Friends and neighbors were bringing dinners and arranging meal trains. I was in awe of how many people reached out with love and support. I mentioned this to Charles one night, how good and kind people were. “Don’t think it has anything to do with you. Cancer makes people nervous. That’s why they’re calling and reaching out—they’re just anxious. It really has nothing to do with you . . . just say the word cancer, and people get scared.” I know that I heard him. I have never forgotten his words. Yet the moment passed and I said nothing.
QUOTE FROM THE 1ST FEW CHAPTERS SUMS EVERYTHING UP PERFECTLY ABOUT HER + HER HUSBAND, CHARLES =******"He had no clue about love or compassion; it was as if there was nothing inside him. He was an empty shell. I had only a glimpse of it then, but not in the way I would come to see him later. Back then, it emerged from the depths of my consciousness only in times of anger. At those times, I shouted at him, shaking with rage, “You weren’t there for me!” But, for the most part, I pushed my feelings away." **********
