From Lukov with Love

by Mariana Zapata

“You.”

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I’ve wanted to choke you?”

it’s more important than a marriage.”

oh ??? 😳

“I want you to be safe because you matter to me. You think I bring my partners to my house? You think I let them into my life? You think I spend time with their families? I don’t, and I never have. I learned my lesson when I was a teenager and my partner tried to blackmail my family by saying they paid for us to win our junior events. That’s why I do contracts now, to keep it professional. I don’t ever want to be as unhappy as I was after my first partner did those things to my family and me. But you….”

“You. Matter. To. Me.

You didn’t treat her different because of her last name like everyone else did. You didn’t ask her about me.

“I wanted you to be my partner for years, dumbass. When Karina had told me you were thinking about switching to pairs, I had thought you would say something to me, even in passing as a joke. I thought you would say you were going to kick my ass, and I had planned on talking to you over it. But you never did. The next thing I knew, you had a partner. Some dipshit that wasn’t half as good as you.”

“You’ve been in my life for thirteen years. How could you not think I don’t care about you?

don’t want anything to happen to your stubborn, mouthy, mean ass. My partner or not my partner. Do we have that clear?”

And especially when it was Ivan.

with a fucking arm wrapped around my waist.

“I would be.”

STOP IM LITERALLY CRYING SO HARD 😭😭

“I believe in you. In us. Regardless of what happens, you will always be the best partner I’ve ever had. You’ll always be the hardest working person I’ve ever known. There will only ever be you.”

i cant do this right now im literally crying so hard 😭😭😭💔💔💔💔

“I’ll give you anything you want if you stop crying.”

Love to me was honesty. Being real. Knowing someone’s best and worst. Love was a push that said someone believed in you when you didn’t.

That’s when everything went wrong.

her father rly is messing everything up for her

And then he cut me off. With his mouth. His lips pressed to mine. Surged to mine. Covered them. Hard.

AHAHHAHHHHHHHHH WHAT THE FUCK I WASNT EXPECTING THAT

Friends could kiss in relief.

SHUTUPSHUTUPSHUTUP YOUrE NOT FUCKING MARINETTE AND ADRIEN SO SHUT UPPPPPP

around this man who meant the world to me.

I loved him. I loved this man so much that losing him was going to break my cold, dead heart into so many pieces I was just going to have to stick them in the same box I kept my dreams and carry it around with me forever.

STOP IM CRYING AGAIN 😭😭

This was my partner. This was more than my partner. He was my other half.

WHOS FUCKING CUTTING ONIONS STOP ITTTT

half-Filipino,

i guess the whole college thing and sports is just a waste of time thing makes sense now 🤡

you owe me, Jasmine.”

condescendin jackass SHE DOESNT OWE U SHIT

One year ago, I would have wanted to beat the shit out of him. I would have been too prideful to ever admit any of this.

we love character development

I’m not that good of a person.”

“If you were going to cry for anyone, it was going to be me.”

Whatever happens, he mouthed to me. But then his lips kept forming words. Three words exactly. I love you.

AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHH OH MY FUCKING GODDDDDDD

“A Whole New World” from the Aladdin soundtrack because… why not?

WAIT THATS SO CUTE 😭😭💔

“I know. But I’m old news. Everyone is used to it.”

“I love you so much I spend all day with you, and it still isn’t enough for me,” he kept going. I stopped breathing. “I love you so much, if I can’t skate with you, I don’t want to skate with anyone else.” Holy. Fuck. “I love you so fucking much, Jasmine, that if I broke my ankle during a program, I would get up and finish it for you, to get you what you’ve always wanted.”

SGSJAJAKAKAKAK OMGGGGG IM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW 😭😭😭😭

“Because I’m okay with you having ten other people be your favorite. But you’re always going to be my favorite person,” he finished. “Always. No matter what.”

brb gonna go drown in my tears NO COZ IF MY FUTURE BF ISNT LIKE IVAN LUKOV I DONT FUCKING WANT HIM

“We do everything good together. You know that.”

But not as good as we used to be.