someone could scream into my mouth and it would echo inside of me.

Ooo I like that start

Sometimes when we’re alone, he looks at me in a way that makes me feel empty when he looks away.

Oh girl

It’s like my chest has been on a constant search for its missing piece, and Jonah is holding it in his fist.

Okayyyy

“You’re a sacrificer. I don’t even know if that’s a real word, but that’s what you are. You do things you don’t want to do to make life better for the people around you.

Interesting

It’s my birthday, and I’m surrounded by everyone important to me, but for some reason, I feel more alone than I’ve ever felt.

Hmmm...

“It means people who make mistakes usually learn from them. That doesn’t make them hypocrites. It makes them experienced.”

Yesssss

“I’ve believed in you since the moment I met you. I believe in myself now that I’ve finally left you.”

Oooooo

“You know the day in my truck when you told me to figure out my shit?” I nod. “That was the day I broke up with Shelby. It wasn’t today or yesterday. It was weeks ago. And to be honest, my shit was already figured out long before that day. I just didn’t want to hurt her.”

Period Miller.

I think it’s time I figure out who I was meant to become before I started living my life for everyone else.

Yesssss

“I’ve never hated watermelon Jolly Ranchers. I only saved them because I knew they were your favorite.”

Okay Jonah

“I’m not you, Mom. Miller isn’t Dad. And I really wish you’d stop referring to me as a mistake.”

Oh.

He has half a sandwich still left to eat, but as soon as I say that, he stands up and walks over to a nearby trash can and tosses it inside. He sits back down. “That sandwich meant nothing to me. I’d take your tongue in my mouth over that sandwich any day.”

Okayyyy

It’s as if all the romance novels I’ve ever read have turned into dystopian fantasies.

Oh damn

Attraction isn’t something that only happens once, with one person. It’s part of what drives humans. Our attraction to each other, to art, to food, to entertainment. Attraction is fun. So when you decide to commit to someone, you aren’t saying, ‘I promise I’ll never be attracted to anyone else.’ You’re saying, ‘I promise to commit to you, despite my potential future attraction to other people.’”

Ooo yeah

“Relationships are hard for that very reason. Your body and your heart don’t stop finding the beauty and the attraction in other people simply because you’ve made a commitment to one person. If you ever find yourself in a situation where you’re drawn to someone else, it’s up to you to remove yourself from that situation before it becomes too hard to fight.”

Yesssss