I accept there is a problem: my girlfriend needs time to herself. ‘I come to believe that a Power greater than myself can restore me to sanity’; it does, the program – which is a power greater than me and my previous way of thinking – tells me in this moment, the only moment I have, to immediately surrender my old idea (in this case the old idea is not ‘I must take heroin to be happy’, it is ‘I am here to write’). The idea is surrendered. The power is the program, the sanity is I recover my role as a good father and boyfriend. And I feel good. I feel good typing on this bed with (quite cool
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